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Mental Health Coming Off Invega Sustenna (Paliperidone) v.2

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invegauser said:
@Anhedonai67: yes all but one have healed from haldol. the one who is not recovered yet got injected more recently. they seem to be able to make a full recovery so nothing to worry about. i have never taken haldol i don't believe, but i don't think one injection psych med is the worse over all. invega is close to it. i have seen what others have gone through while on haldol and abilify and they would be right up there. with haldol there is way too much sedation for my liking. invega seems to spin you out and abilify seems to want to drag you through the twilight zone before dropping you at a bus station in detroit.

can't imagine what your going through dealing with both but keep coming back here, research and like @poisoned_veins said, one day at a time. it has worked for everyone so far.
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Thanks a lot for your info, you gave me hope ! Actually I recovered everything excepting my emotions, pleasure and motivation, but my concentration, memory, conversation are good. I just need my emotions to come back because last month it came like little waves then it went away, until now I feel nothing... Like most ppl said it's just a waiting game
 
Thanks Invegauser. I'm going to wean off the invega sustenna and then switch to Risperdal Pills.

I will stay on my other meds (mirtazapine, lorazepam, lamotrigine)
 
The 234mg has a half-life of 49 days as to where the lowest dose would be at 25 days.
My calculations are that if you received a 234 and 156 rammed up a week later you would be cumulatively at 49 days plus 40 days for a half life to clear. So 10 half lives would be 890 days + 3-6 months for rewiring with just what is left. That's why we hear so many recovering from 2 1/2- 3 years if they ever do at all.
I'm fuckin done and I'm really thinking about just going into prison. Atleast there I would be provided for as it is very difficult for me to care for myself on a daily basis.
That's really horrible what just happened in Florida. Was the perpetrator too on their wonderful glorious medicine also? The devils are all smiles with the pass of that drug nonsense. It's how they make it.
 
This is not me convincing myself or lying to myself that I am getting better. Reporting back in to state my progress. I feel that I am healing, December 19th 2017 was my last shot being the second first the loading dose then the booster. I'm not sure if I ever got the anhedonia thank God but I did feel a lack of pleasure from coffee cigarettes and at one point couldn't feel the effects of beer. I could tell that I was being restricted from pleasure just throughout the day like a mental cloud or weight probably because of the blocking of dopeamine serotonin this happened at first right after the injections but now I'm feeling gradually better day after day I am starting to get windows of natural appreciation it's hard to explain. Anyway the delayed Ejaculate or dry orgasm is gone my semen is back and my sex drive is coming back. I am getting erections naturally without physical stimulation. Thank God what a terrible drug to administer on someone. I feel that after a years time I will be fully recovered. It's strange I was expecting this to be much worse from all the reports of people still feeling horrible after 12 months off and I already feel better than what people report at that point.

One way I know that my pleasure receptors have improved is when I first was administered this medecine I went to have beer and I couldn't feel any of it. Now months later I can feel the beer.

Hopefully this gives someone hope that healing does happen.

I will be sure to check back in the future.
 
I'm getting so discouraged and I hate that bc I'm a positive person. Its like this medication has taken my ability to explain myself. My vocabulary is not what it used to be at all. I'm having a hard time completing simple tasks. I feel like this medication has debilitated me in some ways. I'm so close to just ending it all.
 
Gilbezr said:
I'm getting so discouraged and I hate that bc I'm a positive person. Its like this medication has taken my ability to explain myself. My vocabulary is not what it used to be at all. I'm having a hard time completing simple tasks. I feel like this medication has debilitated me in some ways. I'm so close to just ending it all.
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Hang in there for yourself and your family. I know its hard Im going through extreme anxiety, restlessness/akethesia, evil thoughts that feel like they aren?t my own, suicidal thoughts, and possibly tardive dysk thats causing my insomnia. Im only getting 4-5 hrs of sleep at night and its driving me crazy. I feel like my brain is deteriorating. Im almost at 3 months hopefully Ill get a normal 8 hrs of sleep back and my symptoms dissapear soon.

How long has it been since youve been injected?
 
I was feeling good last week like I was on my to recovering now im back to feeling miserable. Ive been going to group therapy where they talk about psychosis, schizo, and mental illness and none of the psychiatrist believe me when I tell them my symptoms are from the poison they thought was a good idea to inject me with. It is what it is. Life has become extremely uncomfortable but Im going to remain hopeful that if this doesnt kill me itll make me stronger. My vocabulary and train of thought is all over the place excuse my writing its difficult to focus nowadays.
 
tgrizzly47 said:
Hang in there for yourself and your family. I know its hard Im going through extreme anxiety, restlessness/akethesia, evil thoughts that feel like they aren?t my own, suicidal thoughts, and possibly tardive dysk thats causing my insomnia. Im only getting 4-5 hrs of sleep at night and its driving me crazy. I feel like my brain is deteriorating. Im almost at 3 months hopefully Ill get a normal 8 hrs of sleep back and my symptoms dissapear soon.

