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Opioids Chicago dope thread

sodope said:
The Chicago Dope life is no life... Maybe at first. Slowly life will escape you. Youll stop going out. You hang out with other users. Some of them will OD and die. Other will get robbed, possible killed, or just disappear. You money will dwindle. You'll get some loans. Maybe a credit card. You def. wont pay that back. You'll fuck up at work. Youll lose a buncha weight. You passions, and things you used to love in life, will cease to interest you. You'll wake up sick everyday. People will start to wonder, evventually ask. You'll steal some stuff. You'll burn bridges. You'll lose trust. You become desperate. You'll lose you car. You'll catch a charge. You'll sit, stranded, wondering wtf you are doing to yourself. Yet you will STILL be scheming for your next hit. Nothing can make you happier. You even catch a buzz of the routine of copping. You fall in love with the ritual of using. You'll give the ole needle a try. You arms will start to look like shit. You'll get an absess. Or worse, a systemic infection. You'll lie out your ass as to why it happened. Your perception of reality will become extremely distorted. The only thing that will ever matter is your next fix. You'll start to associate with unsavory people. You'll catch another charge. You might try and quit, but good luck returning to normal life with fucked credit, felonies that make it impossible to get a job, and all sorts of medical ailments.

One day, you'll be super sick, and look back, and think to yourself, wow... where did the last 5 years go. You'll see your friends, buying houses, starting families, working cool jobs, progressing in life. Unfortunately, most of them no longer associate with you. Maybe 1 or 2. You family, if they still talk to you, def. doesnt trust you. You now have nothing. All cuz fucking dope. OR... your a homeless panhandler... I mean, I love opiates, but fuck, this is the cold hard reality. There's nothing to be glamorized, maybe the first year or 2 in... but thats all. Get out while you can.
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excellent post .. very well stated
 
sodope said:
The Chicago Dope life is no life... Maybe at first. Slowly life will escape you. Youll stop going out. You hang out with other users. Some of them will OD and die. Other will get robbed, possible killed, or just disappear. You money will dwindle. You'll get some loans. Maybe a credit card. You def. wont pay that back. You'll fuck up at work. Youll lose a buncha weight. You passions, and things you used to love in life, will cease to interest you. You'll wake up sick everyday. People will start to wonder, evventually ask. You'll steal some stuff. You'll burn bridges. You'll lose trust. You become desperate. You'll lose you car. You'll catch a charge. You'll sit, stranded, wondering wtf you are doing to yourself. Yet you will STILL be scheming for your next hit. Nothing can make you happier. You even catch a buzz of the routine of copping. You fall in love with the ritual of using. You'll give the ole needle a try. You arms will start to look like shit. You'll get an absess. Or worse, a systemic infection. You'll lie out your ass as to why it happened. Your perception of reality will become extremely distorted. The only thing that will ever matter is your next fix. You'll start to associate with unsavory people. You'll catch another charge. You might try and quit, but good luck returning to normal life with fucked credit, felonies that make it impossible to get a job, and all sorts of medical ailments.

One day, you'll be super sick, and look back, and think to yourself, wow... where did the last 5 years go. You'll see your friends, buying houses, starting families, working cool jobs, progressing in life. Unfortunately, most of them no longer associate with you. Maybe 1 or 2. You family, if they still talk to you, def. doesnt trust you. You now have nothing. All cuz fucking dope. OR... your a homeless panhandler... I mean, I love opiates, but fuck, this is the cold hard reality. There's nothing to be glamorized, maybe the first year or 2 in... but thats all. Get out while you can.
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thats pretty much my story... It's completely amazing what I did to get high/keep from being sick/get well/ just maintain some semblance of normality. The sheer irrationality that comes with a serious junk habit is unfathomable. Many people tried to warn me as to what would eventually happen and while I knew it was possible, well man, *I* am an exception to the rule.

Toward the last stages of my using, I thought well THIS has to be the bottom, the lowest I'd get...then I got lower, and lower...and lower. Now here I am pissed off I didn't heed others' warnings..
 
So i was gonna start my 'getting off h' endeavor today. I didnt... was stupid too cuz i took suboxone around 730am then about 11pm my buddy said he was gonna pick me up cuz he got a bunch of crack and had h (always does). So, who coulf say no!?

