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Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v. 10

Another day of no emotions. No enthusiasm. I don't know what the problem is but my brain just feels flat.
 
I fucking hate myself over this shit. Im so sick of being brain dead. But these are the consequences of my own terrible actions. Nobody deserves this shit.
 
IOSIP said:
Bit of everything. I heard some songs on the radio today just some classics and they sounded good. I used to love electronic music but I can't listen to that right now.
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Do you know four tet? Makes great electronic music. Here's this cool remix

 
In pyshcosis I had the secrets to the universe. My favourite yourtubers were talking directly to me through the TV screen.

In th aftermath I am nothing but a shattered mess of my former self. I am so scared guys.

I know I keep ranting about this. But I need to get back into work and my ability to do that is so fucked because I can't use my brain. I have motivation I'm really worried thus will be permanent

Why did I make the choices I made. I wish I had a time machine. It was one vad decision after another.
 
IOSIP said:
In pyshcosis I had the secrets to the universe. My favourite yourtubers were talking directly to me through the TV screen.

In th aftermath I am nothing but a shattered mess of my former self. I am so scared guys.

I know I keep ranting about this. But I need to get back into work and my ability to do that is so fucked because I can't use my brain. I have motivation I'm really worried thus will be permanent

Why did I make the choices I made. I wish I had a time machine. It was one vad decision after another.
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How was the “message” from the YouTuber?
 
wbga said:
How was the “message” from the YouTuber?
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It was like they were talking directly to me. And I would intetact back to them with excitement and elation thag my favourite youtubers were speaking to me in subliminal messages.

It was total bullshit of course but at the time it was the most incredible thing in the world. They were my friends. I believed the internet was all ai generated and curated specifically for me.

Oh dude.
 
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