Soap MacTavish
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Jul 12, 2010
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- 293
Well the worst is over now. I did have a bad panic attack that night in the middle of the night and demanded that my wife call and ambulance because I was firmly locked in a delusion that I was indeed having a cardiac infarction and was on the edge of death and losing the world. The chest pain my mind manifested was breathaking, it hurt so bad I literally had to lay on my side and grab my chestplate. I've had the vasospasms in my chest before but this one hurt like a heavy pressure. My wife was like "ok take deep breaths with me, deeeeeep deeeeeeep breaths" and I did and then suddenly my chest pain went away and I slowly emerged from the static blur of psychotic panic, totally baffled that this drug bested me once again.
No permanent damage except for the psychological kind and maybe a few billion neurons crisped. Totally unfun. Not worth giving up on yet. I'm starting to look like the people in my past who have died from drug ODs; just totally fucking stupid, reckless, and irresponsible.
No permanent damage except for the psychological kind and maybe a few billion neurons crisped. Totally unfun. Not worth giving up on yet. I'm starting to look like the people in my past who have died from drug ODs; just totally fucking stupid, reckless, and irresponsible.