Hello guys, i want to tell u a little "story".. no no no let's call it a "test" what me and my friend did, i think some of you are interested in it. Okay, so my friend came to my crib like a week ago, he e-mailed me earlier that "What's up? how about a morning coffee and some "equasym" <--- that is a methylphenidate drug used for ADHD and ADD. So he came to my house and we talked a little then he pulled out syringes and needles and said "wanna go IV?" I was like FUCK MAN! U know i don't do that shit anymore (i used to shoot meth and amphetamines), but i was so curious how would it hit me so i told that okay let's do it. I have to tell u that i have had hepatitis c, cuz of dirty needles and shit u know "occupational disease"

but i have healed of it like 6months ago. So yeah, he opened the pill that has the methylphenidate powder inside it, we did it to liquid mode, or how to tell it anyway the session was ready, lets get into the session: The syringe was empty and i got very very warm feeling all over my body, little euphoric, we hugged and said to each other that ur really important person in my life (we have known each other like 3 years) etc etc.. so the music was awesome we listened black metal and trap and rap and hip hop and rock and heavy metal and drinked some beer, it was awesome but the feeling lasted like three hours also in my vision when i tried to feel my eyes as u know ur high, it made a weird vision it was like u seeing through a glass and behind the glass was moving little "colors" like purple and green like the glass was blocking u to feel it to the fullest (hard to explain) but something to do with the invega what it does to your vision like u dont see the "high things" weird as hell and can't really describe more. But now things are different it changed my way to think. I stopped now drinking and all and i start to lift weights again and im gonna definently be without alcohol. Idk this is very hard situation for me, also i wont do the drugs but im kinda of interested to try some ecstasy or molly how that would hit and then leave them all not gonna fall to "junkie life". Also someone talked about "inner monologue" and i have had that, i used to chat with girl in my thoughts and i knew her but she wasn't with me IRL but she existed cuz i know her we have met, that had something to do with my sexual function too, the thoughts made me horny as i chatted her in my mind:D! I really wan't to get that back, as i told i used to do amphetamines and that was the time when i had the "real" inner monologue going on! but when i was sober i also had that same monologue going on. I have heard little voices of her but not that much, especially when i try to jack off..LOL, PEACE ALL! Stay strong