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Mental Health Coming off Invega Sustenna (paliperidone)

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Holy crap whered u find that dosage calculater? Thats freaken scary to think im going to have to suffer for half a year more. What evil person invented such a horrible poisen? This is pure evil. Im losing hope, scared that this isnt temporary or that there will be everlasting effects... Ive gotten a booster shot and a 156mg shot so does that mean it will take longer to clear out of my system?
 
Im really interested to meet someone who actually recovered from this motherfucking drug. Im so pissed i cant see straight. That stupid no good son of a bitch doctor doesnt have any fucking clue what hes doing to innocent people. That pigfucker is probably cocked back drinking a martini in his $100,000 car parked in front of his million dollar house. 4-8 months seems like a death sentence to me. Suicide screams its name in my ear everyday. I dont know if im strong enough to endure this torture. I just want justice. Good things never come my way though. "Couple of months" my ass....
 
Hey man , I was on a 100 mg shot for 7 to 8 months , they started me out on liquid for 3 weeks , its been a year and 2 months since i stopped and nothing is really better , except my mental faculties have come back somewhat but im not the same person i was before , im a completely and utterly depressed and sad , i used to be the happiest guy , its weird , anyway i dont mean to bring anyone down , i hope it works out for you guys , ill be starting tesosterone injections this week probably will keep you posted , i cant get a hard dick and hardly ejaculate and feel no pleasure , severe depression , and extreme tiredness all the time , its hell , i can hardly work , im trying to crawl to the gym to lose the 40 kilos ive put on , i think im gonna burnout
 
Im no doctor Bob, but sometimes depression can cause sexual dysfunction. Im not 100% sure, but i believe the invega is out of you by now and i think testosterone may be what you need. I was depressed once and literally had no feeling in my penis just like i had from the invega. Im really hoping that things start working for you. Please keep us updated on your progress. Remember to never lose faith. Sometimes, it's all we got.
 
Hey guys my name is Nathan I've been off this shot for almost three months now. Everyday is pain I have no emotions and cannot enjoy everyday life. Every single day is a battle for me. I have lost interest in everything. The invega has put me threw hell and I'm going through depression because of this shot I hope I get better soon.
 
Yea thats the same as me nathan. Its gonna be a long struggle. Im almost 3 months out. At one point i couldnt even get an erection. Now i can get erect and at least climax. There is no feeling or sensation in it though. Have you noticed any improvements at all? Sexual or emotional?
 
You can go to invega dosage illustrator and see a visual graph that shows how the drug elminates itself. Im thinking we have a good 6-8 months before we start feeling normal.
 
Yeah I have like no feeling down there. No sensation. Still no emotions that's whats killing me everyday not being able to express yourself and you think about it constantly I haven't noticed any improvement I'm holding off a relationship because of this
 
Yea idk man, it might benefit you to have someone who could help support you through this battle though. I know if i could get a girl who truly cared about me and helped me, i definitely would. I'm pretty sure that the sexual issues will slowly get better as more dopamine is allowed back into the brain. Idk how long it will take though. I do know what you mean though im obsessing about it too. I have to watch all my friends have girlfriends and get high in front of me and its so hard. It sucks not being able to get high, let alone feeling anything. I guess it will get better with time. But the depression for me is sometimes unbearable. It's really hard to believe that it's not permanent. I bet you're feeling the same and having the same worries as me right? But yea im in the same boat as you man. 2 shots. The 234mg booster and the 156mg initial. Ill be three months out on the 16th. Keep me posted nathan. And if you ever need anyone to talk to i check this sight daily. I know how it feels to be cut off from everything. Literally. Well i guess im gonna get off here. Just hang in there. Its gonna get better. It has to.
 
Yeah that's exactly how I feel and people bitch at you for obsessing about it. They tell you to snap out of it but it's not that easy. It feels like your different from everyone else it is in fact unbearable this shot shouldn't even exist. But all we have is hope man. One day we will be able to express ourselves one day we will be able to get that motivation back
 
Yea i know what you mean. No one can truly understand unless they have gotten the shot themselves. You know how hard it is to explain to someone what it "feels like" not to be able to have feelings and emotions? Its impossible. Like trying to explain to a blind person what colors are. But anyway im trying to convince my doctors to draw my blood and send it off for a blood plasma level test for the invega. It will show the levels that are still in the bloodstream. I imagine they are still prett high considering that my sexual dysfunction is still really persistant. We should have about the same levels give or take some. If i do in fact am able to get the testing i'll let you know for sure. Yea my doctor told me that it's not permanent and that it takes "many many years" for neuroleptics to cause damage to the brain. One shot isnt nothing. If anything, it will teach us to appreciate life more and not take it for granted.
 
