ugh. will be seeing my Subox Dr. on Tuesday at 1PM and then my brain tumor Dr. on Wednesday at 2PM. that will be a long day at Mass General Hospital, ugh! whatever tho, it has to happen for me to get better in ALL ALWAYS! it's just such a long day there. also, I usually have to do a class on Wednesday for Subox but since it's been 3 months I no longer have to attend the classes.
I will be also be picking up a few benzo's from a friend this week; although I am "clean" I still get benzo's here and there. They have always helped me greatly w/ anxiety but my script was cut once I openly admitted to be an addict. I could see if they cut the script by the total pill count but they cut the script as a whole. oh well. now I just pick up a few pieces of a month on the street. no more 90 .5MG xanny for $15. now it's about 10 10MG Valium for $20. doesnt seem as good, huh? well, I dont need them to abuse I just use to kill any anxious time I may have. they sure do help but HATE having to buy them from the street since I am staying away from all that. luckily, it's not the same person as my dope man and it's also someone who has been staying away from the dope but happens be be scripted benzos.
well, just wanted to get on here and complain a bit about the week ahead. I am laying here watching Sunday night Football after smoking a small bowl and thinking of a busy week ahead. ugh. good part is there will be NO HEROIN involved and I will save 100's and 100's of dollars. crazy that I ever did that before.
I will be also be picking up a few benzo's from a friend this week; although I am "clean" I still get benzo's here and there. They have always helped me greatly w/ anxiety but my script was cut once I openly admitted to be an addict. I could see if they cut the script by the total pill count but they cut the script as a whole. oh well. now I just pick up a few pieces of a month on the street. no more 90 .5MG xanny for $15. now it's about 10 10MG Valium for $20. doesnt seem as good, huh? well, I dont need them to abuse I just use to kill any anxious time I may have. they sure do help but HATE having to buy them from the street since I am staying away from all that. luckily, it's not the same person as my dope man and it's also someone who has been staying away from the dope but happens be be scripted benzos.
well, just wanted to get on here and complain a bit about the week ahead. I am laying here watching Sunday night Football after smoking a small bowl and thinking of a busy week ahead. ugh. good part is there will be NO HEROIN involved and I will save 100's and 100's of dollars. crazy that I ever did that before.
