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Mental Health Coming Off Invega Sustenna (Paliperidone) v.2

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@ invegauser, are you still being affected by the antipsychotic drugs, cause i remember you from 2016, so it would be surprising to see you still have not recovered, or perhaps your just chilling here?
 
Dont trust your parents why did you go back to them they must hate you invega is evil shit poison same as any AP anyway keep away from scum phychiatrists and anyone that can land you in this shit position
 
@ neuroleptique- can i feel emotion? well its a bit hard to answer, my brother mentioned this the other day saying that i seem alot more passive after the meds then before, like im not really deciding things for myself, im just going along with things. honestly i just feel kind of depressed, have no plans with my day, not moving forward at all. Feels a bit depressing being 26 years old not living on my own and not working, in the grand scheme of things im still really young and its not too late for me, but sucks when i see ppl i knew from school and there starting there careers and all and im just staying home all the time.
 
Just a request.. nobody has to follow it if they can't.. but please put number of days since last injection when talking about your symptoms.. it'll help me know

Day 31: feeling a lot better than two weeks ago. I can sit still and study. My mind is becoming clearer. Still can't sweat at all though.
 
Day 213

Officially 7 months off today. I went through the worst part. I'll take the plane in a few hours. Maybe the trip will make me feel better.
 
The shrink your well kill you, I really hope it will be well in the future 1 years is not tolerable she deserves the prison @Empty1128
 
Day 128 still no emotions, and no motivation, and no sex drive. O and another thing my body hair is falling out still which is a bummer. I think this may take a long time I had 7 shots 156mg. I had a blood test around 70 day mark my prolactin was 25.1 So here in about 2 more months I'll take another blood test and update u guys.... O and I'm not on any meds the only thing I was on is invega So that's only thing leaving my system.
 
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Day 213

7 months off today. I feel okay. I am in the south of france. I went for a walk in the mountains and it was pretty good. I can definitely feel the difference between now and 4 months ago when I came here. It feels a lot different and it is satisfying.
 
Hi everyone! I'm at 4 months. I wanted to share that I've had some good improvements on Cerebrolysin in just the past day or so. For a while there, I thought it wasn't working fast enough for me and was only making me more emotional and miss my ex and other bullshit. After 3 10 ml ampoules of Cerebrolysin, I was feeling optimistic, so I decided to take some GRE practice tests. To say I was disappointed in my performance was an understatement. I was crushed. I basically gave up on doing anything intellectual for a while. It was my first time assessing my cognitive abilities since getting injected with Invega Sustenna, and I was shocked to find out that I, a math major, was getting projected scores in the 45th percentile on the GRE Quantitative practice tests, whereas before Invega Sustenna, I was expecting to get a perfect or near-perfect score on the Quantitative section. As a math major, I ought to blow everyone out of the water on the Quantitative; it's the math subject test I should need to worry about.

Two 10 ml ampoules later, I attempted GRE practice tests again, and I started to get scores in the 80th percentile, then the 90th percentile, and then the 95th percentile. I attempted a GRE Verbal practice test, and I killed it - perfect scores. I was making time and thinking quickly, remembering techniques and vocabulary that would have been out of reach a few days ago. My mind feels free again to some extent. I still feel like I have a boring personality and like my creativity and sense of humor aren't so good, but the Cerebrolysin has definitely started to kick in. I am making major strides. I am at 4 months, and I feel like I've gone from feeling about 30% myself cognitively to about 70-80% myself over the two weeks I've used Cerebrolysin (better in some areas than others). I really thought it wasn't working, but things are starting to click. I'm starting to have more thoughts like "I can't do that? Well, I couldn't do that before Invega Sustenna either." I feel more like if I practice something, I will learn how to do it. I might actually be able to go back to school next semester and stop dragging it out forever. I'll have to bail if things aren't going well before the drop date though.

I wish everyone continued healing, and that this will bring people some hope. Up until yesterday, the Cerebrolysin didn't seem worth it, and I thought that maybe I'd wasted my money, but it just takes a while to really do its magic. We've got a lot of brain cells to recover.

Emerson
 
Empty1128 said:
It's one year and a month I don't have emotions. I forgot what does it feel like to have them... Seriously did we feel emotions in our brain or in our body? I remember anxiety was linked to the guts or to the chest, what about the others? Were they linked to the body as well?
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Yes! - I would already be glad if I had at least the negative emotions back (where you have that uncomfortable gut feeling, when you have anxiety states).

