PhantomPain
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- Apr 14, 2015
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As stated in the title, i've been having a hard time getting high for any period of time lately.
My background is military, and I suffer from an above knee amputation, but more specifically PLP (Phantom Limb Pain), as well as chronic back, and leg pain as a result.
My current med are fentanyl patch at 75 mcg/hr and morphine 30mgs every 6hr.
However, like many pain relief seekers, I take way more than is recommended.
I use the fentanyl patch orally, and I know it may sound weird but i've been pretty addicted to it. It's by Sandoz, but's it's not the resevoir patch, its just a film. Now, at first, it did get me pretty sky high, but recently, after taking about half a patch almost sublingually, I can't seem to really get anything from it.
The same thing for the morphine. Although i've recently been on Dilaudid, oxy IR, and others. I just wanted to try morphine and my doc was open to it, since i 've never tried it before I and I figured it might be a good idea, because others didn't work so well. I had gotten up to 100mg or so at a time with the Oxy IR, sometimes twice a day. However, i've been doing up to 180mg of morphine oral, with a glass of water, even on an empty stomach, and only feeling dismal effects and for a very short period of time. I can't seem to get that warm and fuzzy feeling from really anything at all anymore! It's really frustrating, because obviously I run out of my scripts early, and my doc told me straight up that he couldn't only really prescibe things up to 5 days in advance from when the 30 day mark was around, and it's been early for 4/5 months now.
Now the thing is... not to take it for granted, but I can pretty much get whatever I want/need because of my condition calling for it. I mean if you think about it, nobody is going to deny that a guy with a missing leg has pain issues, and I take other things as well. Namely, Lyrica, sertraline, Mobic, Mapap, and Zanaflex (at night only) and 2 other things for constipation.
What is my problem?? I mean, my tolerance just skyrockets overnight pretty much. Soon my doc is actually going to be inserting an electric stimulator in my back to help with the pain, and honestly I do hope it does. Although, I do use some of these things recreationally, I do very much need them for legitimate pain, but I just would like to be able to feel a little more than a bit dizzy and a fuzzy for more than 5 or 10 minutes!!
Stresses me out that I can't. I am wondering, what or how much more do I need to take? Is there something that specifically enhances these? I used to take Ketamine, and tried to take white grapfruit juice to get a k-hole but unfortunately I ended up using my whole bottle 10ml/10mg total of 200mg per 20ml in each bottle. I used one whole bottle and about 2 more 1ml syringes sublingually, and it barely did anything to me... was pretty disappointed on that one.
Any suggestions? I feel like I am taking so much, but barely getting dismal effects? Sometimes I will get a nod from the fentanyl at night, but I think it's just because i'm tired AF anyways.
Help and advice is appreciated, from a fellow pain sufferer.
Thank you
My background is military, and I suffer from an above knee amputation, but more specifically PLP (Phantom Limb Pain), as well as chronic back, and leg pain as a result.
My current med are fentanyl patch at 75 mcg/hr and morphine 30mgs every 6hr.
However, like many pain relief seekers, I take way more than is recommended.
I use the fentanyl patch orally, and I know it may sound weird but i've been pretty addicted to it. It's by Sandoz, but's it's not the resevoir patch, its just a film. Now, at first, it did get me pretty sky high, but recently, after taking about half a patch almost sublingually, I can't seem to really get anything from it.
The same thing for the morphine. Although i've recently been on Dilaudid, oxy IR, and others. I just wanted to try morphine and my doc was open to it, since i 've never tried it before I and I figured it might be a good idea, because others didn't work so well. I had gotten up to 100mg or so at a time with the Oxy IR, sometimes twice a day. However, i've been doing up to 180mg of morphine oral, with a glass of water, even on an empty stomach, and only feeling dismal effects and for a very short period of time. I can't seem to get that warm and fuzzy feeling from really anything at all anymore! It's really frustrating, because obviously I run out of my scripts early, and my doc told me straight up that he couldn't only really prescibe things up to 5 days in advance from when the 30 day mark was around, and it's been early for 4/5 months now.
Now the thing is... not to take it for granted, but I can pretty much get whatever I want/need because of my condition calling for it. I mean if you think about it, nobody is going to deny that a guy with a missing leg has pain issues, and I take other things as well. Namely, Lyrica, sertraline, Mobic, Mapap, and Zanaflex (at night only) and 2 other things for constipation.
What is my problem?? I mean, my tolerance just skyrockets overnight pretty much. Soon my doc is actually going to be inserting an electric stimulator in my back to help with the pain, and honestly I do hope it does. Although, I do use some of these things recreationally, I do very much need them for legitimate pain, but I just would like to be able to feel a little more than a bit dizzy and a fuzzy for more than 5 or 10 minutes!!
Stresses me out that I can't. I am wondering, what or how much more do I need to take? Is there something that specifically enhances these? I used to take Ketamine, and tried to take white grapfruit juice to get a k-hole but unfortunately I ended up using my whole bottle 10ml/10mg total of 200mg per 20ml in each bottle. I used one whole bottle and about 2 more 1ml syringes sublingually, and it barely did anything to me... was pretty disappointed on that one.
Any suggestions? I feel like I am taking so much, but barely getting dismal effects? Sometimes I will get a nod from the fentanyl at night, but I think it's just because i'm tired AF anyways.
Help and advice is appreciated, from a fellow pain sufferer.
Thank you