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Cleantime/Sobriety Countdown

i was clean and sober from june til september of 2009...relapsed and picked up heroin for the first time in my life and ran with it for a while....now i'm on suboxone maintenance and clean for about 2.5 months
 
I still drink and smoke and whatnot, and I had a couple vikes and a dilaudid 2mg last week, but I don't think I'll ever do heroin or crack again. Coke I might do in a social setting, but it's so unpleasant that I'm not worried about it.

I need to quit drinking, though. The hangovers are getting worse and worse as I drink less and less, oddly enough.
 
havent been clean since 1999 when i hit my first joint...just traded addictions from weed and booze to opiates....been on fentanyl mostly for the last two years.....throw in some OC/Morph/Hydromorph every now and then

Not sure if I want to be clean.... I am a chronic pain patient and have been for 4 years now at the tender age of 23 fentanyl is my life blood
 
Gah. Last time I was sober for more than a week was like.. last year... :( lots of ecstasy use, some coke, and currently an opiate dependence... trying to work on it...

No bueno...
 
TechnologicLove said:
Gah. Last time I was sober for more than a week was like.. last year... :( lots of ecstasy use, some coke, and currently an opiate dependence... trying to work on it...

No bueno...
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Good luck. I have never had much luck with ecstasy for whatever reason, but coke and opiates are a bitch. I'm trying to get over them at the moment. As I said above, I made it for over 3 months but then gave in and relapsed. Coming off subs at the moment....
 
Amazing how many people say this:
relaxwv said:
no alcohol for 18 months....best thing i have ever done
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And this ..
Uhh said:
I need to quit drinking, though. The hangovers are getting worse and worse as I drink less and less, oddly enough.
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I've actually had one of my most clean&sober months in a year .. Or three. Maybe. My memory is shot.
Ultimately I realized I'm getting too old to be living the same way .. The cost to my wealth & health are getting to be too much.

Mostly just trying to kick drinking (have been for 3-4 years, but finally where I need to be); all my other drugs are on hold for other reasons at the moment. Though I sure set a record or two this year. And I might have just taken a step towards organized crime.

I blame my health .. the post-withdrawl insomnia combined with unhealthy weight loss is really messing with me. Vicious cycle, to say nothing of sobriety-inspired depression.

Best of luck in the new year to all Bluelighters trying to clean up their lives.
 
December 20th (I think?) I came out of a xanax black out with 2 silver chips in my pocekt, err.
I did make it through Christmas, and New Years sober.

Thanks to candy, and sugar. Mmmmmm
 
D's, you fuckin' RULE, man!

I admire your honesty and strength, brother. Those two things are still hard for me. Keep it up, brother 'cause me and you are gonna hang some day!
 
27dec09 @ 130 pm i vowed for the 3rd time to kick the shards (3rd time meaning i has been my resolution since the start of dec09). I not only kicked it but also flushed what i had and broke my pipe. now i can put my life back where im able to.
 
Dr. Funkenstien said:
27dec09 @ 130 pm i vowed for the 3rd time to kick the shards (3rd time meaning i has been my resolution since the start of dec09). I not only kicked it but also flushed what i had and broke my pipe. now i can put my life back where im able to.
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Awesome! Keep us updated on how you're doing.
 
Years...at LEAST 3 or 4. Not counting limited rehab shit. After that I hit the ground running.
I kinda feel bad about it now that I think about it. Bet my life would have less shit in it if I was sober. Not to mention the $ spent and the feeling that I'm not ME without it.... :(
 
Vladimir777 said:
Awesome! Keep us updated on how you're doing.
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im not ready to be around BL at the moment. This site just keeps things i might not even be thinking about in front of me. time for a break. a full spiritual rejuvenation. an exercise of the brain. i wish everyone the best of luck with their sobriety. ill probably check in mostly when i relapse as a way to keep myself honest. so I gotta reset the clock to today.

this time i have some goals set out to do to keep busy. well here we go, round 4.
 
No crack in 10 days - longest time in a long time and feeling good and hope to stay away from that shit for the entire 2010.
 
Dr. Funkenstien said:
im not ready to be around BL at the moment. This site just keeps things i might not even be thinking about in front of me. time for a break. a full spiritual rejuvenation. an exercise of the brain. i wish everyone the best of luck with their sobriety. ill probably check in mostly when i relapse as a way to keep myself honest. so I gotta reset the clock to today.

this time i have some goals set out to do to keep busy. well here we go, round 4.
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Yeah, that's a good idea. I really should avoid this site too. It's a huge trigger to relapse and crave. Best of luck.

And travelaround, congrats on 10 days. That might not seem like much to some people, but I know it's a lifetime when dealing with cocaine/crack. Those first few days are the hardest for me with that stuff, whereas with H I start to really crave it bad again after a few months (maybe because right after WDs are over, I really don't want to get them started again). So yeah, things should be getting slightly easier, but as you know you gotta keep on alert 24/7, because crack is ridiculously psychologically addictive.
 
Not clean...
Have unfortunately used heroin every day for the last four years, with the exception of:
60 days clean in '07, free will
five days clean in '08, had to take a work trip to Florida
and I went to the lake with the family twice this year for three days and stayed clean both times.
It seems if I'm away from the city and I know I can't get it, then there's no problem... but the second I get back into town... it's all over....

I wish to God every day I could kick this... it's just too easy not too....
 
Sober from alcohol and xanax for about 3 months now, was getting sick of getting blackout drunk and waking up with regrets in the morning. Now dealing with a good amount of depression and insomnia, but feeling a whole lot better than before
 
I haven't used Heroin since November 30th. :)

I take Suboxone and use non-opiate drugs recreationally, though, so not "clean."

I know how you feel a100unitSHOT. :\ I moved just an hour away, and it helped a lot - there's much more temptation when it takes ten minutes to score and shoot up. Plus, I'm on maintenance - there's no way I could've stopped without it.
 
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