Chapter II: The Abyss is Eternal !

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the beibs?
Nah I'm listening to noise.

Biebs is easy on the eyes though.

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But you HAVE benzos. Just take em already and melt away to nothingness.
I have 1/4th of a xanax bar and like five hypnotic benzos left

Saving for emergencies until I can get more

I want to go to a doctor but I'm sure I'll get covid and am deathly afraid / hateful of doctors. Most doctors are terrible. I went on a long tirade once about how the doctors are worse than the whores. I was logical in my deduction, I was correct and I had some excellent points.
 
I have 1/4th of a xanax bar and like five hypnotic benzos left

Saving for emergencies until I can get more

I want to go to a doctor but I'm sure I'll get covid and am deathly afraid / hateful of doctors. Most doctors are terrible. I went on a long tirade once about how the doctors are worse than the whores. I was logical in my deduction, I was correct and I had some excellent points.

Just suck it up, put on an oxygen tank/respirator and a condom over your head and you should be good to go. Also get one of those Steven Hawking talkie things so you can communicate without taking off your protection.
 
Just suck it up, put on an oxygen tank/respirator and a condom over your head and you should be good to go. Also get one of those Steven Hawking talkie things so you can communicate without taking off your protection.
I'm thinking I should just rcbenzo because that's so much easier.

I'm so tired. Sleep isn't like constant nightmares but I am not feeling "refreshed" when waking up. I'm also not hungover or anything so there's that, I feel "ok"?
 
I'm thinking I should just rcbenzo because that's so much easier.

I'm so tired. Sleep isn't like constant nightmares but I am not feeling "refreshed" when waking up. I'm also not hungover or anything so there's that, I feel "ok"?

Perhaps that's the easier route in the end. I dunno, I've never ordered RCs before. I've also been having weird sleep patterns and wake up "ok" but not totally refreshed. Mainly my brain seems to think a bi-phasic sleep pattern is normal. I'll go to bed at like 2am, wake up at 7am, stay awake until 9am, go back to sleep and then wake up properly at 11am. It's ok, but not ideal. I'd rather just go to bed and wake up around 9/10am... Meh.
 
Perhaps that's the easier route in the end. I dunno, I've never ordered RCs before. I've also been having weird sleep patterns and wake up "ok" but not totally refreshed. Mainly my brain seems to think a bi-phasic sleep pattern is normal. I'll go to bed at like 2am, wake up at 7am, stay awake until 9am, go back to sleep and then wake up properly at 11am. It's ok, but not ideal. I'd rather just go to bed and wake up around 9/10am... Meh.
I normally wake up 2 or 3 times a night. At 4 hours I'm so tired, eyes are super heavy and almost worse than when I fell asleep etc. At 6 hours wake up refreshed and motivated but I know if I stay up I'll crash around 2 or 3 and require a nap or just be grouchy. At 8 hours I wake up groggy and tired and it takes me an hour or so to get going but I can maintain decent energy during the day.
 
Before covid I had a super consistent sleep pattern of waking up around 5am and asleep by 11pm. It was great. 4:50-6:30am is so god damn peaceful and no one ever expects you to do shit at those hours. 5am-7am was like my meditation time. When you wake up that early it just feels like you get so much done and the days are so long.

Now I wake up at 9am like a bastard. Shit is weak and I feel like I wasted the whole day because it takes me 2 hours to get my shit together mentally/spiritually/body. I dont see how people sleep past 8 or 9am...just not my vibe.

I got a buddy who wakes up between 3pm and 5pm. He works 6 hours like from 4 to 10 so he could maintain a somewhat traditional sleeping pattern. He gets offs work and drinks/plays video games until 5 or 6am. That's just not what is up IMHO. In the winter he seriously gets no sunlight. That would be the most depressing shit ever to me......now that I think about it he is probably suffering from severe depression and alcoholism. I should call him
 
Before covid I had a super consistent sleep pattern of waking up around 5am and asleep by 11pm. It was great. 4:50-6:30am is so god damn peaceful and no one ever expects you to do shit at those hours. 5am-7am was like my meditation time. When you wake up that early it just feels like you get so much done and the days are so long.

Now I wake up at 9am like a bastard. Shit is weak and I feel like I wasted the whole day because it takes me 2 hours to get my shit together mentally/spiritually/body. I dont see how people sleep past 8 or 9am...just not my vibe.

I got a buddy who wakes up between 3pm and 5pm. He works 6 hours like from 4 to 10 so he could maintain a somewhat traditional sleeping pattern. He gets offs work and drinks/plays video games until 5 or 6am. That's just not what is up IMHO. In the winter he seriously gets no sunlight. That would be the most depressing shit ever to me......now that I think about it he is probably suffering from severe depression and alcoholism. I should call him

Call your friend, always helps you and them. Also, yeah, weird how sleep patterns change. I think my ideal is like 7-7.5 hrs of uninterrupted sleep. As a teen it was like 9 hrs I think, but that would never happen... Also do something productive you sack of dog turds!
 
Many herbs and chemicals invoke dream states, and these ones have had a profound effect on me throughout my years as a wizard (75% of my work is done through dream).
  • Calea
  • Entada Rheedii
  • Mexican Tarragon
  • Mugwort
  • Ubulawu
I recommend starting off with Mugwort. I didn’t have high hopes for it, but was amazed by the level of dream work I could accomplish while under. These are not for faint of heart, but for me, they are incredibly useful and lead to better sleep and sleep-states (I have found).

Fuck a bunch of RC benzos, unless you plan to use them like Bill Cosby and do a little date rapin’. Other than that, you are likely to forget weeks or months of you life. Some of those are incredibly powerful and produce long lasting drug-induced amnesia, and they are very hard to measure out appropriately (like fentanyl and fentanyl analogs, as an example of difficulty in dosing).

That’s my tip of the day

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Right on, but I'm not trying to induce a dream state, just straight sleep with proper amounts of REM. I think I just need to do more exercise and maybe my ganj will help a bit when it's ready (though that tends to suppress REM)...
 
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