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Mental Health Coming Off Invega Sustenna (Paliperidone) v.2

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@Luibliss my diet is not good. I eat whatever. :( I'm depressed and highly doubt I can loose weight even if I eat healthy.

My 7 month update and still no improvement. I feel like my life is over. I honestly don't fear death no more. Like I'll act ghetto and don't care if someone blows my head off. I don't want to hurt anyone but I don't want to live. I will not commit suicide. But if I die out of nowhere, I'll be happy.
 
Has anyone here been on the poison for so long that the side effects eventually went away while still on it? Like, how long does it take to build up a complete tolerance while still on it? Or do the side effects never go away while still on it? I'm asking because I might have to be on the poison for a really long time, against my best wishes.
 
i shot myself in the leg with a full 150mg depo, at the start of the year, think i already mentioned it in this thread, needless to say its up there with one of the worst things iv done to myself, after over a year and 3 different medications im still keept company by auditory hallucinations
 
No fucking energy im fucked i may as well cut my dick off i look at my dick everyday before i shower and its nothing but a lifeless dead piece of meat ...those fuckers need a bullet to the brain...sorry for the violence
 
I feel your pain dull.

The most painful thing for a guy is too have a lifeless piece of meat as a penis, makes you feel inferior to any man on the planet. I'm 25, I should be in the prime of my life. I used to have that sexual aggression now I'm just so passive it's a joke. The worst is that people look at you expecting you to be a fit healthy young man but the truth is you feel like an old man whose gained disgusting stomach fat with a dead dick. I think my penis has shrunken since I used Invega. I watch ross Jason lai on YouTube he suffers in exactly in the same way: no sex drive/ability, obesity, slower cognition, extreme muscle weakness (unable to lift weights or even jog for that matter since injection) and more.

It's been 8 months for me and I have had no progress, I saw the urologist who has prescribed me Clomid for 3 months to increase my testosterone and reduce prolactin, apparently my prolactin has decreased but I physically feel no benefit.

It's just like I'm passing time, I just don't know what to do. On top of that I'm looking for a job but I dot think I'll be able to perform because of my side effects which I honestly believe make me subhuman. My parents have basically watched me do fuck all since February, sitting on my ass at home and i feel ashamed because of it.

I wish somehow there is recovery but in my heart I don't understand how it would happen. It's like happiness receptors have died. It's recycled emotions I don't get the same buzz from video games and movies or even music.

If I had a son like what I have physically become, I'd find it hard to swallow as a father, I feel for my dad watching his son become a depressed shadow of what he used to be, it's another level of fuckery.

Sorry for the rant people
 
Has anyone lost weight after coming off invega so far? And has anyone cured from the anhedonia?
 
LAZAR, I lost all the Invega weight after being off the injection for 15 months. I am not yet able to lose the weight after this second time being shot with the injection, but I've figured it's about 9 months being off that I'm able to start losing weight. It's only been 3 months so far this time.

LUI BLISS, will you be making any new videos soon. Even if you sat in front of the camera and talked about keto recipes it would be helpful. I'm looking to cut junk food sugars and dairy out of my diet. Anyway your videos were fun and I hope you get back to it soon.
 
Lazar said:
No one has been able to lose the weight this poison made him/her gain?
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I initially gained about 15 pounds the first couple of months off the poison. I went from 190 to about 205 almost immediately.. I think I gained this weight because I used to work out 5 days a week and then I suddenly stopped because of the lack of dopamine effecting my motivation. I am now 7 months off the drug and i still suffer from severe anedonia and cognitive issues, I was able to lose the weight I put on the first couple of months, about 10 pounds by eating as healthy as possible and I mean extremely healthy, I haven't had fast food once in over 5 months. I figure eating healthy is the only thing I can control as far as losing weight until I am able to work out again.. it is so frustrating now, I feel like i cant ever exercise and whenever I do its like i am shell of what I used to be... It's like my strength and ability to build muscle has become impossible. It's fucking bizarre to say the least. Because I am 25, 6 "2 and have been athletic with playing sports my whole life.. it really is the worst thing you can do to a person like me is prevent me from being active and feeling in tune with my own fucking body. I hate those doctors.

So my advice on keeping the weight off as much as possible is to eat as healthy as you can, because if you are not able to exercise like most people are not able to you are going to put on weight. Even if you eat healthy you may not lose the weight you gained at the speed you want if you are not able to exercise, but atleast you won't add to the weight gain at an alarming rate.. Has anyone been able to gain back the psycality that they had before taking invega fucking sustenna?
 
