Hi guys ,
I dont know , I have been off Invega for one year and one month now , and I still feel horrible , but maybe this is because I have mineral deficiencies and am grossly overweight I have put on 40 kilos from taking Invega , I hate the people who forced it into me , I used to be such a nice person , now I just wish everyday I would die , anyway I dont know maybe its also because my balls have shrunk and dont work , they dont produce any sperm , or hardly , not even 1 percent of what it used to be a year and a half ago , I am 28 and watching everyone of my friends get married , have girlfriends , have fun with girls , all this was primordial to me , I am going to try and lose the weight and see what gives , but do you think my neural setup is back to normal ? I mean the depression and anhedonia should go away right , after a whole year being off the med ? I had no psychiatric problem going into the hospital and was put there because i committed a legal offense , I feel like Ill never be happy again , and that my only option is to kill myself , I already had a LOT of emotional hurt before they hospitalized me and its just too much now i cant deal thinking about it day in day out , i dont know how to deal with it , i m also alone and my parents hardly give a shit , friends dont want to be burdened with complaints theyre having too good of a time , im tired , i also have every low testsoterone , maybe that is why my balls dont work , it s 363 , dunno it used to be sky high , i dont feel like a man at all , i just want to die , im not even joking , but ill give it six months and excercise and continue eating right , dunno if i can lose the weight because i have a massive thyroid problem as well probably caused by the invega , i had zero problems till they gave that to me and then in 10 months i put on 20 kilos and now im up to 40 roughly , fuck my life , anyway ill try and lose the weight and naturally raise my testosterone , i am struggling so hard , even if i die and go to hell it ll be cake compare to this , in fact it would probably be a fucking joke compared to this , so ill give it a few months maybe a year , and if things dont improve , im going to have to put an end to this , i dont want to hurt my family but theyve hurt me my whole life so ..