Yeah man I will surely enjoy life when this is gone. I won't take it for granted. It's gonna teach us a lot . But do you also feel cold hearted? I do I could say really mean things to someone and not feel bad about it. It's kinda of scary really but you don't feel the fear. I litterly don't feel nothing it's like everyday is the same it's so boring and dull I can't stand it. I can barley play a video game I use to love playing video games now it's nothing I really hope to god we get better
 
Yea i've noticed that i've become more hostile towards other people. I think horrible thoughts about my doctor. I have more of a fuck the world attitude and act rude to my mom. I would never act like that to her normally. She's all i got. It's also hard to feel affection. I was a very affectionate person. This drug has taken away all of my emotions except for hate. And yes, the days go on. They pass like a boring blur of nothingness. Sometimes i'd rather stay home than go out and do things with my friends. I feel like no matter what we go do, i will be just as bored, just as emotionless, regardless of how "stimulating" the activity is. They just don't understand. It's so horrible. Don't you wish you could wake up and it all be one bad dream? Only in my dreams do i get a sense of relief. Only because i have forgotten that I am like this in dream mode. I cant find any motivation to do anything. If i could, i would want to sleep constantly, until that day that i am better. But i know that that is impossible. It's sad but we are going to have to suffer through this. But I have one good thing to say. Each day, we are one day better, and one day closer to being our true selves.
 
redmanone said:
Tell me how it goes simbolicone. Btw are you able to get high of weed anymore? When i get high its more of like a dissorientation then a high. I just get fucked up without any pleasure.
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Tell me how the molly goes for you if you decide to try it. I tried adderall a couple weeks ago and it didnt do a dang thing. I used to tweak the fuck out on adderall and now it doesnt even work for me. How can invega affect people for so fucking long?! And i dont like how no fucking doctors know anything about this damn drug yet they dish it out like its candy.
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well about 6.5-7 months in.... molly was extremely helpful. .. i stopped taking my wellbultrin a couple days before and only to my 10mg dose of ritilan.... that first break through was incredible. ... i was watching the bulls vs cavs game 2 and it hit me... i was like i feel really good... i was feeling my emotions feeling joy, feeling pleasure and it was great... the next day thier was a noticeable diffrence in how i felt... it was like a ton of weight being lifted off my shoulders... i started feeling interested in what ever was going on in the day and didnt have that feeling of compleate emptiness and boredem.... over the next few weeks i would take a little bit of molly here and thier with some marijuana and it has just did wonders for me like wow i cant believe the diffrence. ... i almost forgot i can feel this good.... as its stands now i havent did molly or weed for the last 12 days and i feel great... i think im about 80% back to normal..... thiers still a disconnecting feeling i am experiencing but my emotions are back and im started to see results 7 months in.... my sexual arousal is getting way better as well... honestly i dunno how you feel about molly... the stuff definitely is not perfect and somthing i would abuse but it helped me out and i think it could help you if used right... however i wanna say i was doing other things as well such as walking everyday, trying to make music, reading more , exercise and going to therapy. Talking with family and friends .. etc
 
Wow simbolicone, what you said really gives me hope. Im so glad that you can feel again man. I would love to try molly and feel what u felt, but im pretty sure i still have a lot of invega still left in my system and it probably would do me no good. Im still having sexual dysfunction pretty bad. In fact last night i was in a sexual situation with a girl and couldn't get aroused. It was humiliating. I hope mine gets better like you said yours did. Hope you continue to get better as well.
 
That gives me a lot of hope too. I can't wait to feel that. Everyday is so hard for me but to hear that I know it will be ok we just have to keep pushing
 
Hey nathan, have you been having strange vivid dreams? Because since the shot, every night i have multiple dreams. And thats strange because i've never been one to have dreams. Especially not every single night.
 
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