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Mental Health Coming off Invega (paliperidone) injections, v 5.0

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EsseWasGreat said:
Aaaaand today I cried a bit too, over the fear of never recovering, having all the docs against me and being stuck as an inferior version of myself with major cognitive impairment and lack of empathy


as far as physically being able to laugh at jokes, cry about my awful condition and show anger it seems like I can do it all: I get more confused about myself off invega as days pass


the feeling of excitement is nowhere to be seen either...
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negative emotions are more easily ignited and invega affects them less.
 
Got one injection 15 months ago and still on dissabilty was totally fine before and happy with life normal joy and problems I guess. Never was schizo or pshycotic. I think the best thing is to just take it easy and not do stupid things even if they dont seem to matter because of being a vegetable. Is there anyone else who feels their brain is synthetic and sort of "plastic"?. I feel it all the time Im just waiting for that feeling to go away.
 
I am afraid that because of my family and the psychiatrist, 6 shots, my only solution is suicide. They still think xeplion is a good medication. I just need the guts. It is a horrible thing that is going on. I just think people need to be aware.
 
8 156mg shots
3 117mg
3 78mg
4 39mg
18 months on INVEGA

I’m 36 days since my last 39 mg shot.

I feel soooo much better than I did on 156mg shots. I can actually function at work without being confused and lost. I can get out and mow the lawn and stick to it until it’s done.

I’m still a little flat emotionally. I would say it’s better, but I’d like to see a little more improvement.

I still don’t have my normal energy back and vyvsnse barely touches me. Caffeine doesn’t touch me either.


I take 25mg seroquel at night and 150mg Wellbutrin in morning.

Im definitely recovering. I do hope for more improvement as I go along
 
The biggest improvements I’ve felt going from 156mg shots to 39mg shots is the cognitive and the ability to stick to a task. It was absolute misery to try to work or get anything done on 156 mg shots. Also, when I was on 156mg shots, if I didn’t sleep for 12 hours (seroquel 25mg aided) I would have the WORST anxiety. Also, now I can play baseball and games with my son and my gfs son and feel some sense of fun with it. On 156mg, it would be misery to try to play with a kid. Like I just wanted it over.

The biggest thing I still wish would get better is the somewhat flat emotions and the ability to feel vyvanse and coffee.

I think being on it for 18 months, I’ve forgotten what normal feels like. Each step I take down I feel a little better and it’s a big victory for me. Now I hope for the biggest improvement yet going from 39 to 0. It gives me a lot of hope that most people fully recovered after 12-18 months. I expect small improvements every month until next summer when I predict I’ll be back to myself.
 
Nina2021 said:
I am afraid that because of my family and the psychiatrist, 6 shots, my only solution is suicide. They still think xeplion is a good medication. I just need the guts. It is a horrible thing that is going on. I just think people need to be aware.
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Me too,i think my only fucking option is the suicide. I had a Life before this fucking shit and in 5 minutes it was destroyed. I wish the worst to all those who work in psychiatry, I hope they will pay for the harm they have done and for all the people they have killed by pushing them to suicide. unfortunately it will continue again and again, they will continue to kill and kill again with impunity! the earth! pffft
 
rmakoutz1 said:
The biggest improvements I’ve felt going from 156mg shots to 39mg shots is the cognitive and the ability to stick to a task. It was absolute misery to try to work or get anything done on 156 mg shots. Also, when I was on 156mg shots, if I didn’t sleep for 12 hours (seroquel 25mg aided) I would have the WORST anxiety. Also, now I can play baseball and games with my son and my gfs son and feel some sense of fun with it. On 156mg, it would be misery to try to play with a kid. Like I just wanted it over.

The biggest thing I still wish would get better is the somewhat flat emotions and the ability to feel vyvanse and coffee.

I think being on it for 18 months, I’ve forgotten what normal feels like. Each step I take down I feel a little better and it’s a big victory for me. Now I hope for the biggest improvement yet going from 39 to 0. It gives me a lot of hope that most people fully recovered after 12-18 months. I expect small improvements every month until next summer when I predict I’ll be back to myself.
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it's good for you, I hope you don't go through this nightmare of suffering during your withdrawal, I hope it goes well
 
Jerry Atrick said:
I forgot how many injections @EsseWasGreat got, but after 2 months off they have been able to exercise. Remember that most anti-psychotics treat individuals differently, so one person may recover faster or slower than another.
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I took two 100mg shots of Xeplion and yes after two months off is when I began functioning a little better in every aspect including exercise. It's nowhere near pre-injection and the days I manage to get complete workouts+jogging are still very inconsistent, but at least I do walk outside for at least 1 hour every day (sometimes more).

