I had two "loading dose" shots of invega about 50 days ago forced on me to get out of the psych ward. Ever since I've had terrible anhedonia with daily suicidal thoughts, anxiety, akathisia, Ed, zero sperm count(which improved about a month in), terrible body pains, sharp/numbing/burning penis pain, pain in kidney, less intelligent, less conversational, and it feels like I lost my soul and good spirit. The injection and how it's ruined me is all I can focus on lately. Its been the worst time in my 23 years. Most of my anxiety I feel now is worrying that things like my anhedonia and spirit might never recover, as I've heard so many stories of others not getting better, even with 1 or 2 shots.Perhaps physical symptoms improving early on are a good sign my brain will recover.