So today is the first day that I am officially unemployed. I’m out of work, out of a job and no longer have any source of income. That ladies and gentlemen is the hard truth of the situation I’m as of today.
Was it all because of cocaine that I resigned? No.
Would I have resigned if I’d never have touch cocaine? Yes
Was I happy in my job? No
So from the above, whilst cocaine has screwed me over (more to follow) I’ve come to a realisation about it, I don’t want this to sound preachy or condescending but it’s the truth, the cold hard honest truth.
Pros to cocaine?
- The rush of picking it up and waiting for your dealer
- Having it on your possession and feel like a big dog (you know exactly what I mean)
- Duh - The obvious high which last 20/30 mins
- Confidence boost
- lowers inhibitions
- Can be nice to sit with friends and really open up about real life conversations
Now for the cons?
- Expensive
- Ruins your following day (a high in exchange for a low)
- Has mental implications on dopamine receptors
- Awful comedowns which give paranoia, fatigue and anxiety (please don’t justify this with benzos)
- Diminished Libido and more difficult to get an erection (what’s the point brining a girl back if you can’t get hard)
- Makes you smell of chemicals / coke for a couple of days
- Blocks your nose
- Do absolutely stupid shit on it that you regret (i have a tendency of asking ANYONE for directions just to initiate chat)
- Addictive (every time you have a drink you’re looking for that dealers number)
- Puts a dent in your physical routine (going to the gym)
- Screws your sleeping patters
- Can start to impair your career if taken on weeknights
- Appetite goes so you start to lose weight and look gaunt - all that hard work in the gym goes to waste.
It’s pretty obvious that when you sit down and weigh up the pros and the cons, we absolutely should not be bothering with this shit. It’s essentially an artificial high which makes you feel great for 20/30 minutes before bringing you crashing down. There is no middle ground with coke, the comedown is probably the worse I get from any drug and I’ve tried all the main ones aside from Heroin.
I’ve been in my room by myself at least 8-10 times drinking alcohol just so I could hope to get 1/2 hours sleep before I have to work a full days work the next day (12 hours door to door) Oh, because I was doing coke the night before, there’s no way I would have eaten either.
I’ve been using recreationally (just on weekends / once every two weeks / every so often twice a week) and where has it left me?
- No savings, actually a grand in debt…..
- Still living with my mother at 25 (both brothers have left home)
- Haven’t bought any new clothes in months
- Not going away on holiday this year (all my friends are off to Ibiza)
- Lost my job and my reputation within the industry tarnished
- No meaningful relationships in a long time
- Considering going to counseling for addiction
What I’ve learnt from taking drugs over the past 3 years or so is that coke is just NOT worth it. The master of a night out is someone who can stick to alcohol and feel tipsy but in control of your actions. This way, you don’t have to spend loads of drugs, can still lower your inhibitions and be confident that you’ll be able to fuck a girl should you bring her back / head back to hers.
Add in 2/3 times a year where you can take MDMA and you’re golden. It’s taken me a LONG time to come to this realisation but I stand by it. Stick to a few drinks of alcohol and the occasional half pint of water if you want to have nights where you’re in control and and can still balance the rest of your life without it going down the shitter.
Today has really hurt me, day of being unemployed and the realisation that I’m missing out of having cash go into my account on a monthly basis. The fact that my friends are off to Ibiza in 2 weeks too is really getting me down
Was it all because of cocaine that I resigned? No.
Would I have resigned if I’d never have touch cocaine? Yes
Was I happy in my job? No
So from the above, whilst cocaine has screwed me over (more to follow) I’ve come to a realisation about it, I don’t want this to sound preachy or condescending but it’s the truth, the cold hard honest truth.
Pros to cocaine?
- The rush of picking it up and waiting for your dealer
- Having it on your possession and feel like a big dog (you know exactly what I mean)
- Duh - The obvious high which last 20/30 mins
- Confidence boost
- lowers inhibitions
- Can be nice to sit with friends and really open up about real life conversations
Now for the cons?
- Expensive
- Ruins your following day (a high in exchange for a low)
- Has mental implications on dopamine receptors
- Awful comedowns which give paranoia, fatigue and anxiety (please don’t justify this with benzos)
- Diminished Libido and more difficult to get an erection (what’s the point brining a girl back if you can’t get hard)
- Makes you smell of chemicals / coke for a couple of days
- Blocks your nose
- Do absolutely stupid shit on it that you regret (i have a tendency of asking ANYONE for directions just to initiate chat)
- Addictive (every time you have a drink you’re looking for that dealers number)
- Puts a dent in your physical routine (going to the gym)
- Screws your sleeping patters
- Can start to impair your career if taken on weeknights
- Appetite goes so you start to lose weight and look gaunt - all that hard work in the gym goes to waste.
It’s pretty obvious that when you sit down and weigh up the pros and the cons, we absolutely should not be bothering with this shit. It’s essentially an artificial high which makes you feel great for 20/30 minutes before bringing you crashing down. There is no middle ground with coke, the comedown is probably the worse I get from any drug and I’ve tried all the main ones aside from Heroin.
I’ve been in my room by myself at least 8-10 times drinking alcohol just so I could hope to get 1/2 hours sleep before I have to work a full days work the next day (12 hours door to door) Oh, because I was doing coke the night before, there’s no way I would have eaten either.
I’ve been using recreationally (just on weekends / once every two weeks / every so often twice a week) and where has it left me?
- No savings, actually a grand in debt…..
- Still living with my mother at 25 (both brothers have left home)
- Haven’t bought any new clothes in months
- Not going away on holiday this year (all my friends are off to Ibiza)
- Lost my job and my reputation within the industry tarnished
- No meaningful relationships in a long time
- Considering going to counseling for addiction
What I’ve learnt from taking drugs over the past 3 years or so is that coke is just NOT worth it. The master of a night out is someone who can stick to alcohol and feel tipsy but in control of your actions. This way, you don’t have to spend loads of drugs, can still lower your inhibitions and be confident that you’ll be able to fuck a girl should you bring her back / head back to hers.
Add in 2/3 times a year where you can take MDMA and you’re golden. It’s taken me a LONG time to come to this realisation but I stand by it. Stick to a few drinks of alcohol and the occasional half pint of water if you want to have nights where you’re in control and and can still balance the rest of your life without it going down the shitter.
Today has really hurt me, day of being unemployed and the realisation that I’m missing out of having cash go into my account on a monthly basis. The fact that my friends are off to Ibiza in 2 weeks too is really getting me down
![:\](https://bluelight.org/xf/BL_Images/Orig_Emoji/wrygrin.gif "wry grin :\")
which I didnt even like that much
God, how I hate that feeling of being out, coming down, and dealing with bloody stumps for arms.
