I was on many many drugs growing up for bipolar , depression , adhd , ptsd maybe over 30 different drugs where tried on me due to my parents . I blame . The thing I was forced to stay on the longest was seroquel 300mg a day . After reaching the age of 18 ,and after being on seroquel for 7 years at mind you 300mg a day . I decided to quit . So I quit , and not knowing quiting cold turkey was a bad Idea I ended up in the ER throwing up blood having convulsions ,and many other issues . All I remember was waking up with many IVS and bruises on me from being poked so many times.
I to this day suffer from severe anhedonia ,but ever doctor I have ever seen they all want to put me back on some of the same shit I was once on . I refuse to be a slave to that shit . Nothing makes me happy anymore ,and I mean nothing . Pot = nothing , Cigarettes = nothing alcohol = nothing. Sex hell I never even think about it . Means nothing to me . There is one thing ,and I don't know if I would rather keep going this route or the anhedonia , But give Opiates a TRY . I would never advise this to anyone ;because of how addicting they are ,but it is the only thing that gives me pleasure in life anymore. I now have a soon to be wife am a very out going person . I go out to eat have parties play ,and not to mention I love sex now for the first time in my life . I also have a 6 month old daughter . That I love dearly. I mean I am a pretty normal person now ,but thats with a hefty addiction I started in my teens when looking for something to make me a happy and what I call a normal person.
Hell who knows it may be cause I am just high all day every day . As of now I have a hefty 500+mg Oxycodone addiction or what ever else Opiate I may stumble upon that day Hydromorphone,Oxymorphone,Oxycodone,Hydrocodone,Codine,Methadone,Heroin,Morphine Hell even Tremadol . I say its not so much of an addiction ;because I have stopped many times ,and suffered the withdrawals many times in life which sucked ,and I was just thrown right back into that anhedonia state that I dearly hate ,and it was that damn severe anhedonia that caused me to go back to the Opiates . Don't get me wrong I craved them ,but with a simi strong will power I do have I can ,and would stop if I had a guarantee that the anhedonia would stop .
I almost guarantee that anyone with anhedonia will feel pleasure again if you give a Opiate any Opiate a try . I almost feel bad for saying this ,and its sad that the world we live in you have to resort to illegal activities to fix a issue that my doctors permanently left me with many years ago . I feel really really guilty for saying DO OPIATES . Yes its a bad idea ,but what other options do we have . I have tried many many thing . Lots of exercise working out etc . Nothing works . I believe our brains are permanently fried . Opiates release Dopamine ,and in return makes you feel happy . Yes it is a artificial happiness ,but theres nothing else that I can think of that has worked as good as Opiates . I have even tried ecstasy supposed to be the the drug that releases tons of serotonin ,and dopamine ,and make you really really happy many times ,and believe it or not I felt nothing other then the urge to jump out of my skin worse then Meth . I don't even want to talk about Methamphetamine ;because I was legally prescribed 10mg to take 3 times a day for 4 years for ADHD.
Trust me ,and I say this with much guilt try OPIATES . I have read some very old articles in my public library of the chines people using opium for similar issues that would be considered anhedonia to this day . It improved those people drastically . Although they where addicted they where happy.
