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Cleantime/Sobriety Countdown

^Nice one GLU =D ...Rem your first posts on here, you have come so far hun and dealt with alot. Respect to you and all the others up there. ^<3





junkymandan said:
sober 4yrs 10 months....clean..uhhhhh well you see...i..can quit anytime..really i just dont want to
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Kudo's on the 4+ Years Junkeymandan. ;)
 
I'm at about 24 hours. Fucking rough. I'm still trying to handle the fallout from my last binge.
 
dankstersauce said:
I'm at about 24 hours. Fucking rough. I'm still trying to handle the fallout from my last binge.
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Opiates?

WDs come back wicked quick! Had some minor symptoms come back the last two days. It's far from terrible, but even minor WD symptoms are quite annoying.
 
Not exactly sure, I stopped around mid-october. Oh fuck it, I will calculate it, 8 months and seven days. I am not a big clean time counter. I promised myself I would remain clean at least a year. I know that I can no longer use any type of hard drug, plus I am on Suboxone. The only thing I would like to be able to do is have a social beer or two, but that is something to be decided later.

I have an Uncle literally drinking himself to death, his liver stopped functioning but he still drinks. My father is trying to help him, but I keep reminding my dad that he keeps lying and is even planning on getting married (yes, possibly next week after he gets out of the hospital). He is most likely going to be dead within the year. I am not really into the 12 steps and feel they are really fatalistic, but this is one person that I just think is too weak.

Please feel free to PM me. I am not a 12 stepper per say, I did attend 90 meetings in 90 days. I still go to the odd meeting here or there and also use the SMART program. However, I believe that at the end of the day it all comes down to you. You are the one who will help yourself. You do not require some outside power to make the changes for you. You can, you just have to really want it.
 
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love2party said:
I got 8 days of taking no opiates today, and I'm feeling not too bad. I took a nuerontin earlier and that helped. I wake up with some crushing depression, but it lifts somewhat after a few hours. I started smoking marijuana more often and my alcohol intake has increased. It sucks being an addict, temptation is everywhere, I just can't get away.
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Be careful of the alcohol and marijuana combo, especially after opiates. I set myself into a pattern of a week or two of opiate use every 2 or 3 months and pot and alcohol when not on opiates. I did this for years (probably seven). Eventually it got me so caught up I had to end up in the hospital on detox and then had to go get treatment for almost a half year. However, my addiction was the tip of the iceberg. I had alot of work to do.
 
phactor said:
Be careful of the alcohol and marijuana combo, especially after opiates. I set myself into a pattern of a week or two of opiate use every 2 or 3 months and pot and alcohol when not on opiates. I did this for years (probably seven). Eventually it got me so caught up I had to end up in the hospital on detox and then had to go get treatment for almost a half year. However, my addiction was the tip of the iceberg. I had alot of work to do.
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I'm not much of a drinker, I only socially drink but when i'm doing opiates I don't drink at all. I set some rules for my marijuana use, only at night time and I have been sticking to it. My buddy called me today saying he had some pills and I caved, I get this pills for dirt cheap, so it makes it that much harder to say no. Opiates do a mighty fine job at killing my anxiety, i'm sort of self medicating, or maybe i'm just making excses.
 
6 months clean for pot !(after off agin on again habit 10ish years)
10 months without getting drunk :) (hhabit as above)

used smack today :( longest time clean is maybe 2 weeks. I am on methadone too, roughly 6 months now
 
1 year clean and sober today, no booze, no meds, no drugs, no nothing!

Life is a million miles away from what it used to be. I feel alive and free.

I want to live and don't want to use - never thought that would happen!

:)
 
oliphill said:
1 year clean and sober today, no booze, no meds, no drugs, no nothing!

Life is a million miles away from what it used to be. I feel alive and free.

I want to live and don't want to use - never thought that would happen!

:)
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I needed to read this. You have given me some hope today
 
oliphill said:
1 year clean and sober today, no booze, no meds, no drugs, no nothing!

Life is a million miles away from what it used to be. I feel alive and free.

I want to live and don't want to use - never thought that would happen!

:)
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Congrats. So good to read.
 
One year clean today after a 10 year opiate addiction.

I'm free. My life is infinitely richer and fuller than I could've ever imagined. Holy shit, I beat this thing. While this is a day of celebration for me - my new 'birthday' if you will - I also find myself a little haunted by casting my mind back to the journey into hell I was about to take exactly one year ago. I thought I was going to take suboxone for a few weeks and come in for a soft landing...instead, I started too soon, was smashed into precipitated withdrawal and then never took another sub or oxy or hydro or dilaudid etc. I was so, so sick for so, so long. And today I want to know why I did that to myself. I'll figure it out. In the last year, I also stopped cutting, and got a tattoo to cover my old cutting scars. It may have taken me to early middle-age, but fucking hell - I think I'm healing.

If I can do this, anyone can. I don't get here often these days, but wanted to pop in to honor the date and thank the BLers who helped me, especially in those early months.
 
This is my 2nd full day off of heroin. I'm not sure whether to count Wednesday as I last used that day at 3AM, but not counting it for this forum. What do you guys think? I've been battling heroin use/addiction for 4 years now. The longest I had clean was about 11 months. I recently had 6 weeks and have been using the last 5. It's been off and on like this the whole time.

I'm quite sick of the roller-coaster! The withdrawals are miserable but the mental torment and anguish are the worst. Why have I put myself in this predicament yet again? I hate myself somewhat for it! I can't seem to dispose of my needles without keeping a couple back for "just in case."

Any comments would be helpful! Because I am all alone with this- don't like 12 step stuff, am an hour away from a SMART meeting and do NOT want to go to rehab. I've done that all before.
 
12 days since I did my lastt shot of meth. did I mention I haven't made it over a week without a needle in my arm since I don't even know when?? (in the past several months) :) :) :)
a week since I had any opiates, I believe. I needed those after I got my ass beat, which was the last time I did a shot. I think that really made me put it down..
 
What do you mean by "clean"? "Sober"?

People seem to be referring to 100% abstinence.

I consider myself clean and sober since I stopped abusing substances.

I CAN and DO use in moderation. AA/NA projects that as addicts we cannot control our use.

The only way I can't control my use is if pills are at hand. I drink 1-2 beers a few nights per week.

I just wouldn't go into an NA meeting and give a sober date from July because that would be disrespectful to those who are choosing their sober date according to abstinence.

Clean/sober = not abusing?
 
oliphill said:
1 year clean and sober today, no booze, no meds, no drugs, no nothing!

Life is a million miles away from what it used to be. I feel alive and free.

I want to live and don't want to use - never thought that would happen!

:)
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Rarely post anymore but just had to sign in to say congratulations for this. An amazing, amazing achievement.

Greetings from the UK.
 
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