Jamshyd
Bluelight Crew
Hehe, I wonder what negrogesic was on when he wrote those messages...
Jamshyd, look at this: http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/7128188
The doses used in that experiment were a lot higher than what you are about to take, and the nausea caused by the treatment wasn't severe.
Thanks for sharing, definitely makes me a bit more confident here!
Don't worry, you're funny (in a good way) and even oddly charmingI was drunk on technical grade ethanol (yes, 100% ethanol, with ice its still hurts but is bearable). I actually ended up vomiting after, which is very rare for me (i think it was because of taking it with a large amout of a ZMA supplement. Hey at least i'm honest. For better or worse this computer like smart phone (cost as much as a computer, 1.5 ghz, overally complicated!), makes me constantly "wired in" with good but imperfect voice recognition which worsens my superfluous/verbose responses.

Btw, I have in fact listened to Schubert's Death of the Maiden when you mentioned it to me a long time ago. I thought it was good, but I also figured you see a lot more in it than I do as I lack the musical training that you seem to have..? In a way similar to how Shulgin makes several analogies to music in PiHKAL that I simply don't get

Tried selegiline on several occasions, and found it fickle at best. It is usually characterized by feeling baseline or slightly-nice, until "triggered" (last time by a glass of white wine, with as little as 2.5mg) to produce some really nasty physical effects (hypertension and overheating).Back to the point: jamshyd, have you tried selegine or even nardil?
Even in the best of my moods, I still feel an element in my pro-creactive faculty somehow "broken" the same way it was broken after the GHB but not broken before it. (And enhanced insanely by it).How severe is the anhedonia?
Is it accompanied with an other psychiatric symptoms or pre-existing comorbs?
I am diagnosed with Depression as well as ADD. The depression, be it uni- or bi-polar, is cured perfectly if I use K responsibly.
My psychiatrist recently ruled out bipolar and proposed fibromiyalgia, for which I am waiting to be checked by a specialist with a very long waiting list.
Never tried Mirtazepine, and probably never willBasically i need more info to properally answer your question. Have you ever tried mirtazapine........personally i find it superior to odansetron, which you are correct, is primarily a 5-HT antagonist (5-HT3 etc).

Final questions, what is your current toxicology profile (aka.....what are you 'taking')? Aside from the toxic psychosis, do you currently experience any psychosis (specifically, auditory, visual, paranoid, delusional or any inability to perceive/differentiate 'reality etc'). In theory to answer that question would rule out psychotic disorders, but in practice it does not (ex, I have seen patients with severe schizophrenia discount or even admit that they are sick).
Never had psychosis before, and never after, the three episodes that happened in the summer of '07. At that time, I was on 200 or so mgs of dexedrine and 100 or so mg of bromazepam, maintained for several months without breaks, with questionable things like pentazocine thrown in the mix occasionally for good measure. And in ALL three times, I caught myself losing control and actually remedied it before it got out of hand, once by stopping the drugs and forcing sleep, once by taking an antipsychotic, and the last time, having neither, resorted to riding it out with breath-control (pranayama). To me, the ability to spot one's self at the onset of psychosis and working on fixing it is THE sign of mental tenacity.
These days the ONLY recreational drugs I use are Ketamine and occasional adderall (prescribed).
Right now I am not taking any reacreational drugs, and am only on the things mentioned in my second post in this thread, namely hydergine, adrafinil, and gabapentin (the latter RXed).
Oh, and while I clinically I cannot recommend due to safety issues, personally I have found single high doses of an NMDA-ant like ketamine (IV not IM, but this is very dangerous and I cannot in good conscience advocate IV ketamine, this could technically result in fatalities). While I did it repeatedly (i don’t like the psychedelic element of IM, IV gets me high with much less psychotomim). It can be done safely with an experienced "sitter", but i am reckless with my own health (and very cautious with the health of others....go figure).
Point is, a single high dose (borderline anesthetic) of ketamine or nitrous oxide (do not self-administer in continuous infusion, that is even more dangerous) has, subjectively, significantly reduced anhedonia, but there is a catch.....the effect is short-lived, in my experience, lasting 3-12 days. I prefer nitrous oxide induction, but I must INSIST against this due to danger (even though i have the proper equipment, with timers and sensible O2 ratios, this is still very reckless done alone).
I recall you had a love affair of sorts with ketamine, so this may not be an option/relevant. Just an idea.
Ya' think?


The K works like magic for my depression, but does nothing for my anhedonia, which seems to be libido-tied. Since we're using Freudian language, I might as well say that my anhedonia has to do with a propensity to be on the thanatic-side of the thanatos-eros continuum... if that makes any sense...