Why not go back to the six month rehab and just surrender to the process. Sounds like a sweet opportunity . I think a lot of addicts need a longer term rehab. But instead are kicked out at 30 or 60 days whether they are ready or not
Yeah, I kind of regret leaving that rehab now, it was a Salvation Army adult rehab in Cincinnati...and they will let anyone come back as many times as they like, even if they leave like i did, It was 100% FREE, but the only catch was, you had to work in one of their thrift stores, usually unloading semi trucks or other kind of work...I was in so fucking sick the days I was in there, I could barely walk to the bathroom though, Im not sure how long it takes for the major body aches to go away, I dont see how other people coming off this shit are able to unload trucks in this condition!
Salvation army rehabs are totally cold turkey too, no medical detox available.
I did meet some really nice people there too, about 80% were there for H, most others were in for booze, the only other thing I didnt think I could get used to was, they had 6 guys in each 'dorm room', the condition I was in while there, I tossed and turned all night, but since I had just come in, they didnt have me assigned to a dorm room yet, and was in a room by myself, had I stayed, I would have had to be in a 6 man room though, I was kind of worried about keeping everyone else up at night from my constant moving around.
I know i cant afford the passages type rehabs at over $100,000. per month, but I have to believe there is something inbetween salvation army and passages, that has a medical detox...but I really think I can get this shit under control if I can somehow get ahold of Clonidine, Librium, etc, that way, the sickness wouldnt be an issue, but getting a script for anything like this is tough nowadays, I can probably get them on the street, but dont have alot of money, so I would not be able to get many of them. I can get Xannies, but want to avoid benzos if I can...Librium is really what i want.
