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Mental Health Coming off Invega (paliperidone) injections, v 5.0

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Jerry Atrick said:
Yeah, let's try not to go off topic too far but I will add that one of the best things I did for my mental health was quit watching TV. Haven't followed a sitcom or watched the news in years.

The only TV I watch anymore is football when it's in season and even then I mute and try to avoid the commercials. The advertising is just as indoctrinating as the shows themselves. I listen to community radio (no commercials) and play musical instruments to pass the time when I'm not working. Also BL and other internet sites. But these days its almost impossible to not encounter some type of propaganda unless you completely unplug. I've done it before when I was a camp counselor and we had no electronic devices at all, just mountains, animals, and nature. I should read more books too, no advertising there either.
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That’s just your opinion lol
 
Does anyone know if there will still be releases of the drug after 126 days or four months? I still get random head pressure or heavy-headedness and it’s been 110 days. I really wish this would stop because it’s a very uncomfortable feeling.

I also woke up with chest pain today. I want these symptoms to subside but they won’t, so my suffering will probably continue.
 
Strangeperiod said:
Invega actually gave me psychotic symptoms and intrusive thoughts and stuff like that so thought olanzapine could remove them, I wouldn’t have had to take it at all in the past year if they didn’t force invega,
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They’re both anti psychotics. I would’ve just went cold- turkey but that’s just me.
 
I guess this is what happens if you don't give up and don't end up killing yourself for long enough..shit starts to get weird..
 
It's called television 'programming' because it's programming your mind to see the world the way that they want you to see it. Also the best disinformation is like 95% truth, and 5% that's pure poison, and the enemy might tell you 99 truths just to get you to accept one lie. This all has to do with Invega and things like that too, because even if you're not programmed by the mainstream media, a whole bunch of people around you probably are and you still have to live amongst them..This is like high-level deconstruction of the Matrix. You have to know how society really works, and also what information is being kept from you by 'Them'.

Many people are stuck in a more lower 'animalistic' consciousness and are mainly concerned with the competition for money and social status and sex partners, not to say that you shouldn't be concerned with money because you should, and some of the other stuff too, but that's one huge reason why most people aren't reasonable or rational at all..and why they attack each other for any weaknesses, and why the stigma for 'mental illness' will never go away. Commercials try to make you feel insecure to buy their products, Edward Bernays pretty much started the whole advertising industry in the United States and subsequently the world in the 1900's or the 1920's.

Alot of this stuff uses psychology to manipulate people to buy certain things or to mind-control them in lots of other ways..This whole Covid stuff was like having real life Asch and Milgram conformity and obedience experiments. The people who really run things are like ancient psychologists, and know pretty much everything there is about how to manipulate the human psyche, because they've been perfecting it for hundreds or more years..That's also something that you shouldn't ignore or you would be doing so at your own risk. It's good for people to know about all of this kind of stuff, to break it all down in that way.
 
There's also a bunch of disempowering messages in psychiatry and that whole field too. I find identifying with a so-called mental disorder to be very disempowering, that like you're stuck with it for life and can't do anything about it, that you can only try to 'cope' with it in some way that involves taking their medications, though after the injections maybe you really are mentally ill at that point, ha. Then they tell you that you should tell everybody that you have a mental disorder, when this is usually a very bad idea unless it's just telling someone very close to you, but telling employers? Hell no, that's something that you should just keep to yourself.

Then there's pretty much this whole thing about never getting angry at all, even when there's times when it's definitely justified, like when the psychiatric people try to hold you against your will and force inject you for instance..Then I had to take like these anger management classes a long time ago and I've seen it in other places too these 'I' statements, like when talking to people you're supposed to say that like I feel this way or I feel that way about something, it's like wtf, nobody talks like that, it's gonna look weird af, or in some circles probably even gay or something lol. Mainstream psychology never seems to mention the aggressive and animalistic competition amongst people for social status and sex partners that goes on. It's like the best way to conduct yourself is first don't get yourself into any trouble with the law over something stupid but you've got to have like a line that people should be able to sense that they're probably gonna get knocked tf out if they cross it ultimately on some level, many people just seem to take kindness for weakness that's probably the only way that they're ever really going to ever respect you especially as a dude. There's just alot of disempowering stuff and messages that goes on. Also it can be arguable and can really piss alot of people off but the degree of responsibility and accountability that you should have for yourself and your outcomes in life to not have it be like having a victim mindset is something to think about too. Typically the more responsibility and ownership you take for things the better that things will get or will have the ability to get as a general rule it looks like too, and it also seems that certain things in society actually try to get you to relinquish that responsibility and have you think like more of a victim, and in turn be taking that power away from yourself that you might've had to change things.
 
masamune1 said:
Does anyone know if there will still be releases of the drug after 126 days or four months? I still get random head pressure or heavy-headedness and it’s been 110 days. I really wish this would stop because it’s a very uncomfortable feeling.

I also woke up with chest pain today. I want these symptoms to subside but they won’t, so my suffering will probably continue.
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I’m ten months off and still get chest pains so I doubt those will go away!
 
I weighed from 100lbs to 110lbs my whole adult life and now I weigh 119lbs and I can’t stand it! It’s gotten as high as 140lbs too but I’ve some how gotten it down to 119lbs. Life is legit depressing.
 
HelpMeInvega said:
That’s just your opinion lol
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No worries, you are correct that my own subjective experiences are indeed my opinion.

And I forgot to point out that when I had it at my worst and was in the depths of psychosis/mania and subsequently given forced injections, that TV was pretty much the only solace I could find because I couldn't concentrate enough to read and was too unmotivated to play guitar or write.

But once the injections wore off and I started getting more stable, that's when I quit watching TV and it actually helped me get better faster. Not that I was miraculously cured of the illness, just that my creative juices began flowing again and I felt like I was accomplishing something with my life that wasn't being a slug sitting in front of the tube for hours at a time. I got to where I could read and enjoy listening to music again and even got inspired to go on a streak of writing over 100 original songs. I haven't followed a TV series since Heroes came out and that was like 2006-2007 or something.

I will also admit that it helped my inspiration to believe I might not live past my 20s. I used to have a sense of urgency to write songs and put together albums but once I lived past my expiration date, I slowly stopped writing as much. Now I only write a handful of songs per year. Don't get me wrong, I'm glad I am still alive considering I had a few brushes with the grim reaper in my 20s. But it doesn't help to dwell on the past because we can't change it. Hell, we can't predict the future either so might as well try our best to live in the here and now. YMMV
 
Kaatrina said:
I love it when people on the internet brag about not watching TV as if the internet didn't have even more ads, stupid content, and time-wasting capabilities than television
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No internet either, I was actually just living in a van down by the river..nah I had internet. You can pick what you watch alot more closely. In sales they try to create need and to get you to think you have a problem that their product or service can solve. The media also subliminally reinforces things like social norms, and to show the kinds of power dynamics in different things that they want you to see and for you to see the world like they want you to. The subconscious mind can be influenced by anything it sees or hears without much filter, and it can run in the background of your mind, maybe causing you to form different kinds of opinions or beliefs about things that you weren't even aware of.
 
I've been on four years worth of injections and that really sucks ass and probably many other people who were on it for that long are pretty broken down now or are shells of their former selves, or also have trouble holding down a job for too long and have to go on disability or something..but it doesn't look like I have much of a choice, you can either fall apart ultimately or you can find a way or make a way to win this game..There's something else that might be there too which I've caught glimpses of before, when you really stand for something as well as give it everything you got then you might start to find that people might start responding differently to you, or doors might start to open that were closed before, or other people and maybe even the universe might start giving you energy..
 
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