Planning to go to a gym as soon as I have more energy (probably by 3rd or 5th month, but even that's a big maybe)


I'm currently following a fairly strict routine consisting of walking, eating varied foods, taking supplements (multi-vitamins,omega3 and a bit of sam-e, currently considering the idea of adding st john's wort and l-tyrosine after I'm finished with my prolactin exams) and doing things that used to be leisure for me which now aren't anymore (mostly watching TV and playing games) just to pass the time before bed

I only break said routine whenever I have to do medical exams, therapist sittings or friends call me to hang out on Discord.

Life used to be a lot more varied and colorful than this and I hope to get it all back relatively soon (I mostly want my "exciting" emotions back and for anhedonia to gtfo)
 
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EsseWasGreat said:
I took two 100mg shots of Xeplion and yes after two months off is when I began functioning a little better in every aspect including exercise. It's nowhere near pre-injection and the days I manage to get complete workouts+jogging are still very inconsistent, but at least I do walk outside for at least 1 hour every day (sometimes more).

Planning to go to a gym as soon as I have more energy (probably by 3rd or 5th month, but even that's a big maybe)


I'm currently following a fairly strict routine consisting of walking, eating varied foods, taking supplements (multi-vitamins,omega3 and a bit of sam-e, currently considering the idea of adding st john's wort and l-tyrosine after I'm finished with my prolactin exams) and doing things that used to be leisure for me which now aren't anymore (mostly watching TV and playing games) just to pass the time before bed

I only break said routine whenever I have to do medical exams, therapist sittings or friends call me to hang out on Discord.

Life used to be a lot more varied and colorful than this and I hope to get it all back relatively soon (I mostly want my "exciting" emotions back and for anhedonia to gtfo)
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Recovery is slow, average recovery time is 12-18 months, don't expect much too fast, but you will slowly progress, don't quit. Lot of people notices anhedonia getting less intense when they reach 12months and then it resolves in next 4-6 months.
 
Hardest part of severe-moderate insomnia is staying awake whole night (or almost whole night) doing nothing and trying to fall asleep.
 
Hi all. I got forced on antipsychotics because i was abusing weed in my early 20s and then developed psychosis, auditory hallucinations. Any of you else here end up getting paychosis from abusing weed?
 
Gdvffh said:
Hi all. I got forced on antipsychotics because i was abusing weed in my early 20s and then developed psychosis, auditory hallucinations. Any of you else here end up getting paychosis from abusing weed?
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No I never did drugs. I had no psyhosis, only acted da bit excentric, it was partialy from long seemen retention streaks just like it happened for many other members of this forum. Nofap+nosex+noporn can make you mild high 24/7 after long streak but it doesn't work while on invega at all. It is because your receptors will upregulate, it doesn't happens too fast but effects get strong when months pass.
 
t_xeplionhell said:
I could not sleep at all this night. My sleep still seems severely damaged at 12 months off.
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Are you on other meds now. Maybe some of what you’re feeling is from your new meds because I’m doing a lot better on 39mg and I just went down to zero. I only take 25mg seroquel at night and Wellbutrin so I’m not heavily psych medicated
 
t_xeplionhell said:
No I never did drugs. I had no psyhosis, only acted da bit excentric, it was partialy from long seemen retention streaks just like it happened for many other members of this forum. Nofap+nosex+noporn can make you mild high 24/7 after long streak but it doesn't work while on invega at all. It is because your receptors will upregulate, it doesn't happens too fast but effects get strong when months pass.
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So what happened. Why you get forced on the meds. Being ecentric dosnt seem like a good reason to give someone an antipsychotic
 
Gdvffh said:
Hi all. I got forced on antipsychotics because i was abusing weed in my early 20s and then developed psychosis, auditory hallucinations. Any of you else here end up getting paychosis from abusing weed?
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Yes pyschosis from mixing meth and weed, I can smoke weed now just fine, but trying to wing off smoking so much to just smoking late in the day, seems like as I got older the come downs from weed are so shitty, I can understand why a lot of ppl quit or just don't like it anymore
 
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