I've being on a spiritual process since i was 19, I am 29 now. I know what are you talking about.
In my case, when I was 27 I felt in my heart that it was the moment to left my family and go away but I didn't do it because I was terrified of been on streets without money and a place to stay, so I started to feel anxiety on nights and I went out from my parent's home...
When police caught me and sent to the hospital they say that i was psychotic but that's no true.
After lot of problems, they put me in a mid term hospital here in Madrid (Spain) with 8 shots of Xeplion, now I am 5 months off and they removed my diagnosis of squizofrenia because honest doctors have checked me as a normal guy...
Now I am really fucked because of no feelings, low testosterone, bad sleep and so more... I hope that one day I could restart my YouTube channel of spirituality and self development.
Regards