How long has it been since youve been injected?
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My last injection was 9-28 2017....117mg....I had a total of four shots at 156mg. I had an amazing career as a stock broker until those first few shots. As soon I got my third injection I went into a severe depression, insomnia, adhedonia, cognitive impairment, sexual dysfunction.
 
@invegauser,

Hey man, hope you've been doing really good with your almost complete 99.5% recovery. I was just going to see what you thought about how I interpret the elimination timeline. Do you think it's a solid 49 day max?
Anyway, it's generally really good to hear from you. I really appreciate and have appreciated your outgoingness and support.
 
I believe there is some genetic testing, genetic modification done to us. Could be that they first inject us with a poison to weaken the bodies defense so the virus is able to work in the environment and completely take over the body. Once you are rid of the poison, there are definitely genetic changes, such is taking 5x the effort to think, or be active, much like an animal brain. What do you guys think? Anyway, we need a group outside of bluelight.
 
The Most Ultimate said:
I believe there is some genetic testing, genetic modification done to us. Could be that they first inject us with a poison to weaken the bodies defense so the virus is able to work in the environment and completely take over the body. Once you are rid of the poison, there are definitely genetic changes, such is taking 5x the effort to think, or be active, much like an animal brain. What do you guys think? Anyway, we need a group outside of bluelight.
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Much like an animal brain?? hahaha no way man dont believe youll be the way you are forever just look at this like a stupefy spell from harry potter. Weve all been temporarly rendered slightly retarded or stupider than we were prior to our injection but it will get better. Believing I think is the fastest way to trick your brain into rewiring itself back into its normal state not this as you would call animal state it is currently in.

@Gilbezr thats awesome man I always wanted to get into stocks. The Wolf of Wall Street was an inspiring movie for me haha I had three shots 234mg then 156mg a week apart then another 156mg a month later my psychiatrist wanted me to get 7 total shots to manage my alleged schizophrenia but I told her to go piss off with that suggestion. Im glad I did too because this drug nearly pushed me over the edge. I was on the brink of killing myself the first month off. I was at an all time low facing every side effect in the book. I have faith we will all get better eventually. Ive noticed the more I trick myself into believing im doing better and making progress the closer I get to fully recovering. Theres a long road ahead of us but we will all get through this. Fuck the psychiatric industry and the so called professionals that decide to inject us with this poison. Im sure it works for those that actually need it but many of us have been misdiagnosed or given the wrong, invega, drug to treat our symptoms. Invega Sustenna injections should be the last resort to treat any illness considering how strong it is
 
The Most Ultimate said:
I believe there is some genetic testing, genetic modification done to us. Could be that they first inject us with a poison to weaken the bodies defense so the virus is able to work in the environment and completely take over the body. Once you are rid of the poison, there are definitely genetic changes, such is taking 5x the effort to think, or be active, much like an animal brain. What do you guys think? Anyway, we need a group outside of bluelight.
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Hey MostUltimate,

I was following your posts about a week ago because you were really into physical health. I've had to drop out of the gym because of this nightmare, but was just wondering, because it seems like you have made a complete recovery, how much did they give you and for how long? And what percentage would you say you've recovered?
 
Gilbezr said:
Guys and gals I called Janssen the pharmaceutical company that many facturers this drug and filed an official complaint. I would suggest that each of you do the same. It's clear that we all are experiencing some of the same issues that need to be reported. I'm also going to file a complaint against the psychiatrist that forced this shot upon me even though I was diagnosed with Bi Polar. I feel totally victimized and I'm enraged at what this medication has done to my life.
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Hello sir. You'll be just fine with the four shots at 156mg. The third shot was your body telling you that was too much. Each month allowed a timeline of near virtual clearance other than what cumulatively built up to that overdose level you were experiencing on the third. It wouldn't surprise me at all if your 95% in 6 months. Just stay off any other drugs. The 234 and 156mg just a week from one another is the real overdose. Trinza is off the charts.
Atleast you didn't get hit with anything higher. If so, that would take over twice as long to heal. Your in a real good spot compared to many of us others, don't forget that.
 
