Carnival of psychedelic poultry- PD Silly Goose make out session

[sunyata]

^ log on AIM and chat with me this beautiful morning

 

[Xorkoth]

Oh yeah, I'm obsessed with tornadoes too! I think most people from the midwest are to some extent. They're a very real danger there. If you live in like Kansas or Oklahoma, then there's a good chance you've been uprooted by one. They get HUGE there and they're very frequent.

Somehow, even being from IL, I've never seen one. I've had to hide in the basement plenty of times... one of the biggest tornadoes in history that I keep seeing on the Weather Channel was an F-5 that hit Plainfield IL, about 30 minutes from where I grew up... it was so big that it also blew over a bunch of trees around my house.

I was 8 years old then. That morning, the sky was clear and it was a beautiful day (is there any other kind?), and I was looking out the window, and I suddenly said to my mom, "there's gonna be a tornado today", and she sort of nodded, didn't think much of it, and then a bit later, all of a sudden the corn stalks started flying through the air sideways, and I told her we should go in the basement. It was weird because I didn't think anything of it, but apparently I had a premonition.

True story! :D

 

[Xorkoth]

 

[*Love*Lite*]

^^ woah! its cool that you had a premonition about the tornado... that happened to me once too, everything goes completely still and the sky turns dark purple and then you know... usually the sirens let you know first I found, it was creepy cuz they use those sirens for nuclear evacuations cuz of the power plant that i lived near, so we never knew when to go in the basement or run for VA lol (not funny tho)

 

[sunyata]

is it just me or is there more tornadoes now than there ever were? I never remember tornadoes growing up in North Carolina. Now there have been some every year for the past 3 or 5 years.

 

[NeuroDr]

^it seems like there are many more natural disasters recently than i can remember there being...every year we have a record number of whatever (hurricanes, tornadoes, floods, etc.) dont we? Just kinda makes me think about this whole 2012 thing and if we really are heading towards something big. Well, gettin ready to head to school for my last final, finally

 

[IGNVS]

does anyone like it when their nostrils burn
when they snort xanax?
or that squeezing grip of hunger
because you forgot to eat all day
how about it when the water hits your skin
and freezes on your hairs
just because it reminds you of the way you feel
when you think about someone

im pretty sure
whats done is done
theres no changing
and no going back
to those times when
we'd drive around for fun
because even if i just met you now
to me you would be someone eles
things would just fall into place
the wrong one

but how would i know
nothings real
and i might wish for death
if what i find
is something from a nightmare
then i would tell you
you were happier with someone eles
how i was from the future
and i saw you smiling
but came back in time
to take you for myself
and let you die

so ill just sit here remembering
all the chances that i had
and the days of siting next to you
looking at your hand
thinking out loud
hey, i...
just remembered a funny joke

its the one that made you like me
but only for when i didnt know
so a year passed
when all i did was smoke
alot of pot and write
a poem about your eyes
the world, its people and
how they pass me by
but god those eyes
would always catch me
now those eyes just make me
cry

then that summer
there was a day
i stole a bottle
of some cheap wiskey
and ran back to your van
and we made plans
then i introduced you to a freind

i told you what would happen
before you started dating dating him
i couldnt look at the pictures
and forgot about the time
then one night it all came true
and i remembered saying
how he would treat you

this one time at the movies
i remember like yesterday
the last time i sat next to you
and just talked about the way
weve got hands we can control
the way the future works
and that same day we went to
a house to listning to some
guy play his song
and ask me for some tips

now we all party there
but i make sure not
to spill a beer
youve got pleanty of other shit
to clean up in the morning
and every time i think of you
i wish you were the same girl that i knew

and im pretty sure
whats done is done
theres no changing
and no going back
to those times when
we'd drive around for fun
because even if i just met you now
to me you would be someone eles
things would just fall into place
the wrong one

but how would i know
nothings real
and i might wish for death
if what i find
is something from a nightmare
then i would tell you
you were happier with someone eles
how i was from the future
and i saw you smiling
but came back in time
to take you for myself
and let you die

but ill just sit here remembering
all the chances that i had
and the day at a show
i was looking at your hand
and you were talking with some girl
about not knowing where to look at someone
when their tlaking
so you just stare into their eyes
this must be why
this must be why
you look at me
with the most intensity
when we were silent

 

[Roger&Me]

LOL I live right in the middle of tornado alley (north Texas).

Twisters: fuck 'em. :D

 

[PepperSocks]

Hey everyone

I've been gone for a while. My bike has a blown engine, I've been gruelling over that for the last while. It needs new piston/rings and valves. PD gearheads will know what I'm talking about Gonna tear it down on saturday.

I've just spent the last half hour reading the 10 pages I missed lol, this one stood out at me:

Yeah definitely. Maybe not necessarily your first high, but your 'best high so far' definitely. Its all about trying to recapture a type of moment that you heavily idealize.

MDMA and psychedelics did this to me. I wouldn't dose frequently especially with MDMA because that takes away from the chance of having that "peak" high. I would trip once every 2 weeks or month and be very methodical about making sure I got to "that place".

My first few MDMA experiences 4 years ago seem to have been the "best high so far" and I still heavily idealize it but I know I'm growing up and moving to less exciting but deeper things. Candyflipping is my favorite psychedelic experience though, best of both worlds. The key is to not chase that "type of moment you heavily idealize" and just go where the trip and life takes me because that's what gave me those peak MDMA experiences. I wasn't chasing anything. I didn't know what to expect and was just trying it out, but then got caught in the trap of chasing it.

 

[IGNVS]

even the best of drugs make me feel like a fucking idiot at some point durring the high. because i always think about alternate realities where i didnt do drugs and my life was better.

