I’m the same way I’ve tried twice this year and I couldn’t do it. It’s like part of me hasn’t given up yet. Although I view that part of me as foolish. There’s no way I’m getting better.
I view myself as a complete failure now. I knew better than to let them inject me with this poison. It’s been hard to come to terms with having to die but I genuinely feel like that’s my destiny now. I have no money, no job, a fucked up family, so much anxiety and pain. I know people will see it as me giving up but it’s courageous to kill yourself in my opinion. I hope I can develop that courage.