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Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v. 10

paranoid android said:
I updated my wardrobe to all adidas shit after i got better and lost the weight from invega and abilify. I still cant fit into my 34 jeans though as i am no longer a skinny morphine addict. Im about 200lbs now but thats mostly muscle. So ya fuck wearing jeans anyway
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In communism free expression like making your own line of clothing was illegal. Just saying cause of Ur profile pic
 
2 days until 6 months off 1 invega injection. wanted to wait until after i went to a rock concert to post this to see if i can at least handle being out of the house first. it was amazing, i had a lot of fun and moved a bunch, i felt social. i'm feeling sufficiently recovered, but not completely. i still have a few minor physical problems with my chest but emotionally wise, i'm doing good. i've been grinding a ton of games as well and i feel so dedicated to them. i'm hoping by month 7 i'll feel even better. for right now, life is finally worth living again. i feel hopeful and weed works so great. i'm taking much better care of myself. don't know how often i'll post here now that i don't need this place but i'll post updates and check in every now and then. 🖤
 
destroylonely said:
2 days until 6 months off 1 invega injection. wanted to wait until after i went to a rock concert to post this to see if i can at least handle being out of the house first. it was amazing, i had a lot of fun and moved a bunch, i felt social. i'm feeling sufficiently recovered, but not completely. i still have a few minor physical problems with my chest but emotionally wise, i'm doing good. i've been grinding a ton of games as well and i feel so dedicated to them. i'm hoping by month 7 i'll feel even better. for right now, life is finally worth living again. i feel hopeful and weed works so great. i'm taking much better care of myself. don't know how often i'll post here now that i don't need this place but i'll post updates and check in every now and then. 🖤
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I am in the 8 months off, I felt same in 6 months. I am recovering more and more each month.
 
TonyTonyChopper said:
disgusting psychiatrist says invega LAI are his favorite. Yeah he gets joy from ruining peoples lives.
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That thread makes me sick. Clearly only people with schizophrenia have a good time with this medication. It's fucking poison
 
Believe in God might be an asshole. But i feel for him. I'm fucking brain dead from this shit. It's been 5 months and every day is the same. I have nothing going to say I can't feel any enthusiasm or excitement for life. This feels permanent to me. I'm so scared. I'm so lonely.

There is an unspeakable void between me and everyone I've ever known. This shit is so fucked.

I need a job. My job involves communicating with people. I'm so fucked. I spend my days alone playing video games worried and more anxious then ever.

I still want to die. If there was a pain free method I might take it. This shit is seriously fucked.
 
IOSIP said:
Believe in God might be an asshole. But i feel for him. I'm fucking brain dead from this shit. It's been 5 months and every day is the same. I have nothing going to say I can't feel any enthusiasm or excitement for life. This feels permanent to me. I'm so scared. I'm so lonely.

There is an unspeakable void between me and everyone I've ever known. This shit is so fucked.

I need a job. My job involves communicating with people. I'm so fucked. I spend my days alone playing video games worried and more anxious then ever.

I still want to die. If there was a pain free method I might take it. This shit is seriously fucked.
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He dm'd me asking for my address because he wants to beat me to death, because he thinks I'm lying about invega lol.
 
IOSIP said:
Believe in God might be an asshole. But i feel for him. I'm fucking brain dead from this shit. It's been 5 months and every day is the same. I have nothing going to say I can't feel any enthusiasm or excitement for life. This feels permanent to me. I'm so scared. I'm so lonely.

There is an unspeakable void between me and everyone I've ever known. This shit is so fucked.

I need a job. My job involves communicating with people. I'm so fucked. I spend my days alone playing video games worried and more anxious then ever.

I still want to die. If there was a pain free method I might take it. This shit is seriously fucked.
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Things will turn around soon tho man. You can recover from this. You're almost through the worst phase
 
IOSIP said:
Believe in God might be an asshole. But i feel for him. I'm fucking brain dead from this shit. It's been 5 months and every day is the same. I have nothing going to say I can't feel any enthusiasm or excitement for life. This feels permanent to me. I'm so scared. I'm so lonely.

There is an unspeakable void between me and everyone I've ever known. This shit is so fucked.

I need a job. My job involves communicating with people. I'm so fucked. I spend my days alone playing video games worried and more anxious then ever.

I still want to die. If there was a pain free method I might take it. This shit is seriously fucked.
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waif till 7 month you will feel something is better.

Now after 8 month recovery process seem to get faster and faster.

I thought I was already fully recovered in 6 months but I am getting better over time.
 
stolensoul said:
He won't reply, but he might make a new account. He got perma banned
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that's funny.

It is really weird how hard he tries to depend his opinion.

He wants to protect something. His ego.

He can't admit his mistake and move on.
 
IOSIP said:
It's been 5 months and every day is the same. I have nothing going to say I can't feel any enthusiasm or excitement for life. This feels permanent to me.
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I felt like this for at least 12 months. Every day was a struggle because I couldn't do anything I used to do to pass the time.

There were so many things in the house, like a PC, Xbox, PlayStation, Nintendo with like 30+ games. TV with Netflix, Disney+ etc. which basically didn't get used for almost 12 months.

I tried forcing myself to watch shows or play games from time to time but my attention span was non-existent. It really did feel like life would never be the same again.

Fast forward to now (about 1.5 years). Today I went shopping , washed the car and did some cleaning/organizing. I just played some video games and now I'm listening and adding songs to my library on Spotify.

It more or less feels like life is back to normal. Of course, there's things like being too aware of how bad life can get. I didn't know Anhedonia was a thing until Invega. I wish I never knew what it was either.
 
DrZaius1 said:
I felt like this for at least 12 months. Every day was a struggle because I couldn't do anything I used to do to pass the time.

There were so many things in the house, like a PC, Xbox, PlayStation, Nintendo with like 30+ games. TV with Netflix, Disney+ etc. which basically didn't get used for almost 12 months.

I tried forcing myself to watch shows or play games from time to time but my attention span was non-existent. It really did feel like life would never be the same again.

Fast forward to now (about 1.5 years). Today I went shopping , washed the car and did some cleaning/organizing. I just played some video games and now I'm listening and adding songs to my library on Spotify.

It more or less feels like life is back to normal. Of course, there's things like being too aware of how bad life can get. I didn't know Anhedonia was a thing until Invega. I wish I never knew what it was either.
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Oh man. I agree I totally wish I never knew what anhedonia was. My God. Look that's improved significantly. It's just this blank mind i have. I can't have conversations I have absolutely nothing to say. It's killing me. I want to say more to my dad at dinner times but there is nothing to talk about.

It's sports or what crazy Donald trump is up to.
 
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