BrokedownPalace
Bluelight Crew
I did my detox at home this time, out of compassion for any possible roommate. The snoring/apnea isn't bad in detox, but I literally can't lie still for about three hours when I lie down--STILL--and I'm abstinent almost four weeks. Trying not to wake up the roommate just makes the RLS worse.
Ok, so it wasn't just compassion for roommates--I also have a healthy hatred for detox rules. Every other wing of the hospital lets you have a tv, ipod, cigarette breaks outside--SOMETHING to pass the time. The detox wing here doesn't allow any of that so you have nothing to do but think about drugs. Goddamn human rights issue if you ask me. The rationale is that we might hang ourselves with our ear pods or something, or we might watch something inappropriate and set someone off. Yet visitors are allowed.
Odd that the upper body is fine in detox. Kicking junk would be far easier if I just amputated my legs. Hmm...
Yeah man I totally agree. I detoxed in the hospital that time I mentioned, and it was exactly the same as you described. Couldn't have phones, iPods, anything. No television in our rooms. They had ONE tv in the 'lounge' as they called it. Which obviously doesn't go too well since there are 25 other people who all want to watch something different.
Also we couldn't go outside to smoke, or AT ALL for that matter. We were allowed visitors for like 1 hour a day. Horrible.
I don't get how locking someone up in the top floor of the hospital is therapeutic or beneficial at all. Sure, I didn't do dope/methadone for about 10 days, and also got cut off of klonopin cold turkey.. I was barely able to sleep 1-2 hours a night, since all they gave me was fucking trazadone.. No suboxone, no benzos, nothing.. Every night lie in the fetal position praying for sleep, swimming in a pool of sweat. Hot/cold, hot/cold, hot cold.. Miserable.
At the end of my stay I was still having bad withdrawals from benzos, and dope. I convinced them I was well enough to leave, so I could get the fuck outta there. I was still so destroyed from detox, that about 3 minutes after they released me I was on my way to Newark.
I swear on my father's ashes that if I need to go to a detox facility in the future, I will NEVER go back to the hospital wing. Such a sham.. The 'psychiatrist' and counselor/nurses were basically incompetent. It was more like a zoo, a cage to lock up the bad/sad pandas.
Totally the wrong way to go about getting off of drugs and re-habilitate. THey did NOTHING to help me with my DIAGNOSED depression, anxiety, and insomnia issues. No wonder so many people fucking relapse.