cannabis vs. boldness

[icecube]

ok, so I just had a further step related my boldness, so I'm really starting to wonder....



I'm a smoker for two years (only!), and I'm living with my mother - which is very conservative and would cut my penis off in case she finds out
So after 10 months smoking every week, I had my first try at home while she was out.
It's fucking awesome but still bothers me a little bit about the possibility of being caught

Since then I just smoke at home once a month, it's enought for me...
Also, I realize that nowadays I get home really high somentimes and talk to her normaly, like she wouldn't take a hint.

So....... today someone invited me to smoke skunk (which I had never even seen before).. plus pot here, which I'm used to, is way worst than in europe or usa.
After a good time, I came home, still a little high.. it's 4 a.m., and she's sleeping.. so when the effect started to fade away for real, I had this strong wish to smoke a little bit.

I started rolling it, thinking the best possible place to burn it...
And I discovered that there's a easy way to get to the roof of the first floor (I live in a two floors house, don't know how to say in english)
This roof is the farther spot from her window.. and I did it, feeling the wind and looking at the starts..


But I'm really concerned about it.. how daring will I get? I'm already smoking during her sleep time...
Is it possible that it will get more and more dangerous till she finds it out?
I'm really believing that this was a one time thing, that I won't have this temptation so fool again..

then?

 

[MatthewD]

Haha dude... I don't know what to say. I used to rip bongs under the cover of long showers (1/2 the time smoking, the other half sobering up and washing the smell off). No one can predict this but you, but one thing I can tell you, is that you're definitely not going to gain a heightened level of courage from smoking. You could get addicted to the thrill of getting away with it... Hell, my parents didn't even give a shit, but I still hid it from them for fun (see: hide and seek), until they had caught me enough times that the game was no longer amusing.

 

[Help?!?!]

Well its start with you sneaking out onto the roof to smoke joints and ends with you sneaking into the bathroom to shoot up....errr wait this is a different style story. IMO probably will, its how it went with me and my friends. Some friends had parents that did cut their dicks off after they got to bold so I guess moral of the story is, find a perfect way of smoking with no risk or don't do it at all. Or just get high and be paranoid, thats what some people do regularly anyways.

 

[Tommyboy]

Haha dude... I don't know what to say. I used to rip bongs under the cover of long showers (1/2 the time smoking, the other half sobering up and washing the smell off). No one can predict this but you, but one thing I can tell you, is that you're definitely not going to gain a heightened level of courage from smoking. You could get addicted to the thrill of getting away with it... Hell, my parents didn't even give a shit, but I still hid it from them for fun (see: hide and seek), until they had caught me enough times that the game was no longer amusing.

I think that he means that he thinks that he may become more bold in regards to becoming more daring with the places/times that he is smoking. He doesn't mean that he is becoming more bold while high, but rather more bold so that he can get high.

 

[MatthewD]

I think that he means that he thinks that he may become more bold in regards to becoming more daring with the places/times that he is smoking. He doesn't mean that he is becoming more bold while high, but rather more bold so that he can get high.

True! Well, that can be the case. I used to just cruise down town on my skateboard smoking joints. Once you get the "don't give a fuck attitude", it's hard to get rid of it. That is, paranoia wont dictate your decisions, and you'll be more inclined to weigh up chances and consequences.

 

[purple_cloud]

Tommyboy is right with the intended purposes of this thread. Although, in that case, I don't think this falls under "harm reduction" material, CD material, nor anything other than dicksizing "OMG I was so daring I baked out my car in front of a cop!!" so I'm going to close this. Any questions, PM me (if I don't respond, please see my location and realize that I may not have internet service at that point in time.)