Fyasko.
Bluelighter
hey guys,
hope everyone's been getting better
haven't/dont have time to browse so i dont know whats been going on with all of ya.
i posted this in the depression thread but im gonna ask it here so hopefully i get some more answers:
i know drugs arent helping at all, but i was clean for a few weeks and it was the worst i've ever felt.
it was a beautiful day, i was in the mountains with my "family" on a little vacation and i just felt like complete shit.
i just wanted to cry and run anywhere, just run
which led to me going back to Adderall (i had/have a huge problem with the stuff ) this week
i told my connect not to sell to me anymore, so i should be done with that today.
and this weekend i plan on rolling (MDMA) with my bestfriend only because MDMA is so beneficial to me psychologically/emotionally/overall (while im on it and the next few months IME )
but after this weekend i plan on stopping everything so wish me luck guys
and once again, hope everyones doing better than the last thread (thats the last time i had time to read8))
hope everyone's been getting better
haven't/dont have time to browse so i dont know whats been going on with all of ya.i posted this in the depression thread but im gonna ask it here so hopefully i get some more answers:
anyways i was wondering if anyone had some insight on something stuck in my thoughts:
can stress cause chemical changes leading to depression? i think i remember something about the hormone Cortisol wreaking havoc on neurotransmitters. its just that i've gotten past the main- stressor in my life but im still depressed, and its fucking getting worse...
i know drugs arent helping at all, but i was clean for a few weeks and it was the worst i've ever felt.
it was a beautiful day, i was in the mountains with my "family" on a little vacation and i just felt like complete shit.
i just wanted to cry and run anywhere, just run
which led to me going back to Adderall (i had/have a huge problem with the stuff ) this week
i told my connect not to sell to me anymore, so i should be done with that today.
and this weekend i plan on rolling (MDMA) with my bestfriend only because MDMA is so beneficial to me psychologically/emotionally/overall (while im on it and the next few months IME )
but after this weekend i plan on stopping everything so wish me luck guys
and once again, hope everyones doing better than the last thread (thats the last time i had time to read8))

