Cocaine Abuse...can you recover?

[Anonhelpthisfool]

I know. Utfse. If I had any sense I'd have never started smoking cigarettes let alone become a cokehead. This drug is heaven and hell. It is everything. And I've been blessed and destroyed by it. My heart palpitates without using, though I've been basically a daily addict for about 3mos..total use about a year. Even after weekly use, within about 6 weeks, after my first line of the "using day" I'd feel "normal." Idk what normal is anymore. My nose is dissolving. My teeth are decaying. My heart is hurting (literally and figuratively) so I guess it's on to my stupid ass question no one can answer...but sometimes I really don't want to wake up.

Anyways..

After you become addicted to a stimulant..like cocaine..idk is meth really that much worse?..for those who have been truly sober for over 5 years..will you ever feel relatively normal? Or should I just kill the zip and blow up my broken heart. I mean sure some become stoners (again) some become alcoholics, some dry drunks, some coffee fiends. You never know blah blah blah. Bite me. I'm asking if neurologically speaking, can the massive downregulation be undone. How long? Depends on genes. Honestly don't be fucking pricks..I've read enough forums to the point where the seasoned and understanding vets are the only subjective experiences I have to be curious about.

If you were a daily coke user and quit after any amount of time, any advice? Any guidance? Any thoughts? I asked some people..NA and AA. No offense..yes there is good information from some people..but I mean it's a joke trading addictions. I'm not saying it won't help, but it's not an answer in the way the big book thumpers make it seem. Psych ward? How do I get admitted? Rehab? How do I get admitted? .45? Joking. But seriously how can I find a real program at a hospital and get into it? Do I have to go to the emergency room geeked up with a smile like "hey um I'm high on coke I'm worried I'll kill myself. Help." I have a feeling that would be a 5150 (not cool) or a "here's ativan." Wake up tomorrow..."you ok? What day is today? Alright. Your fine. Go away."

Sorry for the attitude. I haven't even comedown lmao. Still got a Gz. But yea like I said rambles from being high hence anonymity you bitter assholes who post mean stuff. I seen ya'll. but in essence...anything you can offer besides asshole fuckeduppery would be maniacally appreciated. God bless drug enthusiasts/addicts/neuroscientists/psychologists/psychiatrists/counselors

And fellow assholes.

 

[pasha]

anonymous -> sober living

 

[LadyElaine]

Im in the same boat, expect its crack for me. Ive been using on and off for about 30 years. Most recently, Im out of control AGAIN. I've been using it as a crutch. Its not even fun anymore. All I do is get paranoid and "stuck". I've spent way too much money.

I got up this morning thinking that shit needs to change. When I get home from work, Im handing my roommate my car keys (so I cant go score) and my bank card, cash and credit cards (again, so I can't score). The plan is to smoke a bowl of weed and watch Net Flix. Wish me luck.....

 

[LadyElaine]

My plan didnt work cuz my roommate never came home that night. I spent another $200 this weekend. I can't keep doing this.

 

[belfort]

OP-well how long exactly have you been clean?youve only been using for a year so i doubt much neurotransmitter damage has been done at this point..even so, it would still take a few months of 'clean time' to start to feel normal again..the longer you stay on these hardcore pleasure drugs, the more your brain becomes warped in a way..

as for will our brains ever totally recover from years of hard drug use, my bet would be NO, they wont..i was a daily hardcore opiate addict for many years and even after 2 years of complete clean time, i still didnt feel normal..that is after exercising, and abstaining from all drugs including caffeine, i still felt off..you could talk to 10 different experts on this and they would give you 10 different answers but the real answer is, no one knows who can recover and who cannot..some people make great recoveries after addiction and almost become better than they ever were and then others remain a shell of their former self..its hard to say..