littlecunt said:
Let's hope it all turns out well.
Oh 'littlecunt,' yes I hope it turns out well for you. I read your post with an open mind and I am sorry your post was met with hostility. However, your post disturbed me as it did others and I hope you will read this response with an open mind.
If you want to share the positive experiences you've had on cocaine you should post a trip report in the section called 'trip report.' But as you posted a love letter to cocaine challenging people's impressions of the drug you incited debate. I don't think their reservations were unfounded. I have met a very few people who were able to use coke occasionally as a sort of 'cocktail' drug for conversation parties. You may well be one of these people and I hope you are .... But your faith in the drug should not go unchecked.
Anyone who has done social work among people with 'personality disorders' or anyone who has studied the tendencies of addiction will attest that there are certain unfortunate patterns among cocaine abuse. Often people with a shaky sense of self will use cocaine therapeutically and feel confident and safe while on the drug, they'll feel like they're 'supposed' to feel. But narcissistic people become only more narcissistic with cocaine use. It is sad to see people feel 'perfect' when they're on cocaine, expressing dreams that they never attempt to act on.
Now I have never met you of course, and even if I did I would not be so arrogant to attempt to 'diagnose' you ... but it's really overwhelming how often this pattern of abuse occurs.
Another problem with cocaine, and the reason I stay away from it, is that it can easily become a binge drug. Just like liquor will take some one over, cocaine will take some people over almost immediately ... they'll forget how many lines they've done, they won't care but will just want one other, they'll spend enormous amounts of money. Now, you say you're not such a person and of course I believe you.
As for crack, I agree, people should not judge crack users as 'lowlifes.' But again, crack can
very quickly become the center piece of someone's life.
Now the reason why your post disturbed me is this. You say yourself that cocaine makes life 'easier' and then you conclude by saying 'this is love.' What is love? What are you referring to?
People who use speed, painkillers, etc. will quickly see through the bullshit and admit that they're indulging in a buzz or in escapism or in addiction. They don't say: this is love.
Some drugs are therapeutic. Psychedelics can be therapeutic ... some will use it every once and awhile, gain insights that they integrate. Marijuana can be therapeutic. And various psych-meds can perhaps be therapeutic.
Cocaine is not therapeutic. Don't assume that this is DARE rhetoric. If it seems to be solving your problems and if your social interactions feel deeper I hope you will maintain scepticism and not pretend you are getting to a deeper part of yourself. The conversations should be love and your interactions with others should be love and your own attitude to yourself should be love. And maybe it is so for you. Post a trip report if you want to talk about it.
Again, I hope it all turns out well as you said.