Bored and not wanting to study.

My take on the best drugs:

1. DMT - Pure transcendence. Incredible euphoria, unbeatable visuals, ease of acquisition and a sense of cosmic warmth pervade the list of why this is simply #1.
2. LSD - Incredible 'analytical' potential, fantastic artificial visuals surpassed only by the deems, wonderful synaesthesia at high doses and duration place this squarely behind the King of Psychs.
3. Oxycodone - For me, oxy is everything I was looking for in MDMA, but without the hangover. Price keeps this one in rare attendance, however its ability to give me extroversion and to extinguish all of my mental/physical unease earn it a place in my top 3. Also good for my (at times) insomniac mind.


Honorable Mention:

4-AcO-DMT - There is no reason to take mushrooms when this is in existence. Devoid of confusion or anxiety, what keeps this out of the top 3 is its rarity and finicky dosing. Snorting this drug steals its depth and eating it requires planning, as with 9/10 psychedelics.
2-CB - Though I have limited experience with this chemical, its friendliness and short duration make it a very recreational psychedelic.
2-CE - Eating this has never gotten me where I wanted to be, although snorting this painful phen has provided non-stop eye candy for hours. Fun yet unbalanced. Many place this alongside or even above LSD. It is my favorite "baseline to trip in under 3 minutes" drug when I am not looking to blast off on Dmitri.
2-CT-7 - Painful and intense, I need to try eating this one. Snorting around 18mg gave me the most out of control trip I could ask for visually. My LSD trips have given me cleaner, more articulate visuals but T7 (as with to some extent 2-CE) made the whole world its canvas.
Cocaine - Only snorted this stuff once but it was basically everything I expected. Price & comedown are famously not worth it.

Experience with above chemicals:

DMT: In the ballpark of 50-60 trips, can't really say
LSD: 13 trips including two candy flips
Oxy: About half a dozen experiences
4-AcO-DMT: 4 trips
The 2C family: All told, roughly a dozen trips on these

I find opium to be about on par with oxycodone and can only surmise that heroin would be similar as well, except just stronger I guess. I've been offered dope on the house before, but the chemical's history was just too much to ignore and I wound up passing on it. The one psychedelic I would really like to try but haven't gotten the chance to is mescaline and TBH I believe it would be the phenethylamine equivalent of 4-AcO-DMT.

4/4/09 edit: Having tried tramadol now, I believe I can place it alongside oxycodone. 200mg + 20mg diazepam was lovely as was 600mg + cannabis. It's really great. I've only tried it two or three times so unfortunately my opinion on it may be rather shallow.

 

Looking back on the list I made of my favorite drugs, it is pretty funny to me. I have since tried a slew of additional painkillers and honestly my fondness for alcohol has grown to the point where a good night for me is pot, a great night is pot and booze, and an excellent night is those two + an opiate, benzo, or both.

I don't trip anymore, even though psychedelics were for a long time my favorite favorite drugs. DMT is still #1, don't get that twisted. But nowadays I feel that tripping on anything else would only exacerbate the depression I used to cover up with my psych use.

I can't remember why I started this blog post. I guess I want to say that sometimes, in the end, it's the hard drugs that teach you the lasting lessons. It is very unlikely that someone will happen across this blog post; it is more cathartic than anything.

I've now done LSD close to 20 times, research chemicals another 15 or so times, mushrooms at least 5 times and looking back on it I would only consider doing mush again and in a very prepared setting, preferably by myself or one other person. It's less exhausting on me mentally to get high on heroin or a pharm than to torture myself with mind games during a 6+ hour trip. Fuck that shit.

I took all of my 40 some-odd trips (excl. Deems) pretty much in 2008 with a little in surrounding years. God how I wish I knew what my life could be like if that I didn't focus my energy on messing with that shit. I feel bronzed, hardened, conditioned almost by all of my fuckups. I feel like my perspective has improved, but so has my cynicism and perceived age of self. Post done.