Chemical Imbalence

[Squeaks]

In the land of make-believe you are a princess
In the land of fantasy you are happy, wealthy, and have a roof over your head.
In the land of illusion you are not delusional, dirty, homeless, sick, and dying.
In the land of pipe dreams I do not hear neighbors, friends and associates talk about you.
But I cannot live in the land of the bubble 24-7.
I must wake up sometime.
In the land of reality I see only sadness.
In the land of actuality people look at you with pity.
Why is it that I am so indifferent?
Have I been subjected to this for too long?
In My real world I am numb to your name.
In My true world you are invisible.
Wouldnt it be great if the land of make-believe and the land of reality could combine???
We could call it the land of perfection?
I could finally open my eyes and not see a mutant in this unbroken land.
I could close my eyes and not see a princess in this land of absolute.
In the Ideal world I would see my sister!
***Donna even though I don't show it I do think about you and wish you the best. You may not have been a sister growing up but I do think that one day you will rise up above the smoke and dirt and be at peace with yourself.****

 

[frostyangel]

Squeaks, I read this a bunch of times, trying to say the right words...I can understand the emotions you have. I have been in situation. Too many times.
I have a hard time dealing with things, and I always shut out the really important things, not just to hope they go away. But hope that maybe they will solve themselves over time. Denial, is something everyone knows how to do best.
It's hard to help someone when all they can do is help themselves. And all you can do is be there for them. I realize that I just want to get away more and more everyday. But I realize it doesn't matter where I go. Or what I do..my mind never goes away from me...
Just don't feel like your alone when you down, there are people who can just sit with you, for as much time you need. Silent or talking...
But you can come and join me in, and we'll go into the imaginary world anyday....424
Luvs ya**

 

[Mellabopper]

i think this is the first piece of yours i've read, and i definitely like this this piece and your style.
good work
Mella

 

[Squeaks]

thanx you two it does mean alot to me.
Growing up around this situation for over 15 years that I can remember now has been very tough.
When I was younger it was very embarrising because I didnt know any better. Then it was very hurtful that I could have a sister in this condition. My family and I have tried countless numbers of times to try to get her help. All tries have miserably failed and just ended up hurting us more. I guess thats why I have sortof pushed her aside like an old toy. They dont call it tough love for nothing But this time it was totally different.
It made me extremly sad to hear her son, My nephew, who we have legal custody over asking his grandmother to change his last name because he didnt want to be a Mykclick anymore. because people are making in front of his mother.
He doesnt understand that its her illness which causes to her be this way.
He is soo young that it mkes me sad
Thanx for the kind words to cheer me up its helping a little bit