Had just been given a 'gift' of a dime of *weed*. I knew it wasnt weed by looking at it. Upon trying it i was certain it was synthetic. Taste is horrendous. Effect is undesireable. So.... stole a cpl clonazepam from my brother. Gonna save em for when i DO have to detox. So, most likely Sunday. My ex gf 'broke up w me again a cpl days ago and thus she wont hook me up w strips anymore.
 
sodope said:
The Chicago Dope life is no life... Maybe at first. Slowly life will escape you. Youll stop going out. You hang out with other users. Some of them will OD and die. Other will get robbed, possible killed, or just disappear. You money will dwindle. You'll get some loans. Maybe a credit card. You def. wont pay that back. You'll fuck up at work. Youll lose a buncha weight. You passions, and things you used to love in life, will cease to interest you. You'll wake up sick everyday. People will start to wonder, evventually ask. You'll steal some stuff. You'll burn bridges. You'll lose trust. You become desperate. You'll lose you car. You'll catch a charge. You'll sit, stranded, wondering wtf you are doing to yourself. Yet you will STILL be scheming for your next hit. Nothing can make you happier. You even catch a buzz of the routine of copping. You fall in love with the ritual of using. You'll give the ole needle a try. You arms will start to look like shit. You'll get an absess. Or worse, a systemic infection. You'll lie out your ass as to why it happened. Your perception of reality will become extremely distorted. The only thing that will ever matter is your next fix. You'll start to associate with unsavory people. You'll catch another charge. You might try and quit, but good luck returning to normal life with fucked credit, felonies that make it impossible to get a job, and all sorts of medical ailments.

One day, you'll be super sick, and look back, and think to yourself, wow... where did the last 5 years go. You'll see your friends, buying houses, starting families, working cool jobs, progressing in life. Unfortunately, most of them no longer associate with you. Maybe 1 or 2. You family, if they still talk to you, def. doesnt trust you. You now have nothing. All cuz fucking dope. OR... your a homeless panhandler... I mean, I love opiates, but fuck, this is the cold hard reality. There's nothing to be glamorized, maybe the first year or 2 in... but thats all. Get out while you can.
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Bro where in chicago are u? Im in lincoln park. How old are you? Judgeing by ur comment youve had this stuff.destroy ur life. Im the opposite i have this whole "super user" complex where i go out of my to maintain the opposite of ur post. Ive never been arrested, i work 2 jobs making good money, i work out, i get haircuts once a week to make sure i stay "clean sharp" looking. I go to the gym. Hell ill even constanly clean to stop the effects of my life looking disheveled due to my usage. Meaning youll notice ur house, bedroom, bathroom etc will get dirty and unkept the more u use? And youll notice so i try to mainain as tidy as i can. What else?.....hmmm i started with roxys and recently switched due to cost and H lasting longer. I never do the needle only snort. Idk, what else to say, just kinda rambling.....
 
woamotive said:
So i was gonna start my 'getting off h' endeavor today. I didnt... was stupid too cuz i took suboxone around 730am then about 11pm my buddy said he was gonna pick me up cuz he got a bunch of crack and had h (always does). So, who coulf say no!?

Had just been given a 'gift' of a dime of *weed*. I knew it wasnt weed by looking at it. Upon trying it i was certain it was synthetic. Taste is horrendous. Effect is undesireable. So.... stole a cpl clonazepam from my brother. Gonna save em for when i DO have to detox. So, most likely Sunday. My ex gf 'broke up w me again a cpl days ago and thus she wont hook me up w strips anymore.
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Yea that synthetic shit fucks ppl up!!! Ive heard all kinds of crazy stories with that shit. So ur using crack and H?
 
sodope said:
Out in the cornfields...I used to live on the West Side, Chicago and Damen. Im 30

I used to bodybuild... For most of my years, I did everything you said you do. I am really big on maintaining appearance, as it stops people from judging you, and keeps you from getting in trouble or being profiled by LE. I ALWAYS keep my hair short, size 1 or 2 guard, army look. Im a neatfreak. I never let my stuff get messy. I was fine for years. No one had any idea.

All it takes is one mistake. One fuckin cop. Funny enough, I never caught a charge. The thing about heroin, is that since its cheaper, its easier to use more. The pills... they kept me in check, I could never get too crazy, cuz it was cost prohibitive. But I made a few moves around the country, made friends with some Surenos out west, and would help them out with some business here n there, and they were very generous and gracious to hook me up nicely (ha). I used the same stuff they used, before the cut, so it was fucking so good. We'd roll around town and just bang up that shit, lol id always piss him off and play metal or some really stupid corny ass mexican music. this shit from the street level boyz here in Chi blows in comparison. Anyway, while I have tried IV, its just too knarly for me, but one of my buddies in the gang showed me something I hadnt seen before, the muscle pop (IM). I was fucked after that. It was just a matter of time, really. My usage went way up, and even tho it was cheaper, it dont matter, cuz you need more n more. Soon enough, you're getting way sicker than you do with a smaller pill habit, and are no longer functional. And in the end, it ends up costing more. When you spend all your money on dope, you cant pay bills. Cant pay bills, then youre on the beat, lucky if you got a car at least. And if you cant function, you cant work. It all comes crashing down.

The other thing about heroin, is, that its a felony, whereas the pills, arent ... usually. And you have to go into chicago to get heroin, and chicago pigs dont play. Your amount of risk you take each time you cop is wayyyyyyyy more now than your pills habit. Risk from LE, risk from being robbed, risk from violence.

