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Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v. 10

DrZaius1 said:
I felt like this for at least 12 months. Every day was a struggle because I couldn't do anything I used to do to pass the time.

There were so many things in the house, like a PC, Xbox, PlayStation, Nintendo with like 30+ games. TV with Netflix, Disney+ etc. which basically didn't get used for almost 12 months.

I tried forcing myself to watch shows or play games from time to time but my attention span was non-existent. It really did feel like life would never be the same again.

Fast forward to now (about 1.5 years). Today I went shopping , washed the car and did some cleaning/organizing. I just played some video games and now I'm listening and adding songs to my library on Spotify.

It more or less feels like life is back to normal. Of course, there's things like being too aware of how bad life can get. I didn't know Anhedonia was a thing until Invega. I wish I never knew what it was either.
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congrats on your progress, its really huge. Do you still feel pleasure , joy and have your interests fully back or its tolerable now?
 
IOSIP said:
Oh man. I agree I totally wish I never knew what anhedonia was. My God. Look that's improved significantly. It's just this blank mind i have. I can't have conversations I have absolutely nothing to say. It's killing me. I want to say more to my dad at dinner times but there is nothing to talk about.

It's sports or what crazy Donald trump is up to.
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I am back to reality after this time.

I used to regret so much few months ago what had happened.

but I found so many things that I like about my country now.

I even think that if I continued living in canada, how my life would have become.

In reality, it would have been very difficult situation and live something I don't want.

I came back to korea, now planning best life plan. Simple life plan and going for what I really liked.

I am experiencing best of my life.
 
IOSIP said:
It's just this blank mind i have. I can't have conversations I have absolutely nothing to say.
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Yeah, I basically didn’t contact anyone at all last year. I used to always talk and send messages to people but I just couldn’t care less what was going on in their lives. I remember a few times talking to someone and I had nothing to say because when you’ve lost interest in everything there’s nothing to discuss.
 
TonyTonyChopper said:
congrats on your progress, its really huge. Do you still feel pleasure , joy and have your interests fully back or it’s tolerable now?
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Yes, I’d say it’s all back now. The only thing I think that won’t come back is an optimistic outlook on life. I don’t believe in God anymore so I don’t have that sense of hope that somehow things will work out. I think someone said in this thread a while ago that every thing in life is random, and I now believe that 100%.
 
Harmedbypsychward said:
Hey guys I would say I’m about 30% recovered now finally got off all the bullshit. Wellbutrin and abilify. Still don’t have my imagination or memory but my mood is good so that’s something. Hope everyone is improving and doing ok.
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My memory and imagination are almost where they're supposed to be. Hang in there, it might take a couple years but you'll be okay eventually. You're young, don't give up. My life is very livable as it stands, but there is still room for improvement. I feel human again.
 
Did i told you guys when i went to psychiatrist because court was about in 3 days and i needed pregabaline to cope with stress and anxiety and after we talk little bit i told her i have this fake schizophrenia diagnosis court stuff and i want to sue those psychiatrists for stealing my body autonomy with neurotoxins and she said she works in the same hospital and immedietaly wanted to hospitalize me on a closed section with supposed manic psychotic episode. Not that i was barely sleeping and enormously stressed from the situation of my parents suing me for supposed abuse while having schizophrenia diagnosis. I said not gonna happen and called my mother to have a witness because i felt threatened and she wanted to call her from other room and i knew how that can end up so i stood up and she holded the doors so i could not leave then she touched me and i said it to my mother and to her outloud that she touched me first (i have schizophrenia diagnosis at the end of the day haha) i stayed calm and she allowed me to leave and give me money back. I ordered a visit to different doctor 2 days later and she gave me pregabalin and chill talk about not using shrooms and weed. Some of them are kind and cool and some not.
 
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atgn1 said:
Can you share them with me? please ı need to some hope.
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I had it on my old phone which mother took because she bought IT and i was evicted from home brutally by police. I dont have IT rn but just believe me please. Many people recover. Faith in God speeds up healing. All love brother 🩵
 
YogirisingKundalini said:
Did i told you guys when i went to psychiatrist because court was about in 3 days and i needed pregabaline to cope with stress and anxiety and after we talk little bit i told her i have this fake schizophrenia diagnosis court stuff and i want to sue those psychiatrists for stealing my body autonomy with neurotoxins and she said she works in the same hospital and immedietaly wanted to hospitalize me on a closed section with supposed manic psychotic episode. Not that i was barely sleeping and enormously stressed from the situation of my parents suing me for supposed abuse while having schizophrenia diagnosis. I said not gonna happen and called my mother to have a witness because i felt threatened and she wanted to call her from other room and i knew how that can end up so i stood up and she holded the doors so i could not leave then she touched me and i said it to my mother and to her outloud that she touched me first (i have schizophrenia diagnosis at the end of the day haha) i stayed calm and she allowed me to leave and give me money back. I ordered a visit to different doctor 2 days later and she gave me pregabalin and chill talk about not using shrooms and weed. Some of them are kind and cool and some not.
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Can anyone reply to this wild story? She wanted to hospitalize me for no reason hahahah
 
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