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Mental Health Coming Off Invega Sustenna (Paliperidone) v4

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This thread just makes me feel worse. I honestly don’t think it’s a good thing for anyone. Nothing good comes of it, as there is literally nothing any of us can actually do about the situation. There’s no action we can take that has any effect on healing from this. It’s basically just a place to vent but that gets old quick. This whole situation just sucks ass man. This shot literally killed me because I’m not living like this. I’m giving it like 6 more months and if I’m not back to normal by then I’m fucking checking out bro. This whole thing is fucking bullshit. It’s bullshit that they give this out. It’s bullshit that 1 single shot can literally destroy your entire life permanently. I want to be able to use Kratom again. I want to actually feel comfortable again. I never feel comfortable at all. Fuck this fucking shit
 
Hopton09 said:
This thread just makes me feel worse. I honestly don’t think it’s a good thing for anyone. Nothing good comes of it, as there is literally nothing any of us can actually do about the situation. There’s no action we can take that has any effect on healing from this. It’s basically just a place to vent but that gets old quick. This whole situation just sucks ass man. This shot literally killed me because I’m not living like this. I’m giving it like 6 more months and if I’m not back to normal by then I’m fucking checking out bro. This whole thing is fucking bullshit. It’s bullshit that they give this out. It’s bullshit that 1 single shot can literally destroy your entire life permanently. I want to be able to use Kratom again. I want to actually feel comfortable again. I never feel comfortable at all. Fuck this fucking shit
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true its more or less just veting and ranting.... there's fuck all you can do besides waiting
 
apsucks said:
true its more or less just veting and ranting.... there's fuck all you can do besides waiting
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Even waiting seems futile a lot of the time when I see so many people years down the line with the same problems, still unable to get high. When approaching it from a logical perspective it seems absolutely and utterly a hopeless case. It says: “You have permanent brain damage. Permanent damage to your dopamine receptors, and unfortunately you’re never going to be happy again. This is your life now so drag through it in misery or check out”
 
That’s my honest opinion. That it’s not just the drugs action anymore. It’s actual and irreversible brain damage. Why else did Kratom still work for me the first month into invega and suddenly it stopped working entirely. If it was the drugs action it wouldn’t have worked to begin with. That clearly points to brain damage.
 
Jesus if we could have just seen this thread before ever letting them put that shit in our arm we would be in a completely different situation. One where we are still living humans and not zombies that can’t experience emotion or any other function a human brain experiences
 
The regret is simply unbearable. I didn’t even need the shot at all. I shouldn’t have even been in the hospital when I was. ONE mistake. ONE shot. And look what a fucking horrible difference in my life not just for now but for the entire thing. I’m 30 years old. I have way too much life left to live to be able to do this for that long. I’m waiting for death. And I can all but guarantee that it won’t come until I’m atleast 80. My luck, 110. 50+ years of invegashitville. Of not being myself, not being a human, never getting high and having it feel good again. No sex. No interests or ability to focus. Meth doesn’t even give me focus anymore. I loved that about meth. That’s the absolute best part. But nope, gone. Anything that gave my life meaning or enjoyment of any kind gone in the time it takes to push a shot into my arm. 1 single shot. ONE. It’s fucking criminal they give something so potent. Fuck everyone that is involved in giving that shot.
 
Kratom was my favorite drug ever. And that has been completely taken away. I get effects from other drugs they just don’t feel good. But Kratom gives me ZERO effect. I take 20 grams, enough to make someone throw up and shake and it doesn’t touch a single part of my brain. That is beyond fucked up. That’s fucking weird and disgusting. This isn’t a normal hang up to have. Regular humans don’t go through something so weird
 
Seriously I cannot fucking wait to die. It’s the only thing I have to look forward to. I’m too chicken shit to do it myself. All I can do is wait for it to wipe this entire thing out, wash me clean of all of my sins and liberate me, taking me home. The place we all came from and go back to.
 