I was just like you.
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It's just so vicious. Over time, not only are you able to lie to somebody without even your pulse increasing, but you're even able to lie to yourself and you actually believe the bullshit you tell yourself. It's almost like you have to learn how to master blocking out negative tbought otherwise you'll drive yourself crazy. I'm trying to ween off, as dumb as that sounds. Down to a .2 of r a day. I just can't not start my day with coffee and a line and then finish it with a little bump. The sick part is that I know that if I do the shit too close to going to sleep then I'll have these insane dreams, but that never stops me. Thanks for sharing your knowledge
 
sodope said:
used to live on the West Side, Chicago and Damen. Im 30

I used to bodybuild... For most of my years, I did everything you said you do. I am really big on maintaining appearance, as it stops people from judging you, and keeps you from getting in trouble or being profiled by LE. I ALWAYS keep my hair short, size 1 or 2 guard, army look. Im a neatfreak. I never let my stuff get messy. I was fine for years. No one had any idea.

All it takes is one mistake. One fuckin cop. Funny enough, I never caught a charge. The thing about heroin, is that since its cheaper, its easier to use more. The pills... they kept me in check, I could never get too crazy, cuz it was cost prohibitive. But I made a few moves around the country, made friends with some Surenos out west, and would help them out with some business here n there, and they were very generous and gracious to hook me up nicely (ha). I used the same stuff they used, before the cut, so it was fucking so good. We'd roll around town and just bang up that shit, lol id always piss him off and play metal or some really stupid corny ass mexican music. this shit from the street level boyz here in Chi blows in comparison. Anyway, while I have tried IV, its just too knarly for me, but one of my buddies in the gang showed me something I hadnt seen before, the muscle pop (IM). I was fucked after that. It was just a matter of time, really. My usage went way up, and even tho it was cheaper, it dont matter, cuz you need more n more. Soon enough, you're getting way sicker than you do with a smaller pill habit, and are no longer functional. And in the end, it ends up costing more. When you spend all your money on dope, you cant pay bills. Cant pay bills, then youre on the beat, lucky if you got a car at least. And if you cant function, you cant work. It all comes crashing down.

The other thing about heroin, is, that its a felony, whereas the pills, arent ... usually. And you have to go into chicago to get heroin, and chicago pigs dont play. Your amount of risk you take each time you cop is wayyyyyyyy more now than your pills habit. Risk from LE, risk from being robbed, risk from violence.

I was just like you.
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So what are u doing now? Working, still using?
 
Hello all from Lincoln Park. Just spent 3 hours reading this thread so figured I'd introduce myself. Started with OCs many years ago when I was in school in WI. Cleaned up with subs, tapered off those over the course of a yr and 3yes later I dabble with opiates here and there. I tell myself my past experience will prevent me from slipping up and keep me functional in the corporate world in which I operate. So far so good but only time will tell going forward.
 
Chichibrian9 said:
Hello all from Lincoln Park. Just spent 3 hours reading this thread so figured I'd introduce myself. Started with OCs many years ago when I was in school in WI. Cleaned up with subs, tapered off those over the course of a yr and 3yes later I dabble with opiates here and there. I tell myself my past experience will prevent me from slipping up and keep me functional in the corporate world in which I operate. So far so good but only time will tell going forward.
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Hey same here. I work in the corporate world and bartend evenings and weekends. Just trying to maintain. In lincoln park as well.
 
I have hit that point this week where I want to mug some snobby rich fuck. Couldn't bring myself to do it
I quit this shitty "life" onward and upward
This is John dopey signing off
 
Funny how "the grass is always greener" adage plays out and even from Lincoln Park i end up wishing we had a little more West side in our manicured hood. Speaking of West side, I was driving back from the burbs on Saturday and drove through the Garfield/Austin neighborhoods to get back east and scope it out for the future. I was expecting to see more overt drug activity especially on such a warm night. I had a passenger so I didn't circle around or cruise cruise down any residential streets. Regardless, seemed like a lot of the old hot spots I knew had calmed down, I assume because of police activity.

Anyway, happy Monday all. Back to work for me
 
Chichibrian9 said:
Funny how "the grass is always greener" adage plays out and even from Lincoln Park i end up wishing we had a little more West side in our manicured hood. Speaking of West side, I was driving back from the burbs on Saturday and drove through the Garfield/Austin neighborhoods to get back east and scope it out for the future. I was expecting to see more overt drug activity especially on such a warm night. I had a passenger so I didn't circle around or cruise cruise down any residential streets. Regardless, seemed like a lot of the old hot spots I knew had calmed down, I assume because of police activity.

Anyway, happy Monday all. Back to work for me
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Same here. At work now. I need to make some local friends. And copping walking up on the west side is super sketch. I could never do that
 
sodope said:
lol come on man... Just dont wear expensive stuff. You're actually really safe, if anyone is messing w you, they messing w the D-boyz money, and THAT can get you killed. SO essentially, you have protection, as long as you are an obv. customer... lol and you were calling me a wuss before
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Im not worried about the D boys at all. Im worried about cops.
 
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