My ex takes 2 - 2mg a night. I take 0.5mg twice a day. 0.5mg has done shit for me, nothing at all, and I am serious, that's not the addictive personality talking.
I keep wondering if I take the 2mg of my ex's would it make much difference cause I take some days 4 anyhow. Plus it would save me a lecture from my doctor...
This has me seriously thinking...
Only would do it when the ex is around and awake and coharent, just in case....
Just has me wondering tonight.
I wanna get fucked up, seriously fucked up but nothing that is gonna make me wish I wanna die when i come down and nothing by needle and nothing TOO hardcore. I know.... retarded shit huh? I wanna get fucked but I'm so picky. Like I could never do crack....nothing against crack users but I watched my family suffer the addiction for 20yrs and how fucked they are. I can't chance getting hooked on that shit.
I just want to buzz out and be fucked up for a few hrs. Just once. Just to know what its like. To FTW and let me just be me. To do it with someone I trust most, so I KNOW would seek help if need be.
I dunno..... I guess the addictive personality is coming out in me again.
Sober for almost 2 months from alcohol and smoking have been clean for years with slight slip last month.
I dunno.... I just wanna get fucked up one night with someone totally awesomeness cool that I trust.
Bah, I feel like shit, I got laringitis and I barely aten all day besides fudgesciles.
I better go eat....
I keep wondering if I take the 2mg of my ex's would it make much difference cause I take some days 4 anyhow. Plus it would save me a lecture from my doctor...
This has me seriously thinking...
Only would do it when the ex is around and awake and coharent, just in case....
Just has me wondering tonight.
I wanna get fucked up, seriously fucked up but nothing that is gonna make me wish I wanna die when i come down and nothing by needle and nothing TOO hardcore. I know.... retarded shit huh? I wanna get fucked but I'm so picky. Like I could never do crack....nothing against crack users but I watched my family suffer the addiction for 20yrs and how fucked they are. I can't chance getting hooked on that shit.
I just want to buzz out and be fucked up for a few hrs. Just once. Just to know what its like. To FTW and let me just be me. To do it with someone I trust most, so I KNOW would seek help if need be.
I dunno..... I guess the addictive personality is coming out in me again.
Sober for almost 2 months from alcohol and smoking have been clean for years with slight slip last month.
I dunno.... I just wanna get fucked up one night with someone totally awesomeness cool that I trust.
Bah, I feel like shit, I got laringitis and I barely aten all day besides fudgesciles.
I better go eat....
