So I wound down my addiction a few months ago.. I've been spending alot of time around... 'normal' people, for lack of a better word.
It's making me realise that the ease with which I lie is something not-normal.. I know nobody picks up on it... but I'm worried with how easily I slip back into doing it.. If it's easier to lie than explain something, I just slip back into it without thinking. It's not compulsive lying.. just.. it happens easily.
I'm seeing that most people aren't even capable of telling a lie without getting caught, or covering all possibilities, etc.. and then I look at myself and I feel like it's something about myself that I don't want, it's just there due to my previous life.
So does it go away? I'm trying, but I dont realise I've done it till after the fact.
It's making me realise that the ease with which I lie is something not-normal.. I know nobody picks up on it... but I'm worried with how easily I slip back into doing it.. If it's easier to lie than explain something, I just slip back into it without thinking. It's not compulsive lying.. just.. it happens easily.
I'm seeing that most people aren't even capable of telling a lie without getting caught, or covering all possibilities, etc.. and then I look at myself and I feel like it's something about myself that I don't want, it's just there due to my previous life.
So does it go away? I'm trying, but I dont realise I've done it till after the fact.