chest hurts

breathing keeps getting shallow, been getting worse lately keep catching myself and forcing deep breaths from time to time

there is a difference between drinking a lot to kill yourself on purpose, and drinking while hoping you will die


hibbidy dibbidy
fuck

 

the anxiety is getting bad like it used to be. i wake up fine and panic more and more as there are things to do, run right to a bowl or bottle or both.

dont know if the shallow breathing is from drinking so much, anxiety, or smoking.

the walls are closing in lol... -oh everything is better with a bag of weed'

 

I'd guess the smoking. My lungs are more delicate than most, and I can't really take cannabis smoke. Vapour is fine, and a light bong hit is usually okay, but straight smoke messes me up for days.

I may have asked you about this a while ago, but have you considered seeing someone about your anxiety? Rather than self medicating with something as toxic as alcohol, you could at least get some proper medication, or even a psychological treatment that might help with the root of the (non-withdrawal induced) anxiety.

Just a thought.