Hopton09 said:
The regret is simply unbearable. I didn’t even need the shot at all. I shouldn’t have even been in the hospital when I was. ONE mistake. ONE shot. And look what a fucking horrible difference in my life not just for now but for the entire thing. I’m 30 years old. I have way too much life left to live to be able to do this for that long. I’m waiting for death. And I can all but guarantee that it won’t come until I’m atleast 80. My luck, 110. 50+ years of invegashitville. Of not being myself, not being a human, never getting high and having it feel good again. No sex. No interests or ability to focus. Meth doesn’t even give me focus anymore. I loved that about meth. That’s the absolute best part. But nope, gone. Anything that gave my life meaning or enjoyment of any kind gone in the time it takes to push a shot into my arm. 1 single shot. ONE. It’s fucking criminal they give something so potent. Fuck everyone that is involved in giving that shot.
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I'm 18, didn't even start living and this worst kind of horror happens.
 
I don't wanna live if I don't recover from anhedonia its simply not worth it and f**king disgusting. People who say we can live without dopamine are messed up.
 
Hopton09 said:
The regret is simply unbearable. I didn’t even need the shot at all. I shouldn’t have even been in the hospital when I was. ONE mistake. ONE shot. And look what a fucking horrible difference in my life not just for now but for the entire thing. I’m 30 years old. I have way too much life left to live to be able to do this for that long. I’m waiting for death. And I can all but guarantee that it won’t come until I’m atleast 80. My luck, 110. 50+ years of invegashitville. Of not being myself, not being a human, never getting high and having it feel good again. No sex. No interests or ability to focus. Meth doesn’t even give me focus anymore. I loved that about meth. That’s the absolute best part. But nope, gone. Anything that gave my life meaning or enjoyment of any kind gone in the time it takes to push a shot into my arm. 1 single shot. ONE. It’s fucking criminal they give something so potent. Fuck everyone that is involved in giving that shot.
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That's one thing I noticed, the older you are the worst the invega affects you and lingers after years
 
Hopton09 said:
Even waiting seems futile a lot of the time when I see so many people years down the line with the same problems, still unable to get high. When approaching it from a logical perspective it seems absolutely and utterly a hopeless case. It says: “You have permanent brain damage. Permanent damage to your dopamine receptors, and unfortunately you’re never going to be happy again. This is your life now so drag through it in misery or check out”
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One good thing I can tell you is dopamine receptors die and re grow, the problem occurs when the damage happens to the receptors cell. I dont know if invega damages the cell its self because it acts blocking dopamine. So if your dopamine cell are not damaged you have a chance, but only time will tell. It can take up to a year to see real improvements. There's a guy named antipyscaitry who can get high but it took him about a year. He had around 11 injections.
 
LaCuNa said:
Do you get that rush when getting high? For me, I don’t get the initial rush I used to get when ingesting drugs, but I still get somewhat of the after effects and body load.

I never tried meth until after invega, I get no rush at all from it, I just feel better, a little more alert and it wipes away sleepyness. With H, there’s a tiny rush you could say, and it just makes me feel better overall. With weed though there’s no rush, and I remember smoking weed pre-invega, it was a different much better experience. I’d zone the fuck out into the astral all day long.

Kratom and Coca leaf stopped working, but that could have been from me having elevated prolactin levels as that seems to effect your ability to get high.

Anyways all I know is that I’m gonna keep consuming all the drugs in the world until I break through and find that marvelous sweet spot. Not gonna let some faggoty J&J drug stop me from living my life getting high 😤

The only reason I started using hard drugs is because the soft ones stopped working cause of invega.
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All I can say dude it's a double edged sword you cant feel the full effects of meth after invega, it's bad you cant get the full effects but it's also kinda saved your happiness, because once you feel the level of happiness on meth, it's hard not to chase the dragon, I can not describe it. It's like winning the lottery, fucking like 3 pornstars, and doing a line of coke at the same time. Imagine if they put Disneyland on the moon
 
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All I can say dude it's a double edged sword you cant feel the full effects of meth after invega, it's bad you cant get the full effects but it's also kinda saved your happiness, because once you feel the level of happiness on meth, it's hard not to chase the dragon, I can not describe it. It's like winning the lottery, fucking like 3 pornstars, and doing a line of coke at the same time. Imagine if they put Disneyland on the moon
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So are you able to get high the same way you could pre invega? In other words you said you healed completely 100% right?
 
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