Cleantime/Sobriety Countdown

i was clean and sober from june til september of 2009...relapsed and picked up heroin for the first time in my life and ran with it for a while....now i'm on suboxone maintenance and clean for about 2.5 months
 
I still drink and smoke and whatnot, and I had a couple vikes and a dilaudid 2mg last week, but I don't think I'll ever do heroin or crack again. Coke I might do in a social setting, but it's so unpleasant that I'm not worried about it.

I need to quit drinking, though. The hangovers are getting worse and worse as I drink less and less, oddly enough.
 
havent been clean since 1999 when i hit my first joint...just traded addictions from weed and booze to opiates....been on fentanyl mostly for the last two years.....throw in some OC/Morph/Hydromorph every now and then

Not sure if I want to be clean.... I am a chronic pain patient and have been for 4 years now at the tender age of 23 fentanyl is my life blood
 
Gah. Last time I was sober for more than a week was like.. last year... :( lots of ecstasy use, some coke, and currently an opiate dependence... trying to work on it...

No bueno...
 
Gah. Last time I was sober for more than a week was like.. last year... :( lots of ecstasy use, some coke, and currently an opiate dependence... trying to work on it...

No bueno...

Good luck. I have never had much luck with ecstasy for whatever reason, but coke and opiates are a bitch. I'm trying to get over them at the moment. As I said above, I made it for over 3 months but then gave in and relapsed. Coming off subs at the moment....
 
Amazing how many people say this:
no alcohol for 18 months....best thing i have ever done
And this ..
I need to quit drinking, though. The hangovers are getting worse and worse as I drink less and less, oddly enough.


I've actually had one of my most clean&sober months in a year .. Or three. Maybe. My memory is shot.
Ultimately I realized I'm getting too old to be living the same way .. The cost to my wealth & health are getting to be too much.

Mostly just trying to kick drinking (have been for 3-4 years, but finally where I need to be); all my other drugs are on hold for other reasons at the moment. Though I sure set a record or two this year. And I might have just taken a step towards organized crime.

I blame my health .. the post-withdrawl insomnia combined with unhealthy weight loss is really messing with me. Vicious cycle, to say nothing of sobriety-inspired depression.

Best of luck in the new year to all Bluelighters trying to clean up their lives.
 
December 20th (I think?) I came out of a xanax black out with 2 silver chips in my pocekt, err.
I did make it through Christmas, and New Years sober.

Thanks to candy, and sugar. Mmmmmm
 
D's, you fuckin' RULE, man!

I admire your honesty and strength, brother. Those two things are still hard for me. Keep it up, brother 'cause me and you are gonna hang some day!
 
27dec09 @ 130 pm i vowed for the 3rd time to kick the shards (3rd time meaning i has been my resolution since the start of dec09). I not only kicked it but also flushed what i had and broke my pipe. now i can put my life back where im able to.
 
27dec09 @ 130 pm i vowed for the 3rd time to kick the shards (3rd time meaning i has been my resolution since the start of dec09). I not only kicked it but also flushed what i had and broke my pipe. now i can put my life back where im able to.

Awesome! Keep us updated on how you're doing.
 
Years...at LEAST 3 or 4. Not counting limited rehab shit. After that I hit the ground running.
I kinda feel bad about it now that I think about it. Bet my life would have less shit in it if I was sober. Not to mention the $ spent and the feeling that I'm not ME without it.... :(
 
Awesome! Keep us updated on how you're doing.

im not ready to be around BL at the moment. This site just keeps things i might not even be thinking about in front of me. time for a break. a full spiritual rejuvenation. an exercise of the brain. i wish everyone the best of luck with their sobriety. ill probably check in mostly when i relapse as a way to keep myself honest. so I gotta reset the clock to today.

this time i have some goals set out to do to keep busy. well here we go, round 4.
 
No crack in 10 days - longest time in a long time and feeling good and hope to stay away from that shit for the entire 2010.
 
im not ready to be around BL at the moment. This site just keeps things i might not even be thinking about in front of me. time for a break. a full spiritual rejuvenation. an exercise of the brain. i wish everyone the best of luck with their sobriety. ill probably check in mostly when i relapse as a way to keep myself honest. so I gotta reset the clock to today.

this time i have some goals set out to do to keep busy. well here we go, round 4.

Yeah, that's a good idea. I really should avoid this site too. It's a huge trigger to relapse and crave. Best of luck.

And travelaround, congrats on 10 days. That might not seem like much to some people, but I know it's a lifetime when dealing with cocaine/crack. Those first few days are the hardest for me with that stuff, whereas with H I start to really crave it bad again after a few months (maybe because right after WDs are over, I really don't want to get them started again). So yeah, things should be getting slightly easier, but as you know you gotta keep on alert 24/7, because crack is ridiculously psychologically addictive.
 
Not clean...
Have unfortunately used heroin every day for the last four years, with the exception of:
60 days clean in '07, free will
five days clean in '08, had to take a work trip to Florida
and I went to the lake with the family twice this year for three days and stayed clean both times.
It seems if I'm away from the city and I know I can't get it, then there's no problem... but the second I get back into town... it's all over....

I wish to God every day I could kick this... it's just too easy not too....
 
Sober from alcohol and xanax for about 3 months now, was getting sick of getting blackout drunk and waking up with regrets in the morning. Now dealing with a good amount of depression and insomnia, but feeling a whole lot better than before
 
I haven't used Heroin since November 30th. :)

I take Suboxone and use non-opiate drugs recreationally, though, so not "clean."

I know how you feel a100unitSHOT. :\ I moved just an hour away, and it helped a lot - there's much more temptation when it takes ten minutes to score and shoot up. Plus, I'm on maintenance - there's no way I could've stopped without it.
 
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