Connorclaire
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,. I had been hospitalized for the same problems 9 months prior and I was given geodone, lithium and ability. I was not on those medicines to long before I stopped taking them I had severe issues with depression so I stopped. Months later I went through another episode so I had to be hospitalized again. The doctors thought I had schizophrenia but I knew that wasn't true. I was finally diagnosed with schizoaffective bipolar type 1. The doctor and my mom decided to put me on invega due to me stopping my meds the first time so they felt I wouldn't stay taking my medicine. At first I thought it was the best thing since sliced bread. My first month I didn't notice much change. Soon shortly after being on invega for the second month that's when things started to change. I was super depressed and began to lose interest in everything. I lost who I was. This happened to me month after month only becoming more severe. I was experiencing hell on earth. I only dreamt of dying and had suicidal thoughts. When I wasn't at work I was sleeping. When I was awake I was very quiet and emotionless. I had became a zombie. I gained 60 lbs on invega. It made my thought process at a hault. I over ate, overslept and just was plain miserable. I lost friends, I lost jobs, I lost all enjoyment in my life. I thought this was going to be my life forever. I had no hope for the future. I was basically living dead. I was on invega for 10 months. My doctor found out I smoked weed so she said she could not prescribe to to any other medication until I stopped. Smoking weed was the only thing that helped me so I couldn't stop. I decided to switch doctors. When I finally switched doctors i had told him everything I had experienced. He decided it was best for me to get off. I finally had hope for once that my life could get better. Things did not get better right away. Although they gradually did become better. I was on invega from July 2915 to my last injection June of 2016. I had been prescribed Wellbutrin for my depression and risperidone 1 mg for my schizo bipolar disorder. It took 1 month for my anti depressant to kick in. When I got off and was off invega for one month and on an active anti-depressant things started to change. I know it seems fast for me to feel like I was living again but that's because I was on an anti-depressant to speed up the recovery process. I have now been off of invega since my last injection for 3 months. The first month was when my brain started to to clear. I was hanging out with my friend and it hit me like a train that whoa! Omg! I was beginning to feel a change. Month 2 hit me even harder. I was happier and I was having more hope and relief and felt like my life was coming back. It's now my third month and I'm not exactly who I used to be but I'm coming back. Of course I don't want to be who I was before invega because I had schizo bipolar and I was angry and grandiose and all over the place. I would have never appreciated or stayed on my medicine now if I hadn't suffered through invega. Recovery from invega is possible. Medicine is important too though. I believe invega in a last resort, for people with eevee schizophrenic people. It is a hell of a drug. What I went through was hell and wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy. I lost 10 months of my life. Now I have to start over. Being off invega and a healthy diet it's only been 3 months and I've lost 25 lbs so far. I guess you have to go through hell to get to some peace and to appreciate the beauty in life. I promise you you can get off invega and recover. Give it time. The road is possible if you get on the right meds. Talk to your doctor about your feelings and symptoms. I'm living proof that things can change and get better. I honestly went through hell. I died. It brought me to a dark scary place. Since I've been off I can now see the light. Just knowing I wasn't going to live on the poisonous medicine gave me hope for life and that made my recovery even faster. Keep the faith, keep hope. I'm getting better everyday. I'm a person again and people can tell. I had acted my friends and family they thought they looked at me. It's refreshing to them to see I'm coming back. Feel free to ask me any questions. God bless!