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Mental Health Coming off Invega (Paliperidone, Xeplion) injections v 6.0

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I’m suicidal right now, I’m not going to act on it. It’s just a deep deep sadness and depression. I’m in constant pain and suffering. It’s awful I feel so awful. I just want it to end, and if I had the balls to end I probably would who knows it could get there it’s been going down fast.
 
I think I’m going to leave the forum for a while, today marks the last day of the week long vacation I decided to take, it started out disappointing but at the end of it i’m glad I went the sun is definitely very healing for sure and I spent lots of time in it, when I get home I am going to focus on myself & self improvement in general I still gotta pickup the pieces of my life I lost during my crisis like the social & finical aspect etc, I spend too much time on this thread and the Internet in general tbh probably to fill the void of my lost social life invega crippled my motivation to do something about it but it’s about time I step out of my comfort zone & make new friends and re connect with old ones again in person to do that it’s probably best if I cut down on my internet usage, I have OCD and constantly check this shit I already have all the info I need on recovery and have nothing to gain by being here so much anymore I gotta use my time more wisely, best of luck to you all I’ll be sending prayers your way and I promise you if you’re at your darkest time in your life it’s gonna get better eventually all bad things come to an end just hang in there, I’ll be sure to check back in when I recover 100% & when there’s a new wave of people. Cheers
 
Merek said:
I think I’m going to leave the forum for a while, today marks the last day of the week long vacation I decided to take, it started out disappointing but at the end of it i’m glad I went the sun is definitely very healing for sure and I spent lots of time in it, when I get home I am going to focus on myself & self improvement in general I still gotta pickup the pieces of my life I lost during my crisis like the social & finical aspect etc, I spend too much time on this thread and the Internet in general tbh probably to fill the void of my lost social life invega crippled my motivation to do something about it but it’s about time I step out of my comfort zone & make new friends and re connect with old ones again in person to do that it’s probably best if I cut down on my internet usage, I have OCD and constantly check this shit I already have all the info I need on recovery and have nothing to gain by being here so much anymore I gotta use my time more wisely, best of luck to you all I’ll be sending prayers your way and I promise you if you’re at your darkest time in your life it’s gonna get better eventually all bad things come to an end just hang in there, I’ll be sure to check back in when I recover 100% & when there’s a new wave of people. Cheers
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Ill miss you merek, please pop back in sometime just to say hi and let us know how you're progressing
 
HelpMeInvega said:
I’m suicidal right now, I’m not going to act on it. It’s just a deep deep sadness and depression. I’m in constant pain and suffering. It’s awful I feel so awful. I just want it to end, and if I had the balls to end I probably would who knows it could get there it’s been going down fast.
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Im in constant pain and suffering too, I know how you feel
 
Merek said:
I think I’m going to leave the forum for a while, today marks the last day of the week long vacation I decided to take, it started out disappointing but at the end of it i’m glad I went the sun is definitely very healing for sure and I spent lots of time in it, when I get home I am going to focus on myself & self improvement in general I still gotta pickup the pieces of my life I lost during my crisis like the social & finical aspect etc, I spend too much time on this thread and the Internet in general tbh probably to fill the void of my lost social life invega crippled my motivation to do something about it but it’s about time I step out of my comfort zone & make new friends and re connect with old ones again in person to do that it’s probably best if I cut down on my internet usage, I have OCD and constantly check this shit I already have all the info I need on recovery and have nothing to gain by being here so much anymore I gotta use my time more wisely, best of luck to you all I’ll be sending prayers your way and I promise you if you’re at your darkest time in your life it’s gonna get better eventually all bad things come to an end just hang in there, I’ll be sure to check back in when I recover 100% & when there’s a new wave of people. Cheers
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Oh alright, I too am afflicted with ocd and feel the tendency to check multiple times a day, though interestingly my compulsive behavior is less intense after invega. Yeah I sort of use this forum to feel a sense of belonging, something that I was hoping would've happened if I was still going to college and the gym since I met several great people but abruptly stopped talking to them due to my current state of health. I'm extremely thankful that my best friend has stuck with me since elementary school, up until now. I feel horrible to suddenly stop being so cheerful and humorous after doing so for years but at least he understands the situation. It's highly concerning that most people report a reduction in IQ/Intelligence, makes me feel like I'd struggle if I ever went back to college, and I'm also certain I'll only have a fraction of the strength I once had going back to the gym, since I literally nearly blacked out from doing cardio which never happened pre-invega, but I guess I should at least attempt it again. I'm not going to lie I spend an unhealthy amount of time playing games or watching videos nowadays as I'm too unwell to do much else. Not sure if you'll read this message if you're already on vacation but I hope you have a great time, you deserve it considering how helpful you've been to me and others here.
 
loosewheelnut said:
Im in constant pain and suffering too, I know how you feel
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Try some these tips to help with pain an recovery
Benzos, benadryl and tart cherry extract relieved pain most for me

EARLY INVEGA:
NAC,GLUTIATHIONE,SJW


SYMPTOMS:
BENADRYL, BENZOS(FOR SOME), TART CHERRY EXTRACT( MAXIMUM DOSE FOR EFFECTIVENESS)


POST INVEGA RECOVERY:
GABA , 5HTP/EGCG, L TYROSINE


EXTRA:
R ALA CYCOLDEXTRIN , TESTERONE FROM DOCTOR


TEETH:
VITAMIN K2


PROLACTIN LEVELS:
7 DAYS OF ABILIFY PILLS


EYE HEALTH/INFLAMATION:
AREDS MULTI VITAMIN 1 OR 2, TART CHERRY EXTRACT, LUTEIN


COLD WEATHER:
WALKS, SHOWERS


LIBIDO:
HORNY GOAT WEED, 5HTP AND EGCG
 
apsucks said:
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There's no such thing as AP withdrawal, good video btw.
It defies logic. It's like having baseball bat to the head withdrawal


You can't fully understand invega unless you've tried it, it's the only explanation why people so smart still talk about AP withdrawal like it exist
 
foodcrisis said:
you can see so much stuff in space other than the sun though if you look into a telescope. like every star is a sun somewhere too... i wouldn't be surprised if all the suns ran on the same energy though and there were some sort of dream truth because the brain runs on the same electricity as the stars. it'd be really easy to say that, but then you look at all the nebulas and galaxies, whatever all of that colors and stars is. it's way beyond me. i'd like to think that dreams are some sort of real space trip where other realities are encountered though. i don't think that's really what this thread is going for though.

maybe all the colors in space create energies of different people though. it's a nice thought. i'm sure i can post some where else about it.
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i like your thoughts! keep em coming
 
t_xeplionhell said:
@Merek serotonine mood system recovers slower than dopamine system, this can make someone chase something more (like trying to win at gambling, trying to improve in sport, trying to improve at work, etc) while not having "its good enough" effect from the serotonine system while having some effect of dopamine which makes chase better to experience than result of chase.
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how ell have you recovered? how long has it been since your last ingection
 
apsucks said:
So smart he fucked himself up and got injected...most people here including me were pretty dumb by making stupid choices...really smart people dont put themselfs in these situations.
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hows your dopamine sensitivity
 
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