But nothing! - all dry, grey, emptyness..
 
Neuroleptique33 said:
Do you feel emotions? And before you can smell them?
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Have you lost your sense of smell too since the Neuroleptics?
I only smell everything very coarse and because of that everything tastes very coarse (and everything tastes the same). Maybe 15%

Before, I had very intense smelling skill.
 
Yes I lost it too.. I can smell but not as much as before.. I am neutered from the emotions of libido, I can not even think too.. @German B
 
I was injected with invega twice in may. I still feel like crap. But no more adhedonia, libido is back, and not much dwpression. Still i dont feel myself. Like somone else said, all i can do is play video games or watch yt. Its hard to explain but j still dont feel normal anyone else have this
 
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so are you guys expierencing it where your just very quiet these days or is that just me? man like this is my 2nd time having to put up with these antipsychotics and its honestly just dreadful. Like you wake up not knowing what to do for the day really, no real objective for the day, you know no desire to do anything because you feel like shit all the time so it just makes you want to not do anything and you end up wasting the day playing computer but online your running out of things to do. idk how long it will take ppl to heal. but from my persponal expierence, before i took 66 risperidone 2mg pill between oct-ded 2015, and i would say i got 100% in sept 2016 or oct 2016. But i must say, that experience of not being recovered was true hell and you honestly think you will never get better from it, and you just feel life is over, but then when your back to normal, you quickly forget about that past and just move on with life. Man but im just real pissed off at my parents for putting me through this thing again, i told my parents many times to never put me on antipsychotics again because those things are the worse thing in the world, but they didnt listen and got me on them again. I gave up trying to explain to them that the antipsychotics from the mental hospital messed me up, they try saying things like its because i smoked weed way back in 2015. I kind of got a grudge on them now for getting me stuck in my current situation, but im too fucked up from the drugs currently to get out of my parents place. Wanna know what i think is just funny, so i was actually living out of the country for 3 months prior to coming back to canada, my plan was to make that country my new home, i applied for citizenship and everything and i decided to come back to canada while im waiting for the citizenship to get finalized. So i come back to my family in canada after being abroad and 2 weeks after being at my parents place they sent me to a mental hospital. I just found it rediculous that im in a mental hospital of this country that i dont even plan on staying for a long period of time. Id probably be in the other country already, but i dont think im capable of living on my own atm as the drugs zapped my energy. Lifes a bitch, aint it?
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So you healed once 100% from Risperdone? What symptoms did you have from the Risperdone? Were they similar? Were you able to think clearly again when you healed and have an inner monologue? And be able to hear your thoughts? Was your mind flowing again? Did you have a sense of self with all the range of emotions?
 
@invegasuckx, ya man im feeling you, i got injected in june and im still feeling like shit, not talking much, just playing on laptop and all, its hard to concentrate and focus and converse and shit, from my personal expierence it takes like a year to feel better, so maybe you will be back to normal in may
 
Hey @all I'm soon 7 months off and I don't have any progress mentally and emotionally. My senses are still impacted. I don't really think that this is gonna change in a month.. I would be very surprised. I am still very hopeless about all of this and doubting healing most of the time. Sleeping got a bit better, but I still don't really get tired like I used to. Like this pleasurable exhaustion where you just wanna jump into bed, cover yourself with the sheets and fall asleep with a smile on your face being excited about the next day. I miss that so much :( I miss my old self. :( @invegauser I don't know what you mean with the light thing. Did I ask you something about the light? Do you mean spiritual light or physical light?
 
@yeshuah

When i was on risperidone it was hell, laying in bed all day not showering and just be on my laptop all the time, not going anywhere and just feeling like shit always. But ya i made a full recovery. When i say full recovery i mean FULL recovery, it felt like the risperidone thing was just a bad dream and it was hard for me to believe such a thing really existed. So if i recovered once, why not a second time. I remember the recovery was gradual, i think i kind of just started doing more things on my own even though i still felt like shit, since i got used to feeling like shit all the time and just accepted my faith and figured i mind as well just try even its kind of shit. Then one day i just realizied i recovered a 100%.
 
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