Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v. 10

[rawbanana]

I understand, when I got out (rarely) I can’t help but think I may not recover and also can’t be present in the moment with this inner restlesness. After a meal out I always wanna leave straight away cos I can’t stay still. These drugs ruin even the simplest of pleasures.

Sorry man you recovered too it’s sad that you’re back in this situation. I hope you recover again.

 

[Invegatorture]

Sorry man you recovered too it’s sad that you’re back in this situation. I hope you recover again.

Thankyou I hope you recover as well. If I had to put my money on it I think we will in time. Can’t help but doubt it tho even when i’ve recovered before. It’s just so bad.

 

[Matthew01]

Do you guys think the reason why I have bad memories because I feel emotionless and when I see things I don't react emotionally so they won't the memories won't be able to be retrieved because they are no emotions attached to them? What's the science behind this?

 

[demileigh]

Yeah I enjoy music a little bit. This is a song i’ve been listening to a lot.

Its good a walk can lift your mood, small sign of progress. I bet it wouldn’t have a few months ago just off injections.

Yeah I first started walking cause I wanted to lose weight and couldn’t really feel much was just a zombie but now i do it cause it improves my overall mood nothing to do with weight.

 

[demileigh]

Yeah I did last night it was okay. Kind of a short dinner. I wasn’t really able to be present cause I was just thinking about the shot

Pretty sure that’s called ruminating. I was ruminating about the injections heavily when I first came off, it was all I could think about or talk about. Try find things to distract your mind from it, making some art might help

 

[Invegatorture]

Yeah I first started walking cause I wanted to lose weight and couldn’t really feel much was just a zombie but now i do it cause it improves my overall mood nothing to do with weight.

4 months off 5 shots and feeling a positive mood is very good! Only up from here. It took me 6 months to feel anything positive after just two injections of invega.

 

[Invegatorture]

Do you guys think the reason why I have bad memories because I feel emotionless and when I see things I don't react emotionally so they won't the memories won't be able to be retrieved because they are no emotions attached to them? What's the science behind this?

When you heal you will feel the positive emotions attached to past memories. It’s just blocked for you right now. That’s my experience with healing, I felt normal again.

 

[rawbanana]

Pretty sure that’s called ruminating. I was ruminating about the injections heavily when I first came off, it was all I could think about or talk about. Try find things to distract your mind from it, making some art might help

I’m working on an art project actually but I’m still so miserable

 

[demileigh]

4 months off 5 shots and feeling a positive mood is very good! Only up from here. It took me 6 months to feel anything positive after just two injections of invega.

Yeah I’m feeling pretty confident in recovery except for when I’m feeling anxious or depressed it’s the heaviest and deepest I’ve ever felt it… I think I had mild depression and anxiety before the injection but nothing like how I’ve been experiencing it since coming off. I felt so much joy the other week when my son learnt to tie his shoelaces though, I was over the moon about it like I could not wipe the smile off my face, it was so nice.

 

[demileigh]

I’m working on an art project actually but I’m still so miserable

That’s good, are you able to be present while you’re doing your project or is it still in the back of your head? Getting it all off your chest and into a journal might help, sometimes writing down how you’re feeling can help get it off your mind

 

[WildSunShin3]

So as nervous as I am about starting a new medication my mind kinda floated to completely stopping my antipsychotic (zyprexa) I feel like i am at a good point in life and have a better understanding of myself and reality . I feel good i am stabled but to be completely honest I still have voices and I dont think that will ever go away . The crazy thing is I never developed voices until after I got the invega injection and once I suddenly healed in the end of 2019 is when I was hit with them . The medication feels like a filler and maybe it works on my mood but I think I can manage my mood on my own especially since I have a understanding of it . What I am worried about is the "delusional" thinking for me I dont necessarily think it was all delusional because I am at very spiritual person I personally think I went through a pychological warfare and spiritual warfare and I came out of it with a very different view on life . But going through all that slapped me with a mental illness diagnose which that is how they win because anything you say at that point is directed to a mental illness . I want to do it differently this time I don't want to just be a slave to the pills the rest of my life but I believe i can honestly stay out of the hospitals and inpatient if I dont let the fear and anxiety take over which I have my anxiety under control now . I am just torn between staying on zyprexa just lowering the dose again , changing medication completely but that risky too because of going through side affects again or just completely stopping it at this point and just see where it goes because medication will always be there .

 

[paranoid android]

i’m on my 6th shot and honestly i feel like most of the side effects that made me want to kms kind of wore off. i still have akethsia and total sexual dysfunction. that’s what’s im most worried about. i literally can’t get up or bust nuts anymore. has anybody fixed the erectile dysfunction?

I didnt get it up for 2 years because of invega and abilify. The ED went away when i was off the abilify for about 3 months

 

[demileigh]

So as nervous as I am about starting a new medication my mind kinda floated to completely stopping my antipsychotic (zyprexa) I feel like i am at a good point in life and have a better understanding of myself and reality . I feel good i am stabled but to be completely honest I still have voices and I dont think that will ever go away . The crazy thing is I never developed voices until after I got the invega injection and once I suddenly healed in the end of 2019 is when I was hit with them . The medication feels like a filler and maybe it works on my mood but I think I can manage my mood on my own especially since I have an understanding of it . What I am worried about is the "delusional" thinking for me I dont necessarily think it was all delusional because I am at very spiritual person I personally think I went through a pychological warfare and spiritual warfare and I came out of it with a very different view on life . But going through all that slapped me with a mental illness diagnose which that is how they win because anything you say at that point is directed to a mental illness . I want to do it differently this time I don't want to just be a slave to the pills the rest of my life but I believe i can honestly stay out of the hospitals and inpatient if I dont let the fear and anxiety take over which I have my anxiety under control now . I am just torn between staying on zyprexa just lowering the dose again , changing medication completely but that risky too because of going through side affects again or just completely stopping it at this point and just see where it goes because medication will always be there .

