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Cleantime/Sobriety Countdown

Now no crack in 5 weeks - my longest stretch in 3 years! Now I hope to keep my crack sessions down to once a month or less. I also gained 10 pounds the past 5 weeks which is great.
 
Yeah - continuing to do OK - - went another 4 & 1/2 weeks without crack before partying the past two days. If I can keep this down to once a month instead of almost every week like the past few years that would be good!
 
Today is 121 days since I took my last benzo. I was on high dose assorted benzos for nearly a decade.

17 months opiate free.

I'm getting laid off Friday, so I'm attempting to stay completely sober until I can find another job, we'll see how that works out though because I haven't gone more then a week without smoking weed since 1999..
 
^Yeah the herb is a hard to give up completly... you got me beat but its been since '03

7 1/2 months speed ball and Benzo free

Travel- Congrats on cutting back on the rock thats not a very easy thing to do!
 
Well . . . I cut back on rocks but then it crept up a little at a time where I am back to twice per week so now I need to get really serious again and try to go a month or longer without the stuff. I am going to be real busy which will keep me out of trouble plus going on a 3 week vacation where I definitely will not do anything.

My goal was to smoke rocks only once or twice a month.
 
5 days off opiates. After probably dozens of horrible WDs this was a walk in the park. I can't explain it. Am using valium for sleep but got 3 left so that will be a non issue soon. Opiates are my DOC so I am focused on that as my clean time for the moment. Once I am 100% sure WD is over then I'll restart the countdown on the valium.
 
lozgod said:
5 days off opiates. After probably dozens of horrible WDs this was a walk in the park. I can't explain it. Am using valium for sleep but got 3 left so that will be a non issue soon. Opiates are my DOC so I am focused on that as my clean time for the moment. Once I am 100% sure WD is over then I'll restart the countdown on the valium.
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hang in there man.

i'm 66 days clean.
 
I'm not really "clean" or "sober", but I am from opiates, which has been the toughest thing the last few years.

Haven't used any opiates/opioids in 37 or so days. Haven't gotten high on an opiate/opioid or snorted anything for 72 days.

Haven't felt WDs for about 134 days now, nor have I used any heroin in the last 138 days.


Feels good man! Feels real gooood! :) <3 =D
 
SkagKush said:
8 days

so much for almost 6 months
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hey man thats great!
if things get overwhelming just look at the day your in.

hell we all have the same clean time for this day. i got up at 5am, and been clean since.
i'll worry about tomorrow when it gets here. :)
 
6 long ass days. Scheming like crazy the second I'm not in a meeting , the progression every relapse is a fucking nightmare. I am glad to be scared shitless or I would be done for.
 
theartofwar said:
6 long ass days. Scheming like crazy the second I'm not in a meeting , the progression every relapse is a fucking nightmare. I am glad to be scared shitless or I would be done for.
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yeah its going to be like that for atleast your first 30days, then things start settling down. like the physical wd's are done, you just gotta build mental barriers to keep out any using thought.

do you have a sponsor? do you call them daily?
 
No sponsor , I honestly am only accepting that this is an illness now (fuckin 10+ detoxes later countless relationships and friendships). I'm getting into a sober house, their is no way in hell I will make it on my own here. I'm doing 90 in 90 , at the rate I'm going it will be like 200 in 90 lol, I've been out for 2 hours from last meeting and I'm fucking going out of my god damn MIND.
 
This thread is truly inspiring - I always find the human instinct for self-preservation kinda miraculous, but lots of BL'ers have been through some serious shit and they just keep trying (and succeeding, in lots of cases).

I am 97 Days clean from oxy and hydro (and any opiates/drugs, etc) today...the longest I've been clean in about a decade. Something just clicked for me this time and the thought of using is not just unappealing but downright repulsive to me now.
 
8 days. Feeling alright. Not fiending all that badly. Haven't really even seeked out anything. Did just get back from vacation though. Wasn't looking for anything because of the whole family distraction vacation tends to bring. Good stuff.
 
5 days clean.

I CT'ed a 1 mg alprazolam a day habit and 200 mg oxycodon a day. Feeling better every day! Still haven't slept much, but at least I don't want to eat another pill.

But I am very afraid to relapse. This is my third time going through bad withdrawels.
 
This is my 24 days off sub- did tapper. Sight symptoms that come and go but nothing too uncomfortable-Working on benzos next but has been problematic- will see my psych latter. On the bright side haven't taken alcohol or an illegal drug in 2.5 years. Meetings help immensely- I find my obsession to take benzos decreases proportioately- but got to get off my ass and resume step work. But that naging anxiety from benzos- got to be more actve when I'm not working between benzos.
 
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