^^^ ain't that i appreciate the advice or anything, but man, you're a chilled motherfucker already.
you're an attractive young man, and you manage to get up on stage (in front of people omg!!) on a regular basis, and not just talk, but rhyme.
trust me, people with issues like me don't take such things lightly. thus, date = high stress. i mean, i'm going. it will happen. in some ways my post is just an indication of my feelings for the vague amusement of the people here - i expect that i'll fuck shit up and things will end bad, but i'm not gonna try to make that happen.
"think positive" isn't in my vocabulary. if i did think positive, i'd be confused. it feels unnatural for me. i can survive without doing so. i might often avoid positive things happening, but not always. something good might come of this, despite all my horrible thoughts.
it's a movie - outdoors - so the plan is something even i can deal with. it's gonna be the 'moments' (ya know, the 'do i kiss her now?', the 'am i going to my place?', etc etc times) that fuck me. pressure and i don't get along well.
and no no no. both me and her ARE politics. i mean i talk about mindless stuff constantly. but i can't help but talk politics. it's important to me, it's important to her. and what you need to understand is that with two such highly strung people as us, there's going to be tension anyway.
*sigh*
it might be just fine - i mean we're not gonna argue - it's just that we're both rather highly strung anyway, so i'm sure it will be walking the tight rope any time, anywhere. that doesn't need to be a bad thing. i guess it's like i'm about to go bungee jumping. just gonna trust that it's good.
trust.
trust.
omg i'm gonna run away