 

[PepperSocks]

Nice song/poem IG

 

[sunyata]

^ then why do drugs? (for ignis)

personally its one of the reasons I stopped doing psychedelic drugs and drugs in general. I don't really want to crack open my head any more. I been there too many times.

 

[IGNVS]

there is nothing eles to do in this town, which i know isnt true but shit man. im just in a bad cycle. i break it every now and then and quit doing drugs. and then something always happens and i slowly come back to it...

i try to get out and travel and shit just happens. man, im fucking stuck here with the same boring fucking people watching everyone that was ever cool either leave or make it so hanging out with them is just bizzare and akward.

 

[PepperSocks]

^ then why do drugs? (for ignis)

personally its one of the reasons I stopped doing psychedelic drugs and drugs in general. I don't really want to crack open my head any more. I been there too many times.

I know what you mean, at least once during a trip I feel like I'm not "me" and I shouldn't be doing this. Like it's not right. Like it's messing with my head and impairing my ability to be myself in social situations. Which it is, but I'm glad it's only temporary. It does have that disturbing feeling that it might not be temporary though....I dunno it's weird.

I still trip, but my usage has gone down quite a bit. I have a feeling in the next few years I might be done for good. I always think back to a time when I didn't do any drugs and life was indeed better. That was so long ago though, a third of my life I've been using in one way shape or form. Sometimes I feel my body's "natural" biochemical state gives me the clearest mind and happiest feeling of all.

 

[Roger&Me]

Personally I think that some drugs are pretty cool, but most of them lead to a sort of slavery...

I hope I never have to stop tripping on LSD, though. I couldn't imagine life without the occasional meeting with Lucy. All the other psychedelics and comfort/fun-drugs are just fluff as far as I'm concerned. My brain just loves LSD, when I'm on it I feel at home. Its just kind of like "Ohhh...yeah! This is how things are supposed to be, I remember now.."

 

[PepperSocks]

I just remembered something. Remember how Church loved LSD but his #1 was MDMA? I feel the same way. I love LSD and what it does for me except for those "this isn't right times" but those are fleeting but anyways it's MDMA that hits me in that deepest spiritual spot. When I'm on a full MDMA dose (120-130mg) I feel like I'm home, I'm back, I'm me again

 

[Roger&Me]

MDMA has always struck me as a first-class psychedelic. Its such a cleansing feeling, I really enjoy rolling a couple times a year; it cleans me out inside. But any more often than that, its dark-side really starts to show. I think it takes a lot of self-control to use MDMA responsibly.

I just really don't understand the whole e-tard culture, though. They're seriously missing the point there; they've turned MDMA into 'ecstasy' which is usually just crap and most of the time they don't even really care what's in their pills so long as it gets them 'messed up.' Makes me want to do this:

For instance (and I'm not saying this is any type of condescending way to ED), but I was browsing through ED a couple days ago and there were some replies that were downright rude. I thought MDMA was supposed to be about love man, but somewhere along the line the coke/meth dealers got ahold of it and turned the whole concept surrounding the drug into this weird frankenstein monster. It really shows, too.

I wish that MDMA could have been left where it belongs: occupying a small niche in a very large psychedelic pharmacopeia. I wish it had remained relatively obscure, yet accessible, like most of the other psychedelic phenethylamines. The whole rave scene just raped MDMA, and turned it into something that it wasn't supposed to be. Now a bunch of kids are popping 'E-pills' like they're candy and wondering why its fucking them up; I just can't fathom it.

I really wish that people would stop selling pressed pills. They were pretty much what screwed everything up to begin with.

 

[lsdongs]

i've never tried mdma. i always seem to forget when i have enough money for a test kit and a few rolls and blow it on something else.

 

[PepperSocks]

Roger that post resonated so much with me. I went to a weekend rave once just to see what it was like after reading about how much of a unifying experience it is...well it really wasn't that great I felt so out of place there. Just a bunch of people swallowing whatever they got they're hands on and some of it was downright disturbing. Never again.

I use MDMA in a similar way. I find I don't REALLY like LSD without a little MDMA mixed in (80mg or so), basically just a noticeable threshold. That's how I like to do LSD, so in that sense I take MDMA once a month but I only take a full MDMA by itself once every 6 months or a year and every time it's absolutely beautiful.

I'm so angry at what E pills have become and where I live it's all I have access to. I always make sure I have a clean pill so in that sense I have access to MDMA but crystal continues to elude me.

I also only buy once a year and I'm glad for it. The people I have to deal with to obtain it I'm not too fond of. It's mixed right in there with the meth/coke scene and it's really sad. Perfect example of something beautiful falling into the wrong hands.

I'm honestly hoping that the shitty state of the pill market has a rebound effect. After people start getting more and more toxic reactions to pipes/meth et al the demand will fall and if people still want to roll the crystal market will jump in and compensate.

If I had one psychoactive material for the rest of my life it would be MDMA. I could do without all the other stuff. I could definitely see myself quiting psychedelics and living a happy life having one MDMA experience a year. I'm finding I'm losing the desire to go out of my mind. I like staying in this world and being "normal" and connecting with people. The real psychedelics crack my head open (as Andy puts it) and I find that's just not what I want anymore.

Unfortunately I also feel myself loosing access to illegals. My life is getting more proffesional and I'm losing contact with friends of the past, some of this is a good thing but pills are harder to get and forget about crystal.

I honestly think that if I want to continue to have a supply of MDMA for a once or twice a year experience I'm going to have to make it myself.

 

[swilow]

Goode morning....Yar, I used to take a lot of "E" and did most certainly fuck myself/brain up. Its odd, I didn't really like ketamine at the time, but during later k-binges I found that I felt exactly like I did when I'd taken "good pills". IE. k bombs

But good morning and hello