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Mental Health Coming off Invega (Paliperidone, Xeplion) injections v. 7.0

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Baddream said:
I get high but no euphoria. Only anxiety and paranoia. Think I’m done with smoking weed for good it’s too risky. I never smoked before the shot anyways. I can feel alcohol if I drink enough.

The reason why some people fear we never recover is because these drugs aren’t only meant to treat mental illness, it’s to make us less «dangerous» to society. They don’t give forced injections unless they believe you’re a threat. They say the benefits outweigh the risks, (maybe) meaning they don’t care if we get damaged as long as society is safe. I hate to admit it but weed and alcohol may never be the same again. I hope I’m wrong.

I personally have gotten alot better and believe in a full recovery.
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I’ve always smoked but I think I’m going to quit to its what gave me psychosis. Wish I could go back and move smarter.
 
Invegatorture said:
Anyone else haunted by their past life?
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I think I have made some wrong decisions that led me down this path. Being injected with this shit is really low. Mental health issues is nothing to be ashamed of, but I need to make some changes in my life to make sure this never happens again. I just don’t know what that is.

I will always struggle with paranoia, anxiousness and over analyzing things that normal people just brush off. On the bright side, the analytical skills is my bread and butter. I did finance in school and thrived on stats.
 
Baddream said:
I think I have made some wrong decisions that led me down this path. Being injected with this shit is really low. Mental health issues is nothing to be ashamed of, but I need to make some changes in my life to make sure this never happens again. I just don’t know what that is.

I will always struggle with paranoia, anxiousness and over analyzing things that normal people just brush off. On the bright side, the analytical skills is my bread and butter. I did finance in school and thrived on stats.
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they give invega to pedophiles and serial rapists in prison
 
The first few months I suffered from akathisia, severe insomnia, blank mind, nausea when swallowing, shuffled walk, loss of period, back/shoulder acne and complete loss of emotions. Ten months later, I’m dealing with loss of emotions, no period, back/ shoulder acne.
 
Kiaf85 said:
The first few months I suffered severe insomnia, blank mind, nausea when swallowing, shuffled walk, loss of period, back/shoulder acne and complete loss of emotions. Ten months later, I’m dealing with loss of emotions, no period, back/ shoulder acne.
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So you can’t get high either?
 
Kiaf85 said:
The first few months I suffered severe insomnia, blank mind, nausea when swallowing, shuffled walk, loss of period, back/shoulder acne and complete loss of emotions. Ten months later, I’m dealing with loss of emotions, no period, back/ shoulder acne.
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How is your anhedonia. What happens when you consume coffee or listen to music. Do you train? How about your interests and motivations.
 
t_xeplionhell said:
How is your anhedonia. What happens when you consume coffee or listen to music. Do you train? How about your interests and motivations.
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My anhedonia hasn’t improved at all. I had a cup of coffee yesterday, it made me feel slightly better but nothing major. I don’t train at all. I don’t really feel interested or motivated. I feel like I’m just in survival mode.
 
Kiaf85 said:
My anhedonia hasn’t improved at all. I had a cup of coffee yesterday, it made me feel slightly better but nothing major. I don’t train at all. I don’t really feel interested or motivated. I feel like I’m just in survival mode.
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Music doesn’t feel me like it used to.
 
Robchanna said:
So you felt euphoria that we are all lacking right now?
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Yep. I can get euphoria from all of things I used to now not just pot
Robchanna said:
I think it might be because you are on xepelion and I’ve seen that people on this can’t get high ever
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I've heard that too, but it wasn't my experience. Keep in mind some people continue to take other APs which will continue to mess with your reward systems
 
Kiaf85 said:
My anhedonia hasn’t improved at all. I had a cup of coffee yesterday, it made me feel slightly better but nothing major. I don’t train at all. I don’t really feel interested or motivated. I feel like I’m just in survival mode.
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Anhedonia should have improved by now
 
Hi everybody, I've read through a bit of these threads and it breaks my heart to see so many people have been through this. Still, I'm glad to have found it because I'm sure having a supportive community helps us recover.

I was injected with the two loading doses at the end of January after being misdiagnosed with schizoaffective disorder in a psych ward. It was terrible at first, my body would painfully stiffen up and I'd drool all over myself. I felt no pleasure and couldn't sleep through the night, I had akathisia during the day time and I gained 20 pounds. I lost all sexual function for a few months. I thought my life was over and the only thing that kept me going was the hope that I'd feel better someday.

Six months later, I've seen a lot of improvement. The akathisia has gone and I sleep fairly well most nights. My mood is a bit better, perhaps a touch of anhedonia but I'm able to take some kind of muted pleasure in books and video games and seeing my friends. There was a period where i could barely socially function, but I'm back to seeing my friends and have made a lot of new ones. My libido is lower than I would like it to be, but it's a bit better and hopefully continues to improve. Thanks to diet and exercise, I've lost seven pounds of the weight I gained. I was able to return to work in April, but was laid off in June due to mass layoffs in the company.

My current psych isn't entirely sure what my issue is, but is positive that it isn't schizoaffective disorder or schizophrenia. She had me on seroquel for a bit, then added a low dose of lexapro once she felt it was safe to do so. Recently she took me off seroquel and added wellbutrin. I'm very hopeful about taking wellbutrin, as it's a dopamine agonist that can hopefully counteract the invega remnants a bit. I'll let all of you know how it goes.

If you're reading this and you're still at the worst of it, hang in there. Invega is one of the worst substances I can imagine, but things do get better if you can hold on.
 
I am tired of the same shit over and over, no one passes that point of recovering 60%, it is insane, they only thing that changes is the month but we all refer to the same fucking exact thing, thats not pretty much recovered, not even 20% recovered. Something is missing, and thats mainly pleasure and satisfaction, real euphoria from achieving little things such as lying in yoyr fucking bed. No one has recovered that feeling, and trust me when I say that because no one does recover from such a heavy use of antipsychotic meds. Peace!
 
Ive tried everything, weed, codeine, alcohol, caffeine, tobacco, nicotine, CBD, EVERY FUCKING PIECE OF SHIT that should give me pleasure and they all end up in the fucking trash. I dont know you but I dont wanna live without that exact feeling of pleasure and euphoria, I just cant. Maybe Im just different, but life is THAT, nothing else. Not even buying new clothes, or hanging out with some people, or having an orgasm, you just need to feel good in your own skin, feel rested, comfy… thats all people, none of us has that, and its truly depressing, i wouldn wish that to any of us, but truth is truth
 
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