@Joey2358
Although diets main purpose maybe to lose weight, you will find that they also make you feel great and alleviates depression as a side benefit. Just let me know and I will provide some resources to back up my claims.

@invapo
Thank you so much for inspiring to keep making videos, actually in all honesty the withdrawal from dropping inveage from 100mg to 75mg.. my body is reacting to it by heavily sleeping. i have been sleeping for more than 16hrs a day. The plan is to have another video tomorrow *fingers crossed* its gonna be about the interconnectedness of my spiritual journey and the onset of my bipolar disorder. I hope you will like it, after that I'll be happy to take suggestions from you as to what you would like me to talk about.

For those of you that haven't already, please check my Youtube video's and your feedback (or not) would be much appreciated.

https://youtu.be/3fjK19KGi5o

https://youtu.be/Qpd8Q8l6sqk (This video is great to keep your mind off the drugs that your on and planning for what you would like to have in the future etc. scientifically proven shit)

Best,
 
LuiBliss Have you considered going gluten free? Do you have any info about it? I have some major digestive issues so I have just cut out dairy (a known contributor) and also gluten as a test. My friend swears humans were not meant to digest gluten, and although I really have no opinion one way or the other, I am so far pretty even keel in mood. As in, I am not leaning toward a tendency to go into psychosis. Just wondering your thoughts. My friend claims eating gluten is like getting high, and as such can cause you to experience a 'crash' later whether you notice it or not. Anyway I bought some coconut oil today because I could not find straight MCT oil, but look forward to trying it in coffee and with cooking tomorrow.

Sorry to hear about all the sleeping lately, but that is the same thing Geodon does to me. I stopped taking it over the weekend because it was having some seriously spooky side effects. I'm hoping that with some supplements and diet changes I can keep satisfactorily stable without the use of the dreaded medications.
 
Invapo,
I believe you are right about gluten, and I am also aware that pretty much everyone on Earth is sensitive to Gluten just on different levels. So I bet your friend is right with the fact that humans are not meant to be eating gluten food!
A low carb diet is naturally a gluten free diet, as in most cases gluten food contains lots of carbs and I am on a low carb diet i.e. Ketogenic diet so I am experiencing the benefits of being gluten-free naturally.

As for dairy, many people do have sensitivities.. hence lactose intolerance... I've also heard it being an impediment to weight loss. I did cut it out for a while because I wanted to make sure its not causing any bloating for me which I found out it doesn't (I used to be lactose intolerant somehow I can tolerate it now!)

You can find MCT oil at the Health Food Store, and brain octane oil if you're lucky, although coconut oil is fine, thats how I started drinking Bullet Proof Coffee. You can maximize the effects of this coffee on a high fat low carb diet because you would already be in ketosis and this coffee will just fuel u like a mofo.

As for the meds, yeah, too bad we didn't know of the alternative routes that could have been taken at the start. But at least we found them now and are reversing and hopefully we will turn out better than we were last when we come out the other side of the tunnel.

It is imperative to do work on yourself such as exercise, diet, and supplement.. Omega 3's Vitmanins Rhodiola, NACs the whole deal, go see a Naturopath is you have to. This shit will help with your energy levels and outlook on life which will help you get on with life and do the things that are necessary like exercise especially if you currently find that a gruesome activity.

Here's a video (it's kind of long but cool) about the corruption of the psychiatric industry:
https://youtu.be/qWfQ53kgdxs?list=PLPqJifLRCDbRPhAwEJHDsu1Z3ekNb-mBd

To Your Health and Wellness
 
Hi LuiBliss,

I did go to see a Naturopath a couple years ago, but that is too expensive for me now. I know also that I am anemic, so I have been taking iron and I am waiting on a B-100 complex. My gluten-free friend says a good B-100 complex can keep you stress and anxiety free, and sometimes takes 4 or 5 a day to get through a rough patch. I keep hearing about Omega-3's and used to eat chia seeds to get Omega's, but quite honestly they gross me out too much to eat them anymore. I am not familiar with NAC's, could you explain? And I've heard of Rhodiola but again am not familiar.

