Mdma weekly from my experience and by definition deplete a lot of serotonin and I think dopamine before the afterlow, so when taken that often can explain the effect mentioned.
Also you mentioned speed, if amphetamine(dopaminergic activity, some serotonin maybe), that could be the case of depletion as well.
Maybe OP if you can try to take Mdma max 3x a year just a proposition. (like a New Year determination BS);-)
Around 2015. I did Mdma like weekly that summer and I got most intense brain zaps( just a moment before I was about to get asleep I would get electric shock from brain to toes).
So I spent time reading all about stuff I took or been taking since Bluelight being the first place!
As for Suboxone I tried couple times in the past and snorting felt lighter than sublingual or I had more of a side effects( headache...can't remember the other!), while buprenorphine alone (Subutex) works great intranasal in doses maybe 8mg max in my case 1mg now, max 3mg!
I feel the antidepressant effects (stimulation, slightly histamine elevated, cognition( better concentration, no racing thoughts, small analgesia)) and with MPH prescribed Concerta 72mg I don't have crashes.
But that can be because I already have anxiety levels high every second day, with or without Concerta due to mild benzo withdrawal and pregabalin tapering.
I noticed that when taking higher doses, when I'm without cannabis like 6mg I would get RLS and Insomnia and irritability but that could be because of lack of THC/CBD, fibromyalgia.
Also L-tyrosine, Zinc(dopamine depletion) and L-theanine(takes the edge when stimulated) helps as magnesium does.
Hey thanks, I appreciate the input!
I'm interested in a few of those you mentioned at the end, especially L-theanine. We regularly take Magnesium supplements too, and Zinc. My wife keeps us up to date on that front, most of the time.
Myself, I can't handle much THC at all (triggers panic attacks). CBD is okay though, and for a while I was mixing low-THC with high-CBD for an effective treatment. Worked for a while, until I had a nervous breakdown. That's when I sort of relapsed hard, into DXM and then opiates from there. (But I digress...)
I used Suboxone recreationally a couple times, at brief intervals. Say 3-4weeks each time. Back then, I had enough to taper down from on my own, so I didn't need any programs. This time though, I got caught up in it without a safety-net. Had to enroll in a program, which was good. They're understanding, and I think they sort of know we might fail, but are there to see us back through at the proper time. So, I'm grateful for it.
Sure, I'll consider doing MDMA only 3x per year.... just as soon as I know whether or not I`m even taking MDMA, lol. I highly doubt it, as I`ve mentioned previously. What I`m taking isn`t what I`d call "stimulating" at all really. The effects are pretty enjoyable, although nothing "mindblowing" as I expect MDMA to be, from what I've heard. I can't even say as there's much about this substance I'm on now that could be termed "entheogenic" even.
If I knew even a bit more what I might be dealing with, I wouldn't be afraid to take multiple doses of this (so far as body-load, overall "feeling" is concerned). Like, I don't get the impression that I'm going to be "cracked out" or overstimulated (at all) if I were to take even 2 more capsules. Just a very pronounced "heady" sort of feeling. No real hallucinations to speak of, except for a bit of a shimmery glow that everything takes on, seemingly related to the pupil-dilation (which is VERY pronounced, haha).
Since you mentioned it, I'm also on Lyrica (which I'm abusing, they have me at such a low dose.... started me on 25mg, now I'm on 75mg at least, but I'm hoping they'll raise it to at least 300mg. I don't intend at all to take it daily, but as something to take once or twice a week, it can be helpful in my case. I take benzos too. Prescribed 15mg of Oxazepam daily, but I do try and only take half when I can. Lately, it's been fluctuating. Lots of stress to deal with, tbh.
Another reason why I like this "mystery capsule," as it helps me not reach for my benzos so quickly when the speed exacerbates my anxiety. Oh, crap... guess I mentioned that, sorry for the repetition. Anyways though, if it can be something I can use on the side, even once in a while, it'll help. I'm really doing my best to find out all I can about what it could be, even before getting a kit. I'm not sure it's a cathinone, or methylone, it doesn't seem as stimulating as descriptions of that make it out to be. Doesn't sound like PMA (thank God) or N-ethylpentylone to me.
I figure if I can rule out as many possibilities as I can, it's only a "simple" (lol) process of elimination. Naive of me, perhaps. Looking into sites for reagent test kits, I thought it'd be more simple than that, but I'm probably just not used to the process.
Anyhow, thank you for your patience in reading this far, if you have. Apologies for the post-length. Thank you (all) for your response(s).