so it's been seven months for me now, as of today. i haven't been here as often as before, and that's due to being at peace with my current state. well, i won't sit here and say i'm fully recovered and back to who i was. but am i able to smoke weed and enjoy it again? go out the movies and smile, laugh and have fun? have the energy to work out? yes. life is worth living again. despite some issues, like my sleep being worse than it used to be and memory loss, i'm okay with where i am at. i even gained some beneficial traits, as i used to be way too emotional and talkative due to my ADHD, but invega kind of lessened that to a degree that i like. sexual function is baseline normal. i was given only one injection, so maybe that's why i feel better so soon. i went to puerto rico on vacation to visit my family and i bought a pen there. it was 89% thc and i was terrified to try it after the paranoia invega brought onto me; but no, i had an enjoyable high. i even managed to play soccer for 6 hours straight with my cousins and friends.
i'm not very great with words so i will hurry this up and say, maybe it is luck of the draw, this injection. whoever recovers just recovers, but i urge you all to find the smallest bit of motivation to life live again. yes it is difficult, i tried killing myself on invega twice, but it is possible to recover to a point of being okay again.
with that being said, i'm not sure if i'll leave this place just yet because it's nice to read posts when i'm in that depressed invega state and find reassurance; but i still don't have any plans to post often.
this was a horrible time of my life that i am ready to start letting go slowly. much love for this community.
NOW! RIGHT FU*KING NOW!!