The 1 injection took 3 months. I worked out hardcore, sweated it out fast starting 2 months after, but still going lightly got the first 2 months. So considering I was doing 2 hours a day. At the time I had 0 strength, heavy burning / foul taste in my throat. I didn't realize just how bad this was back them with so much of it in my blood stream at once, luckily I did survive. I am still not the same person, feel recovered, but cognitive wise I think I could have been better, strength wise as well. my learning and strength training takes 3x the effort to achieve the same results as from 2015. I still can not get my legs completely sore after the workout, that would otherwise have left me un-walkable for 1 day. + I have a slight uni-brow, don't care, and patches of hair on my back. Still don't care, but it is different. Maybe it is age related because I am not in my teens. Anyone else get weird hair?
 
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That's weird you can't get ur legs sore I never had that problem even in my first months of working out. I was actually doing the Corey Gregory Squat everyday program at the time and it wasn't the squats that really killed me it was like I think it 300-400M of lunges you would do before and after. I would suggest it if ur looking to really get ur squat game up. Maybe iso workout back because i don't think it does enough. I see ur icon and ur posts and it gives me hope when u post. I'm glad u check back in with all of struggling it means a lot to all.
 
This might sound screwed up but I feel like thinking wise now, I have never been sharper. I am doing luminosity/duo lingo in free time as I am learning Spanish/German. I love politics and I feel like lately I can decipher all the emotion ppl use when they are coming up with their ideas and it impedes their way of thinking as not logical or rational. I KNOW I did it all the time. It doesn't mean I don't have emotional outbursts but it's much more controlled and I feel like the crazy rushes I had in my head are still there but I can control it better this time around now that I'm closer to healing. A couple months before I wanted everyone to die. The psychosis from the poison is gone.

However if u guys don't hear from me after months on end I probably died from heart complications. I've gone off of magnesium and was doing my job today and my heart was consistently over 100 sitting down and driving a forklift for 4 hours. It seems like an outburst of anger or anexity will spike my heart rate up. Not trying to cardio for at least 2 months until I can get my heart under control.

However I am hopeful because I'm approaching the 10th month Mar 5th and i will be close if not done with this heart hell at month 12-14 maybe.

I have a lot of garbage in system and I hate how much extra weight I have on me but women don't seem to mind. The drugs have made me embarrassed to take off my shirt and I tell women I'm just looking for platonic friends and now while simultaneously losing weight I have prospects.

My ability to get drunk seems to top off at a certain point but I'm not expecting to get shit faced until May but celebrating my peoples heritage in March at home (good Ole Chicago) will be amazing.

My perspective on this drug is it feels like a death sentence but I feel like I've recovered a lot if not improved in some things. I'm just waiting for the last veil of heart issues to go away and then I can achieve the body I once had and this time with proper nutrition I will add on crazy crazy strength to my already impressive speed and I can feel fully connected again
 
I feel there is much anger in me, very much - but I cannot bring it out. After 3 secunds it is away again. - and despair, and sadness. But the feelings are only short to feel. I can dream, but when I wake up, I feel very hurt, traumatizesed, even in my dreams I feel that I am hurt.
When came your emotions really back? I love my dog, but even with him I cannot be so lucky like before. I miss my son. When I am under people, I know, I couldn?t be as lucky as they are. I am very nervous often. But now I can read, I can better be alone. Do you think, there is still poison in my body after 15 month (the two loading shots, but I was healthy).

I would really do everything to get strong and healthy.Will there be a time, were the emotions can come out like a normal person. ?
 
Just assaulted again today. Every time I twitch, my bones hurt, or I feel horrible only one thing comes to mind- ASSAULT!
The capitalism abusing debt-driving scavaging 'Survivors' have no business in America.
I just found out yesterday, after I already knew, the motherfuck in Florida was "medicined". I tweeted pro-jewish zionist Butt Trumpet and demanded ALL anti-psychotics to be banned in the Land Of The Free. You think he'll listen, or any fool would really do ANYTHING about it? Your answer is as good as mine- NO! There is TOO MUCH bankruptcy to be had and too much of a disconnection.
Mad scientists are destroying God's people, and in more ways than one.
If your born retarded, I'm sorry, but I don't believe you should procreate. The suffering and mutation must be limited for the general overall well-being of the nation. I really think the socialism should be there without the forced sterilization. But who is to determine and may the matter be abused also?
Anyway, We have fraud Frankenstein scientists really going in and taking pretty good people's lives and destroying them. There's a lot of bankruptcy.
This site, if it was not created by a common people for use of healthy communication and freedom of speech, we would see the bankruptcy there also.
Free-press? It's all about control.
If you say something, although you may very well not be a doctor, I believe it is up to the individual to decide. And with undisguised truthful information available you would realize individual freedoms through freedom of thought and Truthful freedom of speech unfold.
But We do not live in a day and age that socializes Truth because there is too much bankruptcy to be had by the villany that survives by any means necessary. And their ways are of deception, dishonesty, self-centerdness, and delusion. They have to be that way. It's how they make it. FRAUDS!
 
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