in April 2020, the world came to a halt because of COVID. At first it was rather funny, we saw on Twitter videos of wild animals arriving in town. As if the Animal Resistance was reconquering its legitimate territory.
So we were confined, being locked in an apartment in Paris was not easy, we didn't know if we were going to be able to go on vacation ... it was fucking stressful. In addition a girl friendzone me when I really loved her. In short, all of this led me to have a psychosis. I had premonitions, I thought that I would be locked in the "gulags" because I was a political dissident.
I will pass you all the details of my delirium. So I was hospitalized, it was very violent for me. What will mark me forever is this brutality of the doctors. Two cops and a fire crew were behind the door to the psychiatrist's office in case I tried to run away. I felt like a criminal. My condition was certainly unstable, but it was anything but reassuring. I was therefore directly explained that if I refused to drink their small mixture (loxapac), I would be tied up and stung. Then i was transfered and i slept for two days. I had dyskinesia and the doctors would tell me to stop fooling around. I couldnt even speak properly because of this shitty medecine. After that they gave me risperdal, this was also really strong and my vision blurred for 3 days. The doc (The first of a long series) decided to give me Invega. "This is a new medecine with very few secondary effect" he said. But i understood very quickly that this unqualified men didnt know what he was doing to a 18 year old boy.
