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Mental Health Coming Off Invega Sustenna (Paliperidone) v.2

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Narshe81_return said:
I'm keeping my eyes on you now that you are 8 months off. I think you will recover real soon, so please, keep us updated.
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Thank you friend! I am skinny and young I hope that helps my recovery! I will definitely keep you all updated and thank you all very much for the support through this dark time!
 
I posted something earlier but I accidentally deleted it somehow. I just wanted to say I noticed some (very small) improvement lately. Still improvement though.

Today when I woke up I was okay with waking up. The last 8 months every day I have woke up I think "damnit" and get a sinking feeling in my heart. Today I didn't get that feeling. I then played my game for a couple hours and actually enjoyed it.

I didn't enjoy it nearly as much as I should but it was the first sense of pleasure I had in all these months since Invega. I then watched some comedy on YouTube and actually laughed a couple times. I can count the number of times I have laughed (since injection) on one hand.

I was surprised because any other time I would watch comedy I would just stare at it with a grimace and literally get pissed off when I would hear the laughter of others. So all in all not much improvement at all but I actually saw measurable improvement today.

I hope it wasn't just a fluke or that I happened to have a good day. I hope this is a sign. I know I have read several recovery stories that said they woke up and felt a little better one day and after 2-3 weeks were completely healed. I hope this is the case for me.

I have jogged and excersized 8 days in a row now. I should have started a long time ago. I noticed literally all of the early (8 month or less) recovery stories share that story. Literally all of them excersized.

I will keep all of you posted and if anyone needs support PM me and I can give my number to talk too. My heart goes out to anyone here who has a long way to go to recover... I think mine is just around the corner. At least I hope.

Recovery will happen. It happens for everyone. Literally everyone... it can range from 5 months to 5 years but either way the situation is not peramanent. The only way it takes years is if you were injected for years and you don't take proper steps (like excersize) to heal yourself.

Don't just sit around and wait to heal. Try to take some steps and be proactive. Wellbutrin has helped me with the sexual dysfunction if nothing else. Also try intermittent fasting and excersize.

Try cognitive behaviour therapy if possible. To try to help the anhedonia my therapist would ask things like "how did your shower feel?" "was the water warm" "did you feel better after?"... it sounds stupid but it can actually help. If you took the time to read thank you very much guys. Happy healing and good luck to all of us!
 
Guys, Im still taking this medicine, at 150 mg, and I feel fine.

I feel like I did 5 years ago when I was a kid.

It's hard to imagine because in the beggining I had anhedonia too. Could not play games, could not watch movies, but now I feel fine. Im playing league of legends and watching The Tribe on youtube. It's fun.

I can't believe it worked.
I was thinking I had to quit this garbage to get better but no. It finally worked ( whatever it is ) .

Although, my sexual dysfunction is still there. I mean I like girls, but not in the way I used to ( you know )...

Sleeping like a puppy...

I geuss Im the fastest recovery story there is...

I wish I can say what I did to make it better, but I just don't know. I mean I used to take levo-tyrosine and 5-htp once or twice a week, maybe those helped. I don't know.
 
Today feels especially shitty.

Anyone willing to share more psychosis stories? What was yours like and for how long? How did it get you your first shot of invega sustenna?
 
Narshe81_return said:
Today feels especially shitty.

Anyone willing to share more psychosis stories? What was yours like and for how long? How did it get you your first shot of invega sustenna?
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Narshe81_return said:
Today feels especially shitty.

Anyone willing to share more psychosis stories? What was yours like and for how long? How did it get you your first shot of invega sustenna?
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I went into a (drug induced) psychosis in which I thought my sister was my mother and my entire family = incest pedophiles. I also thought I was Jesus and was back for the rapture. I would walk around telling everyone "I'm Jesus Chris, the one that they talk about in the Bible!" I would become violent with anyone who disagreed. I also thought that everything that people said or did had a special meaning directly related to me. When the news came on I thought that everything said was somehow connected to me. It was an ugly time I wish it never happened. My family took me to a hospital where I agreed to be voluntarily committed. They started me on Invega pills. One of the nurses kept insisting I take the Invega shot. She told that the pdoc wanted me to as well and I was just blocking that part out (I know for 100% certain that was not true) but at the time I assumed if I didn't comply they would hold me longer... and that is how my first and last shot of Invega happened.
 
