Chapter II: The Abyss is Eternal !

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Fuck, I feel like dogshit. I better not have the fucking Covid. Don't see how I could seeing as I don't fucking go anywhere anyways... I think it's because I was drinking like 3 times a week pretty heavily and now I haven't for 6 days. Eugh... My Phenibut use has increased to every other day too, which is definitely not ideal (not on it today), so that may have something to do with it. I think it'll be awhile off the booze as I have shit to do and I'll keep this up and then maybe taper down off the phenibut in a month I JUST WANT SOME WEED ARRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH. *Angsty and feeling like microwaved liquid shit*
That's where I am at and I did *not* get what I thought I was going to... heart broke
 
I should go to the Lake since there is no wind blowing today. he heeee.

I sure hope Lady A is alright today.She is doing so good and staying soo strong.♡☀️
 
i have 1 day to wait (this is HELL on EARTH) and I am ITCHY, hot flashes, SLEEPING all day long, when I Do sleep it is CONSTANT NIGHTMARES from the minute I lose consciousness to the minute I wake up...

the nightmares are SEXUAL in nature, involve fuck buddies/family, AWKWARD AS FFFFUUUCK sitautions... I DO NOT LIKE THIS I Want OUT i NEED POT

When I get MY MONEY (not tomorrow but big pay day payout for being a corporate whore) I am gonna get an ounce of weed and an ounce of extract ... or maybe half ounce of extract something like that and I'm NOT going to run out again for A SOLID MINUTE

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CASE IS FUCKING CLOSED

MY NAME IS CLEAR

LONGEST SIX MONTHS OF MY LIFE LIVED IN FUCKING PURGATORY

NEXT STEP: JUSTICE FOR BABY JOE

THE LAW IS COMING FOR YOU BITCH
Congrats!

Celebrate by rolling a fat joint, take a few puffs and PASS HER MY WAY PLSSSSSSSSSS

omg

I have almost run out of oil that has dripped from my bong to SCRAPE off a surface and dab... and I NEED like this is a NEED not a WANT... NEED more
 
wd gonna kill me

Word. Is your sleep all fucked up too? I keep waking up and having these crazy vivid and disturbing dreams. It's definitely because of all the fuckery I've inflicted on my gaba receptors with booze, lormetazepam and Phenibut and got heavy REM rebound going on... Had kinda the same with pot, but I haven't had that for months.

Edit: just saw your post, qs answered 😢
 
Word. Is your sleep all fucked up too? I keep waking up and having these crazy vivid and disturbing dreams. It's definitely because of all the fuckery I've inflicted on my gaba receptors with booze, lormetazepam and Phenibut and got heavy REM rebound going on... Had kinda the same with pot, but I haven't had that for months.
If I said what my dreams were like it'd be more sexually explicit than what I normally post about (hence why I haven't posted details)

HALLLLP

what does a brother have to do to get shot up with IM ativan?
 
If I said what my dreams were like it'd be more sexually explicit than what I normally post about (hence why I haven't posted details)

HALLLLP

what does a brother have to do to get shot up with IM ativan?

Feel you. I literally have like...5 hypnotic Benzos left, but I'm trying to ration them. I was a dumbass the other day for taking 4 at once in a bid to see if I could get high, but I just shot up my tolerance instead (also with Phenibut as there's cross-tolerance with all gabergenics). Meeeeeeeeeeeeeeh. IM Ativan sounds nice, I've only ever taken them orally. Lorazepam is prob my fav benzo after Valium..
 
IM Ativan sounds nice, I've only ever taken them orally. Lorazepam is prob my fav benzo after Valium..
After screaming death threats at the doctor for like an hour they finally gave me an IV lorazepam shot (THIS WAS YEARS AGO)... that shit feels SO GOOD like it makes oral lorazepam seem TOTALLY like a waste. 100%.

I probably should have screamed louder and more violently for quicker service but the squeaky wheel got the oil in the end...
 
One...two... La's coming for you...
I sincerely hope she has the covid for working in hospitals that doctor was FUCKED and I sincerely wish I knew her name so I could go piss in the covid mass grave she got dumped in. #covidjustice

Just wait in 2 days TRUMP'S GONNA GET EXPOSED TO THE COVID IN TULSA... and then by July 4th WE'LL SEE TRUMP ON A VENTILATOR and I'll bust a huge nut
 
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