I can't stand shrooms. Too nauseating.
Don't do it. Or do it and maybe find you're over it. Do a different substance. To be honest, doing it as an adult I haven't found the same amazing experience as when I was younger, coming of age.
If psychedelics are the most meaningful thing in your life, even after 8years of not daring to trip, there might be something missing in your life other than drugs.
And don't feel embarrassed. I've felt how you've felt. Drugs are powerful and so are our brains. It's not shameful to be scared of both of them. If you're around people who make you feel ashamed, tell them to grow up. If they are making you feel bad, it might be because of some deeply suppressed anxiety of their own. And don't trip with them. If you trip, do it with people who are understanding and reassuring (perhaps people on a lighter dose than you). You do have the advantage that, having tripped many times before, you know your body can handle it. So trust your instincts.
Don't do it. Or do it and maybe find you're over it. Do a different substance. To be honest, doing it as an adult I haven't found the same amazing experience as when I was younger, coming of age.
If psychedelics are the most meaningful thing in your life, even after 8years of not daring to trip, there might be something missing in your life other than drugs.
And don't feel embarrassed. I've felt how you've felt. Drugs are powerful and so are our brains. It's not shameful to be scared of both of them. If you're around people who make you feel ashamed, tell them to grow up. If they are making you feel bad, it might be because of some deeply suppressed anxiety of their own. And don't trip with them. If you trip, do it with people who are understanding and reassuring (perhaps people on a lighter dose than you). You do have the advantage that, having tripped many times before, you know your body can handle it. So trust your instincts.