copperdome said:
I went into a (drug induced) psychosis in which I thought my sister was my mother and my entire family = incest pedophiles. I also thought I was Jesus and was back for the rapture. I would walk around telling everyone "I'm Jesus Chris, the one that they talk about in the Bible!" I would become violent with anyone who disagreed. I also thought that everything that people said or did had a special meaning directly related to me. When the news came on I thought that everything said was somehow connected to me. It was an ugly time I wish it never happened. My family took me to a hospital where I agreed to be voluntarily committed. They started me on Invega pills. One of the nurses kept insisting I take the Invega shot. She told that the pdoc wanted me to as well and I was just blocking that part out (I know for 100% certain that was not true) but at the time I assumed if I didn't comply they would hold me longer... and that is how my first and last shot of Invega happened.
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First and last? You only had one shot and it messed you up as well, huh?

Thanks for sharing. That was interesting. When I had my psychosis back in late 2012, I didn't think that I was Jesus Christ but I thought that I was a reincarnation of a monk who has sinned in the past lives. I met so many people that said they thought they were Jesus at the hospital. That seems to be a common thing for psychosis, eh? If you read online you would so many cases of people who said they thought they were Jesus or the Messiah.

I also thought that anything played on the radio or on TV had special meanings for me. I actually 'felt' the messages, it's hard to explain. I thought I knew the root causes of hurricane Katrina, the tsunami in Japan, and the secrets of all religions. It was wild. I saw spirits and ghosts and believed that I was to end a holy war that has been going on for ages. I had visions of my city in ruins and I saw many other horrible things. They seemed/felt so real it's hard to put in words. Since I was living alone at the time and was homeless, my psychosis lasted for several months because I didn't have anyone to notice how I was behaving. It was a grand adventure filled with conspiracies, confusion, violence, and fear.

Right now I'm still pretty messed up in terms of memories from my second round of the injections so I can't recall much of what happened. I seem to recall them in pieces only now. One of the scariest memories I had of the psychosis was when I thought I went to hell and it did feel like an eternity. I also thought that I was being hunted by different groups of people and thought that I was being held captive in my country.

Really messed up...


P.S. I also spoke to Steve Jobs after he passed away and had a visit from King Henry the VI.

lol....
 
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Narshe81_return said:
Yeah, it's really me. Not too proud to have to be back here, to be honest. I think I almost recovered fully the last time until I had another psychosis. I forgot exactly how I felt because after having stopped posting here, I just went on and live life. I went to the gym, was working part time, and was playing Final Fantasy 14. This time around I am not as anxious or scared since things are different now and I have since found more and more recovery stories, so I just have to play the waiting game one more time. This time around I'm going to be extra careful.

It's ironic, really, if you look back at one of my earlier posts from v.1 of this thread, I mentioned about this case where a woman's boyfriend relapsed after 5-6 months. I should have taken that as a warning sign, but I was too focused on just feeling better I didn't worry about the relapse nor did I know about the receptor hypersensitivity after cessation. Now I'm paying the price for it.

I'm waiting to see if any of those recovered in this thread would relapse and return here again too. Hopefully, they will be careful and make the right decision. I hope that all of them have the needed supports so that they won't have to go through another round of neuroleptic drugs if they relapse.


I'm really surprised at how huge this thread has gotten over the years. I just hope that within my lifetime something will be done about psychiatry.
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Thanks for your reply Narshe. How long did you take Invega Sustenna after relapsing? I never relapsed because I never had any psychotic episodes to begin with. My psychiatrist cheated me and lied to me just to scam the money out of me. I live in Canada as well, and my experiences have been rough. I still have anxiety and insomnia caused by the withdrawal from Invega Sustenna, although it is not as bad as it once was. Are you off this toxin now?
 