I mentioned in a previous post, but I have ordered lithium orotate and intent to try it if/when I feel that I am becoming overly anxious or hyperactive. The funny thing is I have to see my doctor on Monday and I am going to tell her I stopped taking the Geodon, but I will not mention any supplements or the lithium orotate and instead I want to see what she has to say of my current state of being herself. Those meds are atrocious.
 
Hi Invapo,

What does being anemic entail, I am not too familiar.. Is it said to be permanent? I hope you have it under control at least.
Supplementation is very important in this day and age where everything is so fast paced and we are resorting to junk lack of nutrition food to bring back our bodies to a state of homeostasis.

In all cases, I have a new video that just finished uploading.. I hope to get some feedback from you..

Here is the link to the video 'Bipolar Spiritual Crisis':-

https://youtu.be/kTEPqlkoyGk

Best,
 
LUI,

Thank you for the video. The part about something being white in the light and black in the dark made me think of a time from my childhood when my mother was teaching me right and left, and I turned myself around and asked if what was to my left before was now to my right and everything had turned a 180 just like that.

I am very familiar with the rush of paranoid thoughts, and it wasn't till this year that I was freed of those thoughts and in turn began to see everyone as perfect strangers and felt no fear toward any human being or any other thing. That was in fact a very 'spiritual,' so to speak, experience for me, as I could actually feel the death of something and the rise of another. I still do not know what that was, maybe the death of fear and the birth of trust. I do not yet know.

As for anemia, it has something to do with iron deficiency, and it can actually become quite serious as I found out. Turns out my father is also anemic and it led to him not creating enough of his own blood to heal his wounds on his skin, and may have something to do with me having the same marks on my arms for weeks or months on end now. I believe the Invega may make me fully insulin resistant- explaining the reason why I can lose no weight while on Invega or for nearly a year after being off- so I am trying to be fully keto now, but I can not seem to give up bananas! Yum.

Looking forward to the next video, I always like to hear a good story. I was hospitalized multiple times, but it seems I'm able to make a quicker recovery lately and I only spent about a quarter of the time in the hospital this year that I have in years past. Have a great day, thanks again.
 
LuiBliss said:
Hi Invapo,

What does being anemic entail, I am not too familiar.. Is it said to be permanent? I hope you have it under control at least.
Supplementation is very important in this day and age where everything is so fast paced and we are resorting to junk lack of nutrition food to bring back our bodies to a state of homeostasis.

In all cases, I have a new video that just finished uploading.. I hope to get some feedback from you..

Here is the link to the video 'Bipolar Spiritual Crisis':-

https://youtu.be/kTEPqlkoyGk

Best,
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How many injections did you get. If so what month are you off?
 
Invapo,

Thats right, these are concepts that display the absoluteness of Truth, and how there cannot be any one Truth if everything is relative. However, to find most meaning and fulfilment in life, I believe it is a purpose of ours to search for Truth and there are many ways in doing so.

That experience you had with the transformation of fear into love seems like a very special experience and its great that it seems that you are still benefiting from that experience.

I am sorry to hear about your anemia and again hope that you somehow have it under control. The way to look at bananas are either that they are a sacrifice in order to gain what you truly desire i.e. better health, weight loss, feeling better etc. or that you are convinced that these sugars are poisonous to you and you are doing yourself a favour and become convinced that you genuinely don't want bananas!


@Joey2358

Till now I have probably gotten about 26 injections over the course of about 2 years. I haven't gone off them completely yet however I am tapering off them very slowly especially due to the fact that I have been taking them for a pretty long time.
 
Lui,

I can't know where I stand with anemia right now because the only way I even found out about it in the first place was the bloodwork that was done when I was put in the hospital. I do take iron supplements and I believe the B-100 complex supplements I ordered are supposed to aid in the body creating new blood. Regardless, I am making a conscious effort to do my body good with that.

I honestly had the most amazingly wonderful, time-of-life experiences this year. The experience I had where I felt something ascending while another fell was only one day of many beautifully lovely days I had the absolute pleasure of being a part of. If I could express all the years of torment I experienced prior this one, you too would know how fortunate I was to have so many stunningly euphoric days, one after another.

I was actually thinking about your experience with paranoid thinking while at work this evening. It can be very scary but if you are new to any type of 'disordered thinking,' you can truly get sucked up in it and feel that it is all real. Before I was diagnosed, my life was like one big nervous habit. Terrible. But I hope life is fun for you now. Each time I get to connect with my 'inner illness,' I learn a whole new series of lessons that I get to carry with me for all this time now and beyond.
 
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