Hey be careful coming off medication if you’re hearing voices… my dad heard voices and although he could still hear them when medicated, the voices were mean to him when he wasn’t medicated.
In my opinion, if you’re stable then that is a good thing and might be best so just keep doing what you’re doing to stay stable so you don’t end up back in hospital

 

[WildSunShin3]

Hey be careful coming off medication if you’re hearing voices… my dad heard voices and although he could still hear them when medicated, the voices were mean to him when he wasn’t medicated.
In my opinion, if you’re stable then that is a good thing and might be best so just keep doing what you’re doing to stay stable so you don’t end up back in hospital

Crazy thing is they started off nice and sweet then turned on me before I decided to get back on medication and even then when I did start taking medication they still was very angry and mean until I started ignoring them because they were quieter . I know the risk factor but I am kinda willing to battle this shit out and get through it if it gets to that point . It was so bad 6 years ago I dont think it can get or they can say anything as bad as they did 6 years ago like I know what to expect now nomore scared of these fuckers they cant physically do anything to me but talk shit that isnt true at this point and I am willing to just deal with that if it comes to that point I already rode that wave . I just really don't want to feel like a slave to medication only for my blood pressure and pre diabetes until I get that under control to come off those medications. I dont know if I am just feeling empowered because I see what life is really what is because the medication has me "stabled" and feeling good but part of me knows I can go from feeling 1000X better to 1,000,000X better if I stop antipsychotic period I just keep getting this inner feeling telling me like a warm hug just stop medication will always be there but your life won't so what the worse it can get that is hasn't already have in the past . I dont know i just feel like it would be completely different this time if I just stop it I have more control and power over this .

 

[rawbanana]

I really hate the people that did this to me

 

[paranoid android]

Crazy thing is they started off nice and sweet then turned on me before I decided to get back on medication and even then when I did start taking medication they still was very angry and mean until I started ignoring them because they were quieter . I know the risk factor but I am kinda willing to battle this shit out and get through it if it gets to that point . It was so bad 6 years ago I dont think it can get or they can say anything as bad as they did 6 years ago like I know what to expect now nomore scared of these fuckers they cant physically do anything to me but talk shit that isnt true at this point and I am willing to just deal with that if it comes to that point I already rode that wave . I just really don't want to feel like a slave to medication only for my blood pressure and pre diabetes until I get that under control to come off those medications. I dont know if I am just feeling empowered because I see what life is really what is because the medication has me "stabled" and feeling good but part of me knows I can go from feeling 1000X better to 1,000,000X better if I stop antipsychotic period I just keep getting this inner feeling telling me like a warm hug just stop medication will always be there but your life won't so what the worse it can get that is hasn't already have in the past . I dont know i just feel like it would be completely different this time if I just stop it I have more control and power over this .

Why do you wanna get off the zyprexa and what are you switching to? If you where hearing voices before the zyprexa you might need meds to keep you stable. I had psychosis before i was finally put on meds in the psych ward and am never going through that shit again. Im on zyprexa 10mg's a dday and i get no side effects and it works great so i have no plans in going off it

How will it be different this tme if you stop your meds? You cant control psychosis. Why risk getting flung back in the psych ward and having to go through that horror again? Once was enough for me to go to the psych ward fuck that place right off

 

[Trueart2]

Hearing voices in retrospective is scary as fuck

 

[paranoid android]

Hearing voices in retrospective is scary as fuck

I cant remember most of my psychosis thankfully. But i was told by a few people that i was hearing shit. I also had cotards syndrome and that shit can fuck right off. That wasent scary it terrifying. Ill stay on the zyprexa thank you

 

[demileigh]

Crazy thing is they started off nice and sweet then turned on me before I decided to get back on medication and even then when I did start taking medication they still was very angry and mean until I started ignoring them because they were quieter . I know the risk factor but I am kinda willing to battle this shit out and get through it if it gets to that point . It was so bad 6 years ago I dont think it can get or they can say anything as bad as they did 6 years ago like I know what to expect now nomore scared of these fuckers they cant physically do anything to me but talk shit that isnt true at this point and I am willing to just deal with that if it comes to that point I already rode that wave . I just really don't want to feel like a slave to medication only for my blood pressure and pre diabetes until I get that under control to come off those medications. I dont know if I am just feeling empowered because I see what life is really what is because the medication has me "stabled" and feeling good but part of me knows I can go from feeling 1000X better to 1,000,000X better if I stop antipsychotic period I just keep getting this inner feeling telling me like a warm hug just stop medication will always be there but your life won't so what the worse it can get that is hasn't already have in the past . I dont know i just feel like it would be completely different this time if I just stop it I have more control and power over this .

See the thing is that if you stop medication and end up back in the hospital again you could end up getting injected. If you’re stable on pills stay doing what you’re doing to avoid having another episode or injections. If anything try out a different med.

 

[paranoid android]

See the thing is that if you stop medication and end up back in the hospital again you could end up getting injected. If you’re stable on pills stay doing what you’re doing to avoid having another episode or injections. If anything try out a different med.

I agree 100%.