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Hello everyone,

Today marks exactly one year since I had my last injection. It has been a rough ride for me ever since, and the problems I had during my initial withdrawal have persisted to this day. I never "relapsed", but that is only because I never had any psychotic episodes to begin with. My psychiatrist pushed Invega Sustenna on me without fully understanding my situation. He did what was best for his business, and had no regard for my health. I am afraid that this is the problem with most psychiatrists today. While on the medication, I had panic attacks and pain all across my body. I also had difficulty swallowing for a month, as well as many other serious side effects. Invega Sustenna was the worst thing to happen to me in my life, and once I stopped it, I had the worst withdrawal symptoms. To begin with, my heart rate was very rapid for more than two weeks (between 90 and 110). I also had severe withdrawal insomnia and had two episodes in which I could not sleep for three consecutive days. This was the worst experience of my life. To top it all off, I had severe anxiety, which has not gone away to this day. While my heart rate stabilized the second month I was off this toxin, my insomnia and anxiety have not gone away (although the insomnia is mild now). I am afraid to take any other medications to cope with my anxiety, as I do not want a repeat of my Invega withdrawal. To everyone on this forum coping with Invega or Invega withdrawal, I wish you all the best in your recovery. Remember that we are in this together. One good thing which came out of this overall horrible experience for me was the fact that it woke me up to the malpractices of the psychiatric industry. So much so that I will never trust another psychiatrist again. I have since avoided going to any of these so-called doctors. We need to unite against the injustices which have been perpetrated against us! Whenever I post on this website I feel like crying not only because it reminds me off all of the tough times I went through last year, but also because I see all of you suffering as bad or worse than me. We need fight this toxin from the inside, and we have to be mentally strong. I am still looking forward to the day I recover, but it may as well be a dream at this point. :'(

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I hope everyone is doing well. I try to be supportive and stay mostly positive but I had a bad day today and I really just really hope I come around soon. I am going to go work in the oil fields on the 8th of next month, or 9 days. I REALLY hope that 9 more days of exercize with the 11 I already have down does something to help. I really wanted to be healed before I started work this hard. Sometimes I bite off more than I can chew. I had hoped to try electroshock therapy or Iboga to heal but barring a miacle I don't think it can happen before I start this job. I really am hoping I somehow finally snap out of this. I will keep you all posted and thanks for listening to me.
 
Stormrage said:
Aren't you guys glad the medicine stopped the psychosis ?
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Exactly. Most people here seem to be convinced they never suffered psychosis. This may very well be true and would probably be to blame for the extreme side effects that some seem to experience. You don't prescribe digitalis glycosides to someone with a healthy heart either.
Others I am afraid blame the drug for a lot of negative symptoms that were in fact caused by their schizophrenia. The extent to which Risperdal and Paliperidone are demonized in this thread is plain grotesque.
 
crOOk said:
Exactly. Most people here seem to be convinced they never suffered psychosis. This may very well be true and would probably be to blame for the extreme side effects that some seem to experience. You don't prescribe digitalis glycosides to someone with a healthy heart either.
Others I am afraid blame the drug for a lot of negative symptoms that were in fact caused by their schizophrenia. The extent to which Risperdal and Paliperidone are demonized in this thread is plain grotesque.
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From what I have seen there aren't many people who deny they had some type of issue that caused the injection. If anything some say they had psychosis not schizophrenia. I think your post is just meant to stir the pot as this medication is well known to cause the problems it does.
 
crOOk said:
Exactly. Most people here seem to be convinced they never suffered psychosis. This may very well be true and would probably be to blame for the extreme side effects that some seem to experience. You don't prescribe digitalis glycosides to someone with a healthy heart either.
Others I am afraid blame the drug for a lot of negative symptoms that were in fact caused by their schizophrenia. The extent to which Risperdal and Paliperidone are demonized in this thread is plain grotesque.
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I would normally be able to make sense of things but Risperdal Consta and Invega Sustenna raped my brain...

In other words, I often find myself in a very large Wal*Mart shopping center in my dreams... but despite a few people being in the store, the parking lot is always vacant.
 
I am aware of aripiprazole's effects while this is taken; but my question is more focused on the effects AFTER the discontinuation of this med as I'm really concerned about the effect that this med could have caused in my brain.

In short, are these effects permanent? Will they disappear? 100% recovery eventually comes after the discontinuation of this med in therapeutic dosages (10-15 mg) and at the given time of 2 months (really short-term usage)?

5 months have passed since my last dosage. My flow of thoughts remains slowed somehow; motions aren't as intense as they used to be when I listen to my favourite songs. As a student, I'm afraid my concentration, focus and ability to memorize became impaired too
 
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